We are all lonely in this world.
I think we just need someone
to walk by our side.
The catch is that that someone
needs to stay there.
**Forever.

click click i'm pressing a button
a button that has no meaning
i am making some words
but the words not following
the words become a sentence
but the sentence tells nothing
maybe this is a feeling
something i cannot tell
or show
or give
its just a feeling
that will eventually die
of old age
and abandonment
click click i want this button to work
but there is no result
there is only wasted space
and empty intervals
line breaks
ends here
now
then never
give me a word to make sense
give me three words to end this
to
end
this

Butterflies and pills
Broken window sills
You left me here
With the wind
If I jump
Is it a sin?

I love you,
But you won't speak my name.

I miss you,
But you don't feel the same.

I want you,
But you are angry in flame.

I need you,
But you think this is a game.

I forgive you,
But you think I'm to blame.

I'm in the back of your mind.
I'm just that cardboard box of old memories that everyone
leaves on the top shelf,
Allowing it to dust over.
She's in the front of your mind.
She's the box of prized possessions
You look at and think about every day.
What do I mean to you?
Nothing?
Nothing at all?
I want to mean something to you,
I want to mean more than a dusty cardboard box.

I hate myself
every little thing
the voice in my head
often reminds me
I should be dead

I hate myself
every tiny detail
my body my face
everything I wish
I could easily replace

I hate myself
every thing I do
I talk too much
and think too much
and wish I could find you

I hate myself
every thought I think
I imagine images
of a happy version
of you and me

I hate myself
every word I say
The words that pour out
the way they are phrased
the words I shouldn't have said

I hate myself
every little thing
I wish someone cared
I wish someone could see
this invisible me

I hate myself
every small wish
I wish to die
I wish to sink
but I never do
bc I'm scared to go through

I hate myself
for being so weak
for not being able to fix
the broken thing that is me