blue eyes, oh love
how many ways can I describe them?
at night, when we celebrate, they shine like the darkened sea
things hiding just below the surface, full of mystery

in the morning, though you're tired, they sparkle with delight
i look through them, transparent, and i see all your light
the light you try to hide, underneath your sneaky smile
and every time it drops, i see you for a while

and in the afternoon, after hours of hard work,
i see them soften a little, like a toddler, you give cheeky smirk
you look especially dreamy, when the sun just kisses your eyes
and when your lashes flutter, they sing me lullabies

when you're happy oh so happy!
you give a little grin!
your eyes light up and twinkle!
And here I go again.

because try as I may,
to push you from my life,
you come back to me,
with that twinkle in your eyes.

blue eyes, blue eyes,
i can't even begin
to express my love for blue eyes
oh here we go again.

Lying here at night,
Your name flashing on my screen
I can't, I won't answer.
You make me want to scream.

But it's all too confusing,
I can't say how or why,
You make me so emotional,
you're the reason that I cry.

And yet, as the light fades
from my dingy old phone,
I wonder if you realised,
I wonder if you know.

Perhaps its why you called me,
so late that very night.
It's because you know, you know!
You know it's not alright.

You know it's not okay
for me to want you like this.
Because she was my friend,
and yet I still long to kiss

those magic smirking lips.
I still long to feel our warm cheeks brush
as you sweetly laugh at me,
because I can't help but blush.

Is it okay to be friends,
with this secret that I hold?
I hope that one day you realise,
before your feet grow cold.

I remember the days where we ruled the world
I remember the moment you first said hello
I remember the start and the soon coming end
And I watch how quickly my heart has becomes dead
The words and the sayings that once filled my mind
The broken pieces all starting to collide
The Once perfect boy that we all knew
Has fallen from his pedestal and has now become taboo
The scars in my soul will remain unseen
Until its finally time to que the final scene
Like fragments of a memory that just past us by
My love for you stands until I die.

Remember the sun as it blazed from above
Remember the stars as we talked about love
Remember the time when you stood up and said I am dying without her so I stayed in her stead
My chest grew tight as more time moved on
Always thinking about her and the things that you did
The treasured memories that I hold dear
Mean nothing to you, so I must shed a tear
Holding on tight like I have nothing to lose
I threw away everything to side by you
But why is it now that life has passed us by
That I stay here in silence as you live on just fine

Do you remember me running my fingers through your hair?
Do you remember me humming sweet tunes into your ear?
Do you remember me holding you gently in my arms as you cried about her and the things you did wrong
Drinking only dulls the pain
A temporary solution I would always explain
As I listened to your woes time and time again
I could surely feel my stomach filling up with dread
Slowly over time I became your number one
Only for that to falter as soon as she became undone
I loved you with my body soul and heart to rest
But why is there still a sinking feeling inside my chest.

I remember all the days that past us by
I remember all the simple things that made you cry
I remember all the nights that I lay awake, talking to you and making sure you were okay
The fun times, the dark times and all the in between
Nothing came between us until the later scene
A offer was made and you took your chance to run
Leaving me behind with nothing left but my love
Desperately clawing and trying to hold you close
Trying to express the words that I forever left unspoke

Breathe in, breathe out.
Am I breathing too much?
Why am I not blinking?

Breathe in, breathe out.
Maybe I'll drink some water,
No, no it just comes straight up again.

Breathe in, breathe out.
My head has lifted off my shoulders like a hot air balloon.
I think I'm blacking out.

Breathe in, breathe out.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Take another anti-depressant.

Let it all fade to grey.

Stark white
Bright, like the morning sun.
Comfortable, yet unnerving

Pitch black
Dark, like the forest at 3am
Deep, and unknowing



There was never a gray spot.



You have changed.



Dark like me.