It’s crazy

Crazy how someone can care so deeply about you
But they can’t help from hurting you
Betrayal at its finest is what it is


When will I heal?
When will I forgive?


Because I want him here to be my rock
And I want to trust him again but I’m still stuck

Stuck on how he chose up
Stuck on how he switched up
Stuck on that feeling I had deep in my heart
Stuck on the memory that still tears me apart


I can’t forget no matter how much I try
things will never be the same
My trust is one thing he can never fully regain


Playing myself like a fool is one thing I cannot do
No matter how much he claims to have switched the way he moves


When he looks into my eyes he sees the pain
That very same pain I felt when everything changed
when I look in his eyes I see adorement
but still and yet I can’t see us making this commitment

He is mine...Though I doubt this to be fully true
And I long to be his but will we see this through


When will I heal?
When will I forgive?


Will I ever find more love for him ...to give?

New face
New voice
Same feels
Same fears

I love how
You relieve me
But I fear
That you’ll leave me

Like the others
That wondered about
Until they found what they sought out
Leaving my heart to whither and shrink
While my thoughts become filled with doubt.

I know the steps to shatter your heart
To make you feel this pain like me
The pain that holds my heart captive
The type of pain that runs deep

But My heart can’t gather enough strength to break you

Like you so easily broke me

Because I can’t see you broken without damaging myself

While struggling to help you find all of your shattered pieces