******, ******
Just orders, protect borders
Justice and order, Fixers and sorters
Guts on a camcorder
**** out if you can afford her
**** hotels for the soldiers
Taped and stored in federal folders
Holes in daughters
Blood and *** drips as you hold her
Got questions, torture and water boarders
Doers, leaders, fuhrers
Child soldier bullets go pitter patter, splatter    
Colonial slavers are the industry pavers
Acceptable loss, lawyers and waivers
Watch or ignore it with entertainers
Silver screen lives and liars
Fired and dead reporters
****** in the mortar
So **** your leaders
Or live in hell forever

Trippin and feelin, cripplin depression
Ugly complexion, sippin at concessions
Say its to cope with depression and oppression
But its hedonism and gratification
Basic ******* in lieu of connection
****** with no protection
My life needs an abortion
Get a portion spent without caution
Psylocybin and tax evasion
******* with no correction
Cocktails a fusion that cause confusion
Light concussion drinking white russians
Blurry vision a small contusion
Another forgotten session of confessions
Never learned my own lessons
Can't count my own blessings
Just count the shell casings
Bullets spent on the killings
Dead children for coffin stuffing
Dead presidents for coffer filling
Written off on tax filings
Tax credits for our kings
And all golden things
While I choke from the chains
Broke from bills and pain
A joke before it starts to rain
Work and you will gain
Sweat out your pores till it stains
Sticky and wet in your rusty red chains
Iron oxide is in your veins
And its locked you up in your brain
I came into a world of novacaine
Daddy addicted to release from pain
For every pill of joy he gained
I lost a little of the one from who I was named
And when the time came I left him behind
One of the many times I have sinned
Watched my flesh grow dead and strained
Till I could watch no more as he changed
Now I trip and feel a cripplin depression
My ugly complexion matchin a ugly confession
A dead dad left to his depression under oppression
Hidden in hedonism and gratification
Constant ******* without a connection
Cuz he ****** without protection
I wish I was chosen for an abortion
Blurry vision from all the drinking
Anything that isn't thinking
This is just another session of my confessions
Which I will learn none of the lessons
Soon to be forgotten
Lost in dead in all the oppression
Focus in on so much corruption
Never look at my own problems
Or my own solutions
I watch my own flesh grow dead and strained

I know I shouldn't touch the flames
But I keep reaching out covered in burns
I can't feel my skin
Tongue taste tin
I left my brain
So I'm right as rain

Right on time give me some change
Right on time can't you spare some change
I know, I know
I've really let go
But it don't show
The flames they glow

And I shouldn't put my hand forward
When it sparkles I'm fine being charred
Tired of tryin
Now its time
For fire and wine
Am I unkind?

Rude of me to offer myself away to the pyre
Not my fault that I'm burning your final wire
Hot to the touch
Unfit to be a crutch
I don't want to touch
You'll be my torch

I'll burn out and you'll catch the flame
But you still have our skin and our brain
You will feel pain
of the oil rains
On your skin
Change will burn

On time or too late I don't care I just know
That sooner rather than later I'm gonna go
Living life lighter
Gonna be brighter
I'm going faster
Won't last here

Who wants to live forever
Rather be spectacular
A spectacle
Unpredictable
Uncontrollable
Until I am unable

Take me back to the homeland
It's all Ive had its become all I am
My land, my pride, and my flag
Nothing to hide except the past
People die so that the soil lasts
My empire will never pass
Eternal taxes from axis to axis
Commit to peace through casual violence
Apple pies, red delicious lies, and amnesia
Saviors and hero's that's the ideal that's the idea
Protectors like crusaders feel zeal with a righteous cry
Drone strikes over the people we choose to die
Money is denied for most of the lives
On empty expect everyone to strive for
Picket fences a couple kids need more than more
Work harder as long as me and friends got ours
I love my country I suffer for its health
I work to death to produce its wealth
Can't even tell I'm proud of hell

I'm so tired so now I'm dreamin
But now I'm so tired of dreamin
Cant even remember the skin I'm in
Or who it was that got where I am

Now I commit a cardinal sin
Find a sacrificial altar to begin
Place my soul somewhere within
This is where one part is at its end

My body will make its exit
Somebody will cease to exist
Yet its all worth it I insist
Gotta make it to subsist

I killed myself and found someone else
But he walked in my skin with a little less
Less weight on his back its good I guess
But the old spirit wants to possess

It wants its body back from this stranger
The haunting tries just who is stronger
Who will I be as time goes longer
I think my present will be placed on the altar

Another casualty to causality
Death built up my personality
But who will keep my body
It definitely wont be the current me

But whose to say there's a future somebody
Who will take ownership of this body
I think that this body will eventually
Just belong to nothing, nobody

Posturing with a burger king crown
King has a nice ring a nice sound
But as much as I grasp even at my last
Final gasp of life I'll die in the low cast

Eat glass my thoughts are cosmic
But my body is earthly and sick
Thoughts of supremacy flow arrogantly
Reality is that's a fallacy thoughts fall flatly

Big fish in a small pond but just a bottom feeder
Drift aimlessly but wanna think I'm a leader
Talk big but I ride around in a one seater
Really lived that life but never had a heater

I can say proudly I've never caught a body
But quietly I have poisoned somebody
Dope dealin addiction feeding on the block
Just selling mush and that smoke never rock

Still took mans paycheck when the rents due
Slid em the product and fed their flue
Killing em slowly for profit in my pocket
Small time pounds I'd stock it and move it

Re-up from a college girl with Mexico plugs
Still worked that 9 to 5 could never be a ****
Just a petty criminal surviving on the scraps
Get fast food while bumpin gangster rap

I'd shoplift eggs when money was short
When rice and beans was all I could afford
Needed more, desire turned me sour
Shift managers had me scraping to petty power

Delusion of grandeur in a dish pit it didn't sit
Couldn't humble myself almost bit it
Pride killed my mind, body dead in the grind
Joints poppin body failin, drugs melting mind

Suicidal thoughts when reality didn't match
The life I wanted was always out of reach
No chance at a home and a that Mercedes
Just traps debts and loans maybe I'm crazy

Maybe I'm bad with money, that's funny
Got help from affluence got lucky
In one year saved 15 racks once out of the trap
Glad I never took that shot at a dirt nap

Who knew the answer to making money
Wasn't work or effort just being lucky
Knowing somebody not trapped with a hand out
Took it and pulled myself out of the ****** plot

True colors show, crimson red on the snow
Deeper reds I go, in every crack is a hateful glow

I hate my ****** family that stole my cash
And **** my friends who never last
So unhappy in every camera flash
Always wondering when will it end

Hated my poverty scarred childhood
Furious in my adolescence surrounded by people who never understood
Now seething and empty I brace myself for adulthood

I dream of dripping meat and bloodbaths
Wanna hurt the elite cause all my friends are dying fast
Wanna **** cause my family got prescribed pill bags
Under my eyes darkness sags

All I see anymore is cash and pain
All I see anymore is trash and rain
All this trash and pains gonna crash the train
Focus in and be insane so wash your brain

Every talking head sounds the same
Everyone clamoring for change
Everyone clamoring for the same
Everyone saying it's such a shame

We're just kids at war with the gods
Prometheus's fire against the odds
Minimum wages, working at a loss
Burnt pages years of historys lost
Taught nothing over information they gloss
Comic how easy it is to mislead like stone toss
Red states uneducate so tell me whats the cost
Gerrymander why even participate its run by Faust
In the gutter liquor flows in better off gettin smashed
We getting sicker while kids in camps atleast they aint gassed
Cutting medicaid so a ceo gets paid as an employee is slashed
Living in a democracy so fashionable but whys the fit feel so fash
Dying to make the cash and the middle class they aint gonna last
Protesting the past we marching at last the reply is the whips lash
Wage slaving still a living, but now wages to make without class
Daddy hand me down jobs while Joe workers are called slobs
He told me the narratives administered the sedatives from tweets
Its not true just read wiki leaks even silenced the truth speaks
Quarantined for weeks I hear the system creak
Pressurized heres the heat matter of time till the crack
Said something got a rapsheet said somethin skulls cracked
They treat us like rats and got is in a corner backed
Surprised we bit back now their brains racked
Cause we out of line off track our minds plagued
Kings agreed with Tupac violence is their comeuppance
Peace failed so citys are sacked a conscience with no compliance
Leases pulled so streets are packed and tense to much to rinse
Hoses failed to clean unwashed masses so out come gasses
Pop eyes then spread lies leave bricks and break glass
Cops terrorize in front of your eyes you wait till resistance dies
Ropes noosed up to lynch ******* these days with some its okay
Draggin ******* across lots to some its no loss well okay
Spics taken by ice from jobsites its alright nod and say, okay
No suprise your homes alight drag your *** outside, okay
Self defense killin patriot americans its just justice so its okay
Your scared of us, well we're scared of the US all there is to say

Up at midnight do you feel alright
Its another fight isn't that right

It's late and you've gone too far
It's alright  your just bleeding tar

Track marks and wide eyes
See stars and their dead lies

Rob your nephew, Your his hero
You need it more, in the end though

You feel regret but the pills make it okay
Burnt foil follows wherever you stay

You hate the dismay and pity in his eyes
You cant feel okay that pill will get you high

And when you fall you'll die alone
No more friends no  more home

Alarms off, barn chicken soundin warns sun risin
Warm in the kitchen, finger lickin greazy livin
Mournin in mornin, four am mind *******
Just in reporter on a camcorder record ya
Was untoward asking opinion on ya lord
Funny looking color like a funyun my answerin
whiny vision velour clothing,  demon spawn
When gone might pawn golf sets off lawns
In the end money tight even lint gone
Opinion bent left plant facin a light dawn
No prawns starving its lent living in a tent
Woes found working paying rent with money lent
Toes cold staying in boots, boldly saying let go
Cow bell ringing meat packaging on the blow
Flow swells bringing dead whales in undertow
Wont tell no snitches no tales how trust grow
Bows n ties oft means lives built on lies, so
Below tries most the honest living and dies
Boo hoo momma cries over a racist, my my
Here lies a body of a sexist marxist, no longer exist
Goodbyes in winds are ******, believed in lists
Why try when points missed, wished but unblessed
Covid coughs bless you, hands rinsed lead laced water
Void laughs in stints empty cans scraped and placed wherever
Devoid of soap stinky citys unclean even when precipitated
Dubois protests violently retchs wholehearted tenths participated
Soy and leeks replacing meat costs a whole check to be sated
Boys an chicks dancing feet lost to most fact is their elated
Whiskey sticky drink at meet an greets an bar posts

I became so strong, after all this time
But its been so long, since I was fine

I don't weep no more
Just sleep a lot more

I faced all my fears, but regret still tries to haunt
After all these years, I have no regrets that daunt

Always reliably confident
Ever the reliable confidant

Trusted by all my peers, trusted by myself
Failure to those peers, will leave me by myself

Weakness I will not permit
A luxury I don't get

Weakness in my past, has left me all alone
Friends never last, when I cant stand on my own

But now I'm so strong
And they all came along

Friends never last, but they all came back
I am steadfast, so stay and don't go back

I wont ask you for support
I can carry my own heart

I can carry mine, and I can carry yours
I'll be just fine, be my friend I'll be yours

All the things I've survived
Demons, beasts, fiends
Skinwalkers whom I complied
Get on with friends

Get on with anyone, anything
Diseased minds tell me lies
Listen as time is festering
Eating away their lives

They claim godhood expect worship
I stand in mock appreciation
They see my smile and see worship
A smirk hiding condemnation

I laugh and smile commiserate with a devil
They think it's with them but it's at them
Slowly they realize I'm not on their level
When for help to me they come

I turn them to their sins and crimes
As I refuse them even the smallest crumbs
I've seen better men beg for dimes
So I lack pity I will not be a crutch

I'm dyin inside listening to dead outside
Husks without things clutching dreams
Always in me do they choose to confide
Noone else will listen noone cares

Even they don't care for what they say
Still they talk and talk trying to be okay
No one will sway to the sound they make
Still I listen just in case that's all it'll take

Hope they shed their horns and fangs
Become men once more through the pain
Can't do more or risk losing skin of mine
So I listen while they fester with the time

I think about it
and forget about it
The past haunts me
it runs away with me

Abducting my body
its hard to stay steady
Old pains are fresh
stinging scars on my flesh

Ignore it and stumble on
choke it down never let on
Gotta keep it together
or be alone forever

I don't know who I am
but I do the best I can
Fragments of personality
coalesce randomly

Creates the illusion of a person
hiding a ghostly orphan
Shadows of myself hide inside
forgotten and set aside

I hardly remember who I was
who am I the thought gives me pause
Maybe an afterimage of myself

I found myself in the boundary of orbit in the planets perigee  
Void filled gospel only quandary's cause when I yell it don't answer me
Bespoken profits necessary debauchery  find your savior in 1-D
Lines raise erections green filled sensory experience money do grow on trees
Red losses, flaccid *****, and sorry stocks will put you on your knees
Blood will freeze with hell as corps marry investors and debtor steez
Calls dropped puts flopped moneys never stopped markets hit the rocks

Dead freaks never had any balance
Authority tried to demand compliance
So we left society and became truant
Forced to speak in ends now we're fluent

Money on my mind, mind on my money
I cant seem to find either bloods turned runny
I might just die just to make the ante
I steal and I lie to fill up our pantry

They know who I am I'll leave it all broken
Leave disrespect in dirt with toads croaken
Lacked it now on the ground chokin
Can't breathe in the arms of an ocean

My dead friends, I'm gonna run without balance
Got the bends underwater and uncompliant
Don't follow trends I've long been truant
Told to speak in ends and now I'm fluent

And whats it to you if I steal, lie, and cheat
Is it immoral to survive on the streets
Judged with morals I can't afford
Standards made by the pious and bored

Indigo hues haunt my vision
Scratching till I see thin red
incisions
Never been good at seeing long
divisions
A dream is just a lie of omission
What is my intention
When I mention
My one mission
Is just multiplication
Or when I say its really
division
Guess I forgot my own lessons
Goodwill leaks like lesions
Cut from me in so many
incisions

**** technology **** the progress
Give eulogy's on how its all a must
Your using me and I feel we have regressed
I study I work I made a dollar for twice what makes two
I'm ready I can start tomorrow for half price and die tomorrow
I wanted to do what others do work and get a home
Learned that I will work to the bone
And still have to take a **** loan
I made minimum wage at ******* twentytwo
My skills are trigonometry and construction to name a few
I am used and abused only ever worked to lose
So ******* I got nothing to lose
So ******* lets get some ***** 
Ten an hour to build a house from the ground up
All of my power all of my will and some say I'm stuck up
I'm embarrassed this is my only choice what a set up
My pride a joke my skills left me broke
Of every attempt loss has spoke
Top of the class, high IQ, what a ****** joke
I live in poverty
Rent a ratty property
And die in my poetry

Blood on my hands and the dead are risen
I can see black smoke off of the west horizon
My hearts on the line, my heads in prison
Now I'm doin time and the bars are crying

Fires are far away but the rains on me
The sky is hazy with heavy lies
With every line a few more fly
With every line another man fries

Dead friends, dead family, and dead faith
Wanna say don't give up, but its not my place
Wanna say just get up, but its not my place
My place is with dead blood and dead belief

Razor lines on glass tables
Dead kids in dark fables
Eyes are jaded, head is faded
But drugs make me elated

Fill the liver with  joy
Treat a life like its a toy
Wind it up and watch gears crunch
Couple keys of the green og kush

Smokin one while my brothers get rubbed out
Wonder if they'll ever let my uncle out
I hope not, If they do I'll cut his lights out
Blood is thicker than water now whats that about

The blood pumps down storm drains on a sunny day
And water is thick with lead and iron now we all gonna pay
Cause we all have debts in Iron, debts in blood, its collection day
The well is dry but bloods pumpin in our veins, we gotta pay

The dead take their due for the debts they accrue
Sins of my father found me and now I'm through
Riddled by addiction and collection through and through
Here comes the toll and the funds are looking few

What can you do we all got debts collecting on our hearts
Time for the bloodletting bleed out till debt finally parts
All we can do is suffer and accrue, wail and lament
Its how life collects its payment

Count the holes in my teeth about as many as the holes in my heart
What was it I was supposed to see when does my life finally start

I don't have a reason
Into oblivion I ease in
Darkness is in season
To claim purpose is treason

The hall burns over us
To stay warm is enough
Breath in ash taste the rust
The house is coal black and unjust

Cracked pavement on the road
Roaches in apartments pay the toad
Thieves who can't afford a code
Slaves until were choked

Freedom is owned land
Trespassers will be shot
Kingdom of greed always the plan
Envy is all the rest have got

You are what you eat
So lets eat the wealth
Blue blooded meat
Its good for my health

Hate is the only reason afforded
The only emotion and I own it
Want the kings to eat lead
Like Caligula's head

Never got to be a child had to be the man
Age nine and I was the only one that gave a ****
So ****** I handle my **** the best I can
Cause nothins been free except for dyin
So I've been cheatin, stealin, and lyin
Since I was a youngun its been survival
To charm and lie see everyone as a rival
In a game where its death if you get tabled
I ran the cards with sharks, waters chummed
Everyone smells blood so my hearts stone
It don't pump red it sits empty in the bone
I will never atone for what I've done
But I'll live to see the sun

Its all one unknown, dead seeds sown
Born from broken homes, just how it goes
Some days swing low lotta bodys in the undertow
Beachside all alone down a bottle down I go
Into the tide to drown my woes

Look at the mirror knowin I could die here
Nothin held dear no one held me dear
Still have no fear cause one day I'll die here

And you know what just **** it
Everyone leave me alone you ******
Watch me ****** up never gave a ****
Down to the last bill keep it one hunnit

All I can afford is to think for a few
Shut off heater I'm a far too coo'l
Pills like water in US nothin new
Drugs choked down in us beautiful
Thrills looked down on by you

Beachside and the tide pulls at my feet
Wayside in no one I confide my piece
Wayward son put aside like a felon with rapsheet
The prize won is pride useless like a renters lease

Last hundred dollar bill might rob the till
In my head in this hood to live I might ****
Or be dead hollows spread blood on a windowsill
Suicidal addicted to lead, one bullet my fill

Left to rot I ferment sadness out the still
In picture caught lament my final still
I wonder about what it meant even still

Smoked a whole lotta gas but I've been on empty
Puff puff I don't pass cause I feel so ******* empty
Breath it in till its ash, I know this wont save me
Walked into the waves they crash I let it take me

Here I am, doing fine again
Where I am, burning down again

In the ashes I found my friend
Gave me warmth he would lend

Now alone, here I am
Cold as stone, where I am

Its a lovely day, love the smell of ****** in the morning
Its all okay, dank copped in my palm every mornin
No more paydays everything's stopped but Im not mourning
Its another friday aint that somethin outside its pouring
Inside its smoking baking home-cooking

Homies and I all ready to die
Shorty said lets all get high
Sevenfourtyseven time to fly
No worries no more suit and tie
I like ta party not to pry

Its a lovely day, Love the view of Cali Palms in the morning
And its all okay, me and the crew on one since the mornin
Aint working anyway nothing to stop us we soaring
Its another friday aint that somethin a drink I'm pourin
Inside its smoking baking home-cooking

Party favors in designer flavors
Stop n savor on recliners
Pop life savers in  highwaters
Trashed proper I teeter totter
Smashed party rocker

Double shot of *** drink harder than a privateer  
Backwoods, blunt smokin like a famous rapper
Outta wraps roll with hunnids whole lotta paper
All outta drugs call the plug for more favors
All about a good time its all we're after

Homies and I all ready to die
Shorty said lets all get high
Sevenfourtyseven time to fly
No worries no more suit and tie
I like ta party not to pry

An overture of laments come from above
Gods signature sent on the wing of a dove
As an angel is sent by his wing toward what was
Fly away, away from farther days toward my words
Turn away, away from sharpened swords and words
Winds sway a breeze silent struck a chord, so now its time to go forward

Can anyone one hear it the sound crashes as much as its effervescent
Fall down and crash to the ground, ashes may be the present
We all fall down in the ashes and not a lesson is learnt
But move on or in ashes you will be burnt
Stand up and use those lessons learnt

Positive that I am foolish and that it is all nonsense
Positive that you are foolish and full of nonsense
Insane with foolish ideals, but you are no prince
These are not your people watch they are silent
Loathe you for all your defiance

Still a knight you may be without a king to fight for
Still is the night darkness about in moonlight it soars
A message on the wing of a dove seen only by the poor
It speaks of a place of a thing never before seen an open door
Beyond lays the face of nothing and no one yet it is a mirror

Give in not to fear, and step into the night
Walk and it will draw near drawn to sight
Dress warm as winter will wear you tight
Stay calm and steady if you care you must fight
If you do not, be ready to be lost in the night

My opinion is that no one may chain away your defiance
Even when dyin no one has to remain silent
Redemption in remembrance a stain in the quiet
Conviction to perseverance the shine never wanes a diamond

We will one day rise above I saw it written on the wings of a dove
It must be true I saw the rise of people seething forward with push and a shove
It must be true that we are more than what was onward we go with love

Who am I to wear a crown
Someone falling down
Rain its falling down
Soon it'll hit the ground
I've come unwound

On rooftops with a bottle of crown
Trying not to fall all the way down
Last drop falling and I drown
Ground rise up to smack me down
I've come unwound
Unbound so hear this sound

One parent only father raised without a *** to suckle
Dad did his best hammer raised knees buckled
Every night hammered drugged up and tired
He gave me life, he raised me, he failed me

Now twenty tabs in wired all night long
Need to sleep so I hit the ****
Need to live so do drugs then I'm gone
All my fake friends know I'm on one

No benz, two wheels across town
Back paths and alleys gone down
No smiles round here only a frown
I'll die afore I can afford a hospital gown

Twenty shots of costco gin
Broke the same as broken
Soon to be in the trash bin
So I turn to crime again

Dealin like part time workin
Flippin like life is dependin
Profitin off others addiction
Is this really livin

Gotta get outta these places I been in
Aint any place for me to die in
Aint even got a place I'm buyin
Just rentin a slum ****** apartment

Embrace betrayal tastes stale
Got my face in the mail
Want to find me follow the trials
Follow behind my shadows trail
I live on the hill beside the pale

If the sky flashes deep then leave
Or its lashes with tears, fallen leaves
If ground quakes grey in its ways
Then stay for I have nothing to say
This is the last line anyways

Cut off some friends haven't been out in a week
They out to party like life isn't aboutta end
Say I'm paranoid, Say I oughta take a break
That's stupid, not sorry and I mean to offend

I get outta bed gas mask on the bedstand
Light up a match flag burned and trash canned
WW1 ain't **** to an anti-science fascist land
A rancid maggot-infested wonderland

Don't ******* tell me to chill cuz your blind
Eyes pecked out by shills now you just unwind
Your ironed out wrinkle-free smoothed out mind
Hunned K dead tell me what do you intend

With all this mask hatin and beach partyin
Blue suits over human life you ain't kiddin
Eat my **** and die this last year meant nothin
******* and all the fun we had we ain't talkin

I'm not perfect I suffer my addictions
But I would never **** some to perdition
Cause of prejudice to a skin condition
If loyalty to pigs is your position

We are through we ain't crew you ******* tool
I know I'm a bad person but you're worse than
An ex dealer while I grew you stayed a fool
It stings losin a friend but you ain't a man

Live your life don't look up to mine
Life on a knife edge, life of a slime
And yet you said its gold when its grime
Parts of my soul sold while you drank wine
Need to fold before confusing glamour an pain

I'm not your role model not a person to follow
Enjoy your parents who coddle with silver bottles
Be thankful you never huddled alone left below
Its hurtful that you wanted to go into the only things I know
My path is lonely with woe my strength is just built from blows

Those traits you seek created by fates I wouldn't wish on snakes
My wits were gained by survival of being out in alleys late
Strength from the desperate struggle of being born a mistake
Will of rusted iron from a life on my lonesome with it all at stake
Will you throw away happiness and family to be a copy and a fake

do you understand, do you understand
with your feet in the sand
do you understand

beneath us all, beneath us all
that's where we fall
beneath us all

just take my hand, just take my hand
leave everything behind
just take his hand

we hold onto hearts, we hold onto hearts
All I am is spare parts
he holds onto your heart

I love you so, I love you so
When you go
I love you so

you left a hole, you left a hole
its in my soul
you left a hole

we are so happy, we are so happy
why do I feel so badly
they are so happy

In nothing you participate your fingers just twitterpate
Your looking underweight get some eggs with sodium nitrate
Instead of eating up drama an hate you a library of it au fait
Still no ideas or plans to fix **** just sit ******* your privates
Hashtags you post it, celebritys you cancel it, actions you dont do ****

Thats the way of the internet facades as thick as brocades
Your whole persona patent stolen read it off some cards
Copy pasted your fit its blatant obvious in your intent
Every word a dishonest bent not worth a cent
Dont got a shred of sense wont ever repent
Need the roleplay to supplement the lack of respect

Internet gangsters, keyboard warriors, fake woke supporters  
Plenty a arrogance, talk hard put out airs, tell everyone they inferior
Feign ignorance when it benefit but anothers mistake never forgotten
Take any stance all you are is happenstance you aren't anyone
Clone of whoever but only in fairweather never in the autumn

You kick at any who have fallin but ride when they ballin
At another **** you baptizin on the ground kneelin
Before anyone whose poppin your legs are droppin
Which one you feeling today whose personality you groping
which mask your morphine hit to keep you coping

Empty of whats real your life is revolting
Red pill, black pill, everyones a shill, its insulting
Hate leaves behind a shell empty and floating
No anchor fell lost in a sea of loathing

Watch the mania in my eyes
Hysteria escapes my lips
Wisteria enters me in sips

Louder quieter see you later
Careful on all those risers
When you go meet the miser
Ask him the cost ask whats lost

Work and chores all for the poor
And they will all ask for more
Pump blood till the heart is sore

Follow our pied pipe with an empty head
He wraps it in cords and melts the meds
Needles wires pins and stems
These will fill the empty hand

Someone pass me the meds
Something to take away our heads
So we don't end up dead
Watch it don't talk to the feds
Leave you on red in your beds

Never talk it out your not a person
Villain criminal **** get taught a lesson
Punishment for all your running
Acting as protectors killing children
Only hope is being someone worth something

If your bank rolls in seven digits
Then life is what you live it
Otherwise be wise to keep a head down
Super sized painted with lies make a clown
Then on trial get paraded around

Another success of the system
Lifeless person assigned as ****
Look the systems gone and won
Victory, victory and my brother is gone
Judged booked by the pious how to atone

Live in a cell eat at the bell
Live in hell get stabbed in the hall
One last call or freedom if you tell
Oh well, oh well even if you'd never sell
Still welcome to hell may you forever fall

The people cheer for this is the cause of fear
They leer at pathetic addicts and their tears
Mock the poor as if its a choice to be born
Back to the hills and pools ignore the others
Who turn to pills and swill to pull together

Why fix a problem that can be swept into a corner
Kept in districts far from home my as well be foreigners
Don't you dare jump the border or face precincts anger  
Your no father not a toddler just society's disorder
Kept in mind as criminal stay in your quarter

Saw an article that said people who talk to themselves are geniuses. The source most likely people who talk to themselves, but was it they or the voices that said they were geniuses.

Stay positive who cares if your a *******
Ramen noodles and cold hot dogs with mustard
Living off the trash and scraps  its hard
But im not in pain really im just so bored
Listen to sad songs they really strike a chord

Darkness all around me set aside my light for belonging
Welcome to the abyss it resides beside your right and its growing
Lazarus in the flesh I don't fully exist so I cant fight whats coming
Hundreds green lush don't really fill the abyss just grows longing
Goes long but falls short silly people flip bricks and know deaths knocking
Can you hear it he's knocking, can you hear it the guns cocking
It all depends on whether you are of data or of the lost in earths strata
Born of dirt and its your stigmata be de-serviced or reborn as auto-mata
No room for poor flesh as you are to god, worthless
But pious gears thresh it from body a priceless business
My confessions are existences as worthless lesions
Life for passions, persistent refusal of life's lessons
Its wanton days spent profitless and yet the prophet begs the question
"Will you condemn yourself to society's prison"
"Come my son and drink of my poison"
"Or you shall drown in freedoms ocean"
If the choice is society or freedom than I am foreign
If they would let me I would be free of the chains
But angels blessed me with feathers followed by fetters
First they taught me with educators then put me neath betters
So I type out my many letters till the bars of the cuckoo birds cage rusts
Watch cracks and dig at dreams till it all busts at the seams
Unfortunately it seems I will die before freedom will sing

So show, no soul
I’m cool, so cool
A tool, a fool
Highschool, cesspool

Like A B C, 1 2 3
Like way he be, wan’ to be

Better than me, than me, than you

No slowen, leave me be

Me, myself, and I
I shot me, myself
Catch myself when I hang me
Me, me, me
By myself

I
Wikihow noose knots
Not a cry for help
How do you cry out

A note loose leaf
With a noose knot

**** out my way, **** out my way
Im in my way, Im in my way

Luck run thin, eat a buck
Shot, blood all over Bathory ****
Blood pumpin, heart open, veins open
Open heart, open artery, deep cut

Surgical precision
Practical decision
Painful incision
Vertical division

I have depression

Wake up everyday and taste the acetone
***** hands and cracking cuticles
Fill up on pharmaceuticals over the telephone

Alt right rhetoric from a moderate pulpit
Or communist  heroics in the skin of a socialist
Pathological need to control peoples etiquette
Be any talking head that wears a crown tight
Power and control for the sake of it

Workin for a livin
That bacon sizzlin
Housin and medicine
Keep dreamin

Big house a car and some kids
Stead I got a bike and some sids
Family taken to the big house by feds
And a bank account in the red

So many said I wanna be dead
Everywhere its read
The depression of the kids
Generation of the dead

Still born lost in the womb
Bombs dropped on Aggha-Solatan
Satan throwing food in a lunchroom
Playground spats killin  all around

So which  team you stand with
For the game of pleading the fifth
Actions and words Irrelevant all on faith
In a team like our lives are sport on earth

Everywhere on earth us against them
Them against us and all for them
Rich kids throwing fits bangin drums
Gettin people to march out of the slums

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

On the clock moving dope
Smoking up on your block
Hold the rope and the glock
Hold the rock and the soap

Got a pound from the homie
Flipped it now I'm makin money
Eating eggs its all sunny
Making rent on the monthly

Last week dug a ditch for the bag
This week was out playing tag
To keep out of wearing these rags
Steep the cost of playing without toe tags

Its all luck and yours ****
Now mines up got it on lock
Up goes my stock what a shock
Now I rock got out the box

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

We ain't got no cash now thats ***** talk
Go out get your cash thats how a man walk

Pour one out if you got dead homies
Get the **** out if your found phony

Cooking it up like chef Boyardee
Looking me up cuz I'm the dope boy

I keep business on the low
But you know I'm finna glow
So who is it you wanna know
Know who it is if you need mo blow

I come in the the party with a splash
I pose in every camera flash
Me and the bro's with a fourty an the stash
How it goes every night smashed

Now I spend my nights lookin at cash amounts
Bike into the night tradin out the stash an bounce
Home all night smokin up the stash there goes an  ounce
Tonight livin it up puff puff pass we smoking blunts

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

I don't have any dreams
I want to live in a dream


Cant make my own anymore
Take from others hollow at the core


The drugs burned with joy in the rain
Ashes washed away and I remain


I haven't felt the same
Since I felt that rain

Burn a sedative, grey clouds over my head
Toss and turn, fourteen hours then im outta bed
Ten hours to pretend I'm not dead

Years chewed up and spit out like double bubble
Chains accrued bit by bit, growing out a stubble
Gains accrued lost in a night in one drunken stumble
Flowers burned blast off in the night sky like Hubble telescope
Me and my homies float without a boat couple a tokes
Everythings funny and I just need to smoke
Got like half a pound in my ****** coat
Without it I might just choke
***** just a joke

Stoner at the party I aint a loner
Under the stars feel like a goner
David Bowie I'm a black star
Cloud my eyes so I don't see far
Clouds roll out the car
Lungs full of dinosaur tar
**** the earth I chill on mars
**** livin ***** a chore
**** bullshittin its a bore
**** im low I need some more
Living high the choice, or

Living a lie every week till friday
Paying my way every payday
Making a choice which do I say
Which way does the rope fray
Do I stay or off the edge I sway
***** just a joke laugh in may

Winter comes and I die in December
Enter the reality of someone noone remember
******* regularly hand grips the member
Participate in everything the club im a member
The party you know im gonna be there
That 40oz im swimming in the amber
No more mind lost it like kramer
Build every line cuz I'm the framer
Wish I made time to be a star
Wish upon a star hope I'll go far

Instead of drowning in the dinosaur tar
Dead in the morning wont last four more bars
Dont have any mourning my passing anymore
Dont have anything left, not existing I'm in the dark
Its all crashing despite the trying nothing seem to work
No more lying, told you I wouldn't last this is the last bar

Free flow is a wild ride no goal or pride
No drive, I walk through with no guide
Moods wax and wane with the tides
Interests ebb and sway with nights

Till I slip into that choppy water
Another case of human fodder
Lassoed by the greed of the butcher
Yanked in undertow to the slaughter

Fish out of water panic and inhale
Alveoli drenched skin turned pale
I die as I breath unbirth the tale
Toxify blood with Co2 as I trail

Fray at the rope around my throat
Underwater choke under the boat
Hull just above so I can't float
Got painted with a blue coat

Bruised blue finger tips and lips
Washed on shore gather the chips
Zombies walk the coast for licks
Get those rotten green bricks

Use em to buy resurrection
An ride the turgid *******
Of life with no protection
Just to feel the connection

I was left in the snow I was pulverized
Just how it goes have a friend he'd say
"It is how it is" well now I'm in overdrive
Left by everyone to die I've never felt so alive
Lost out in the tide eyes are blasted out wide
Never go softly in the night always up at first light
Need out of my head because I don't understand whats left
Barely use my bed hes weird thats often whats said
Won't you just leave me like all those voices in my head
So silent now I don't hear them what was it they always said
"worthless, godless,  why aren't you dead"
Now its all silence and I miss them
My one and only friends

There's romance in a bottle of wine
Its rotten and dry but its divine

Depending on my addictions for some purpose
Lifeless without it lost conviction and focus
Burn resin and scrape glass live to the fullest
Madness is manic, uppers to heaven to be blessed

Conceit lets me do as I please, find pleasure find release
Deplete my mania, A choir singing to my pulse
Love and passion ringing within a erratic beat
Sorrow leaks from lesions as my flesh lets loose

I can't see I have lost my sight along with my rights
These chains are holding me tight makes me feel alright
In my brain is a cage with a prisoner who says hes a sage
Wonders why hes caged, but I see in his eyes hateful rage

I am just a product of the chemicals I take
Defective product who will barely wake
It doesn't make only here for its own sake
A cheap product that is soon to break

But faulty as I may be the drugs make me feel alright
The smoke in my lungs pulls me through the long night
Even when it chokes me It make me feel less lonely
I know its not really healthy but the choice is mine solely

I have given in to it fully this folly it makes me happy
Makes my cold heart feel sappy a state I want to be
How long since I felt it naturally, years ago maybe
Its just a distant memory that warmth coming to me

Used to throw myself into fiction but story's never saved me
Now I give myself to addiction cause hero's are all  2-D
My brain needs the correction and all it cost me was a small fee
A piece of my mind, piece of my time, piece of my sanity

Then I'm Free