Nothing ever lasts and
Things always change
We suffer from the mutation we have had in our life
But somehow in the end we always seem to "get over it"

Growl growl ru
mb
le rumble gro
wl

(my belly protests my healthy
lifestyle)

I pick up the items
Littering the floor
They didn’t mean much
To anyone
Anymore

I stared at the picture
Hanging on the wall
I was the smallest
And my brother was tall

I looked back at objects
Flat on the ground
One caught my attention
While it just laid around

I picked up the radio
Thin sleek and black
I turned it right on
And the memories came back

The music that played
Was not the same in the past
But the radio still counted
At least the memory surpassed

The snow so white
Lays on the ground
Falling gently
Without a sound

My winter boots
They trudge with me
Through snowy roads
And icy streets

The world is cold
And I am too
Days after blizzards
Are not ones that I rue

Back at my doorstep
My walk has come to an end
I hope to come out soon
And go walk again

The mouth
does mysterious things
tasting your skin
like wine
your fluid lost down
my throat
I kiss you in
deliberate licks
the musk in shadows
divine intervention
rises and falls like
soft petals
and wet as rain...

From the ashes of death
Wether
It is destruction
or
Harmony
The Time stops and the essences is brought about
Reborn
Anew
Singing inflames a fiery song vibrating nations
It flows
About.

I can trace all of this back to one single moment.
Yet even if I could change that moment,
Change my past...
I still think I was always destined to meet him.
And I truly believe he would not have taken a liking to me had I been any different.
Though maybe he would have.
Maybe he would have stayed.
But would I have all this wisdom I do now.
The wisdom I use to help save those surrounding me had my story been different.
This is what I need to keep me going.
Focusing on not my pain but saving all those around me with the wisdom my pain has led me to carry.
The wisdom that has come from losing him and everything else in my life that has ended in catastrophe.