I’m tired of missing you.

I’m tired of waiting.

I’m tired of unkept promises.

I’m tired of the back and forth travelling.

I ‘m tired of school.

I’m tired of thinking about the past.

I’m tired of fighting about the past.

I’m tired of the pressure.

I’m tired of the guilt.

I’m tired of my divided life.

I’m tired of thinking about the future.

I’m tired of owing so much money.

I’m tired of being scared of your private thoughts.

I’m tired of playing pretend.

I’m tired of being so suspicious.

I’m tired of being skeptical.

I’m tired of my self consciousness.

I am so tired
Of arguing
Of falling

Of life.

A mistake,
they whispered in their minds
but never said aloud.
A mistake,
it's all she was
they could never be proud.
A mistake,
that started a broken home
where love was rarely found.
A mistake,
that cost them their hopes and dreams,
yanked them off their cloud.
A Child,
who saw the hate and pain
locked behind their eyes.
A Child,
who couldn't make them happy
no matter how she tries.
A Child,
who yearned for love
left to sit alone and cry.
A Child,
who tried to understand
but couldn't figure out why....

People will come
look, but not see
the broken house this had once come to be

This practically now perfect space
isn't true to this place

This house, it is disguised
to impress
hiding the past, it is all lies
covering the mess.