Madison

Madison Oct 2018

I won’t leave you
If you need me, I’ll be there
I’ll be your shoulder to lean on
I’ll help you win your war
You aren’t alone
I hope you know that

There’s something else I want you to know
I won’t let you leave me
I know I’m selfish
I’m not sorry about that though
Because you are worth too much
You’re a legend in my eyes

I know I may not know the reason
Of your sadness
You can tell me if you want to
And even if you don’t
I will help you destroy your demons

When everyone you thought you knew
Deserts your fight, I’ll go with you
You’re facing down a dark hall
I’ll grab my light and go with you
~My Blood-Trench-Twenty One Pilots

Madison Oct 2018

Poetry Pt.2

But tonight Poetry isn’t working
I can’t seem to think
Or clear my head
Everything goes back to one thing
The five words my best friend said
I really am worried
No
I’m scared

Second and last part of “Poetry”

Madison Oct 2018

Poetry Pt.1

When broken and beaten up
I come running into the warm arms of poetry
Reading poetry helps me think
Writing poetry helps me get everything of my mind

Part one of two

Oct 2018

Yagami

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They say to follow your heart,
But which part do I follow if it’s been shattered in a million pieces?

Madison Oct 2018

The Five Words

I was talking to my best friend today
Out of the blue he quietly said something
The five words I never expected
The five words that now haunt me
The five words I once said to myself
The five words that worry me
The five words keeping me from sleep
The five words that scare me coming from him
The five words I pray won’t happen
The five words I’m afraid will happen
He said
“I want to **** myself”
My eyes started to water when he said it
He saw and said it was a joke
He said his bucket list was too long
But why would he say that
Why would he act so selfish
Why would he want to leave his family and friends
Why would he want to leave me
I need him
I don’t want him to take his life
I wish he knew that those five words
Caused me to cry as soon as I was alone
But I can’t tell him
Because he might want to take his life even more

Those five little words are like a knife repeatedly stabbing into my heart. Why hadn’t he told me before? Why had he been hiding his pain? Why did he try to play it off as a joke? I have so many questions that I can’t ask him, or anyone else. He has only told me; I’m the one person he told that to, so I can’t ask anyone else my questions. I’m just so worried.

Madison Oct 2018

I Want To Breath Again

I just want out of the dark
I don’t like this suffocating air
But I don’t need to tear down the walls
They protect me and my glass heart

Part two of my incompleted poem

#dark #suffocating #walls #fragile #heart #protection #part2

Madison Oct 2018

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I love to write poetry
But I’m afraid
I’m afraid of what they’ll think
I’m afraid they’ll think my poetry will **** because of my age
But I’m most afraid of people I know reading my poems
Because then they might see through my walls
Into my broken
Shattered
Messed-up
Crazy life
I don’t want anyone to worry about me
Or to try and protect me
Or fight my battles
Because that’s what I’m supposed to do for them
I’m suppose to worry about others
And shove my problems away
I’m supposed to protect others
And never worry about my pain
I’m supposed to help win their wars
Because I’m already losing my own

If I loose to myself, promise me this, you won’t mourn a day and you move onto someone else.
~Neon Gravestones-Trench-Twenty One Pilots

#poetry #afraid #walls #broken #messedup #shattered #worry #protect #battles