Boys like you
Do notice
Girls with a pretty heart
And soul
Girls who don't
Look like cover models
Girls who don't follow
The latest fashion
Boys like you
Do smile at
Girls who aren't
Restrained by opinions
Girls who determinedly
follow their passions
Girls who aren't unnerved
By societal notions
Do boys like you
Really exist
Or is it just a dream
That I wish could be real

I fell in love with you
The same way I fall asleep

Slowly
         Peacefully

The whole time I felt as secure
As I do nestled under the blankets on my bed

Little did I know
There was a nightmare patiently waiting
To come out from its hiding spot behind your hazel eyes

It crept up on me
Ending my peaceful slumber

Our love became twisted
Your smile became cruel

I was unable to escape
Like a dreamer with sleep paralysis
My belief in your ability to change
Blinded me like a sleeping mask

Eventually I woke up
From the nightmare that was you

         And I’ve been an insomniac ever since

Eyes, why are you crying?
Lungs, why can’t you breathe?
Heart, why are you racing?
Stop! Oh, stop it, please!

I know I shouldn’t panic
There’s nothing I need fear
I’m safe and I’m protected,
But Terror cannot hear!

Worried parents
Soothing words
Scared. I’m scared as hell!

Heart. Racing.
Chest. Tight.
Crying.
Can’t explain.

Can’t breathe
Can’t breathe.
Can’t breathe!

And then it’s gone