Broken Pieces

Broken Pieces Mar 2020

Battle

To pretend everything is alright,
It's easier to do once you've snuffed out the light.
But I am slowly drowning in the night,
So I try to help myself and write.
But I'm losing the battle I've fought for years,
Now all I have left are tears.
I've decided I've lost,
Because I'm not ready for the cost.

#battle #depression #anxiety #losingthewar #inneedofhappiness #yearsofpain

Broken Pieces Mar 2020

Point of View

Someone once told me to have a different point of view,
To look hard for what seems true.

But it's harder said than done,
So I guess the battles just begun.

#perspective #depression #anxiety #battlewhithin #inneedofsaving #shortbutsweet

Broken Pieces Mar 2020

Mom, Dad?

Mom, dad? I'm home to play,
Gosh it's just been the very best day.

Mom, dad where have you gone?
Why have you decided to leave by dawn?

Mom, dad? What do those words even mean?
Because mine have managed to go unseen.

Mom, dad, are you coming back,
Or will I be the one to crack?

Mom, dad? I'm older now,
Many people ask me how.

Mom, dad? I really miss you,
I hope you do too.

Mom, dad? I'm falling faster into the dark,
I've begun to lose my spark.

Mom, dad? Why did you leave me?
I'm sad to say I won't be the key.

Mom, dad? I guess I must say bye,
Even if I know you won't reply.

Sometimes parents aren't the ones to be with you no matter what, I'm sad to say my bio parents left me and never bothered telling me why.

#depressed #sad #adoption #questions #lonely #missingmyparents

Broken Pieces Mar 2020

Ignored

Have you ever gotten to the point where you push the ones you love so far away they don't even bother trying?
I have, it feels like everything is dying.
I mean it was might fault in the first place, I pushed them hard,
But I was just afraid of letting down my guard.
This is what I get for being scared of getting hurt,
This has all made me so very alert.
I'm such a fool,
And you were cruel.
I let him take advantage of me,
Now I'm drowning in a sea.
But it's not his fault I was so dumb,
It's not his fault I've become so numb.
I wonder how the ones I used to love would react,
I bet they would look at me and cry since I'm so cracked.
I wish I could say goodbye to all,
But you would get mad and put up the wall.
So instead I'll sit here and smile,
Hoping I don't have to stay for much longer.

#depressed #thoughts #leftalone #sadtimes

Broken Pieces Mar 2020

Bad Days

Bad days will always be the norm,
I promise it's normal to be in a storm.
But when you get to the eye of it all,
Your worry begins to fall.
You are able to be at peace with all things,
You are able to unclip your wings.
You know the worst is only yet to come,
But you won't be the one to succumb.
The storm is coming fast,
But with the peace you know it won't last.
Bad days will always come around,
But they do not define you, you don't have to be drowned.

#peacefulness #simpledays #feelingcalm

Broken Pieces Mar 2020

Siblings

We were split apart,
It broke my heart.
But I chose to stay,
Because I couldn't move away.
We visit once in a while,
And when we do we all seem to smile.
But that has become more rare,
Because they become less aware.
I miss you all more each day,
Even with the hurtful words you say.
Beings siblings with you was never easy,
But that doesn't make my life any less breezy.
Can't wait to see you all,
Then I won't still feel so small.

#siblings #sad #splitapart

Broken Pieces Feb 2020

Silent Peace

Remember the days when people would stop and listen?
Listen to nature's song and watch the sun glisten.
Nowadays people don't care,
They act as if it's not ever there.
But I like to sit in the silence and listen to the peace,
People laughing and smiling in the streets.
Thinking about the silent times,
When there weren't things like crimes.
Watching the birds hum their song,
Hoping someone might sing along.
Try to just sit here and hear the noises all around,
Someone might come and you'll be found.

#peacefulness #silence #calm