If you ask me what my problem is
It’s hard to get a straight answer


“What ISNT my problem”
“Don’t know what’s yours”

I’ve been practicing for years
My actions became their own kind of cancer

“What do you get out of this”
“How did you think this would help”

Very few people are affected
I’m usually the one persecuted here

“I don’t know why I do it”
“Isn’t having a good time enough”

Because the only way to perfect failure
Is with self sabotage

My mind never stops
there's a fire somewhere
I can't put it out
There's a panic
Everyone loves to shout

I have to listen
To the 8 others
the are part of me
as they always have been
I just wish they weren't so loud

As I seem to lose hope
Everyone's doubt seems to hold
I feel pressed with the crowd
I can't make a sound
I'm just too burnt out

You think your arms are too skinny
But they are perfect to me
Wrap them around me an i fit perfectly

You think you're too short
But you’re perfect size to me
When we cuddle you’ll fit perfectly

You think your voice is annoying
But you sound perfect to me
Just say my name again and I respond perfectly

You think all the negative things
But you are perfect to me
So don’t talk about yourself badly

I cant sleep cuz my mind keeps racing

my lungs deflating

my heart outpacing

everything inside

and i don't want to be alive

i just cant hide

as i cant seem to hold

the tears back anymore

as they carve

tracks down my face

my mind continues to race

and i seem to lose space

inside my room

i have a sense of doom

looming over me

i can not see

anything beyond

your face

like a saving grace

pushing past my defense

as i call

out to you

but im a fool

you where never really there

and now i over think

everything you said

last night

while i sit in my bed

and we are back where we started

Remember the day we met?
And you said you'd be mu friend?
And we started to fall
In love, in love, in love

Remember the days we spent?
Talking about the end?
And how we were
In love, in love, in love

Remember the day you met?
And she said she'd be your friend?
And we were still
In love, in love, in love

Remember the day you took her to bed?
And said we could still be friends?
And how you two were
In love, in love, in love

Remember how much I hurt?
And how you had been my world?
And how i thought we were
In love, in love, in love

I never thought i could fall in love
I never thought that love from me could ever be true
I kept myself distant in the hope to never hurt you
Because I am black and you are blue

I have hurt everyone who ever loved me
I keep telling you I'm bad
I have given you plenty of warnings
Because I am black and you are blue

I can't find what you see in me
I can see that you are a fool
I know its impossible to convince you otherwise
Because I am black you are blue

I asked you why you love me
I asked why i fell in love with you
I laughed at your answer
"because you are black and I am blue"

listen to my heart
it only beats for you


listen to my voice
because i speak the truth


listen to my apology
because i really mean it


listen to my pain
because only you can stop it


listen to my love
because i have no one else to give it to


listen to my tears
because they are meant for you

Hush baby
Don't look at them
The demons closing in
Don't look at the darkness
I need you to look at me
Just look at me

Hush child
you're safe here
Just don't look away
Don't look at the shadows
Just keep your eyes on mine
Look at me

Don't worry angle
I wont let you fall
Don't look down
Don't think about falling
Don't take your eyes off me
look at me

Baby
I'll be your anchor
I'll be you light
I'll protect you
Just don't look away
i need to look at you
Look at me