The sun shines,
and I see mystery within your eyes
beaming light creating mystical little galaxies
that I want to  stare into for eternity.
I want to see your eyes cry,
I want to see them in the rain,
I want to see them when you first wake up in the morning
and when you have stayed up all night,
I want to see them when you lie,
and when they light up from happiness
I want to see how your eyes change with each season,
I want to see them looking back at me with love,
I want to see the reflection of the mountains and oceans in them while we travel.
I want to see them glow staring at me while we dance at our wedding
I want to see the eyelids around them get wrinkly as we age, I want to see them until the day I die.
eye love you,

My life goes by like clockwork
Everyday ticks by
Repeating the motions of yesterday

1:30 am, I just smoked my first cigarette
To bad this won't help my mind forget
All the things they said
Doesn't silence the voice in my head
Can't numb out with the bottom of a bottle
Can't escape what's in my mind
With little white lines
Can't run from what I feel with these little pills
So I self medicate with this cold blade
Maybe blood will make it fade
Maybe voices will silence if I write it on my skin

Caress me with your strong hands
Tell me to keep my mouth shut
Grab my neck so I can't speak
Cold fingers going into my pants
The harder I push, the more rough you are
No matter the strength I use
Compared to you, I am weak
You get what you wanted, you leave
I lay on this cold floor
I don't even want to breathe

I have broken my own heart too many times
          waiting for you to love me the way I love you
                                I should love myself the way I love you
                                    I should hate you for hurting me, not hate myself
                                                                 But if you cant love me who can?

slow death
quick sand
I reach out for your hand,
you turn away
I've been crying out for you for so long
we were supposed to last a lifetime
my antidote
turns into my poison

Drowning from inside out, choking up blood
Suffucating from these thoughts
I am about to succumb from this flood
You turned my beating heart into this knot
That i wish i was able to wrap around my neck
You made me believe in love when you seen I was a wreck
But you had no intentions of reciporcating
You sit there and watch me fading
It was all a lie, illusions that i cant make real
Doesnt change the fact there was truth in how you made feel
Now im the laughing joke, another game won
You get to walk away instead of dealing with the damage you have done.
So when i down this bottle to numb this pain
When i swallow these pills in hopes it takes me away
Will you remember my name?
Will you know that regardless of the heart wrenching throb inside
Regardless of the fact every one of your "i love yous" were a lie
That you were the name forever engraved on my heart
And i have meant everything since the start
That the loss of your love, your beauty
Was enough to trigger my insanity
So i hope you know even when im gone,
When laying in the grave this heartbreak dug for me
I loved you all along,
I just chose to be set free