Guarded yet free, I am hard to know
Confident yet sensitive, I'm both high & low
Compassionate yet hardhearted, a contradictable male
Humble yet arrogant, disrespect me & I'll unleash hell
Impossible to understand yet so full of glee
Inside my heart hide both peace & plea
Easy to talk to yet hard to catch by
A glinting gem yet still feeling shy
Nervous & nimble, curious & controlled
Taking many risk, living life bold
Intuitive but careless, life is my game
I hold an intellect that is to quick to exclaim
Keep it one hundred I don't like to hear lies
Hey my names Abraham & Im a Gemini  

                                                     - Abraham Avalos

It’s 10 a.m.
& rays of sun beam across the room
Lighting up the empty liquor bottles
Consumed to **** the aching sorrow
Of your lonely blues
But the haunting stench of failure fills up the room
Like a kids coloring book
Mad with no direction
You’re living life a drunken fool
While laiyng next to a naked woman
With her arm across your chest
In a different room
A different bed
Feeling cornered by walls as u notice the door just once again
& with a pounding head of recollecting thoughts
U start to feel like u can’t ever rest
Light up a smoke
& start to puff
U crawl out bed & start to dress
Meanwhile u hear her voice
Asking u “so what’s next”
U give falls hope
Like u have to all the rest
Reaching for the door
U turn the ****
As u leave behind another mess
U take a breath & put on your shades
Walk down the steps with baring shame
Another night that’s come & gone
As u walk on down with loneliness within your heart
Hoping tonight u fill it up

                                                     - Abraham Avalos

It's two in the morning & I can't fall asleep
My mind is feeling restless
From all these thoughts that never leave
I remember simpler days
Wishing I could move away
Five years down the line
Now look at where I stay
Sleeping in my homies truck
In a sketchy parking lot
Up & early before dawn
Plug my headphones
Music on
Off to work that 9 to 5
Putting in that over time
Cash my check then realize
IRS took every dime
**** this government of mine
Take our checks & say it's right
Swipe my card & get declined
They make it hard to stay alive
**** I'm tired of this life
But I ain't thinking suicide
For if I do they satisfied
Much rather fight for what is mine
Is there a way for this to change
If there is then lead the way
Living bumy day to day
Tell me how the **** can one maintain
When they come up on your pay
A fallen victim to their game
I now start to contemplate
Faster routes like
Slang some dope & push that yay
Pass me the yak I popp the cap
Take a swig & I knock it back
Lord forgive me for my sins
Might just bust my first break in
                                
                                              - Abraham Avalos

Put yourself in an environment & let yourself go
No plans u must follow
Just letting it all flow
A path with no limits
Just free living at its best
Following intuition
Put your mindset to rest
Where you'll end up
Is a path only u can unfold
It's a journey u must
Go out & explore

                                                    - Abraham Avalos

Endless laughs & smiles
That were shared together
With a feeling so profound
It always felt like summer weather
& a future planed to grow
On your exciting life adventure
**** It couldn't get no better
This feeling is too big to measure

Now you're consumed with butterflies
It sends shivers down your spine
U feel the warmth just taking over
Every time she passes by
Like a new world u have discovered
Loosing yourself within her eyes
Asking yourself if this is real
Or have u been dreaming this hole time
Cuz you've never visualized
A chemistry so divine
She becomes your one & only
A star placed right by your side
& her gourgous magnitude
Always lifting u up into the sky
Thankful life blessed u this way
The day paths had intertwined

Deep within a love
u get to know her story
Of how she once loved another
With a passion but then turned stormy
He left her on her own
Broken hearted & feeling lonely
That wasn't the outcome
She was expecting in this journey
Filled with blue emotion
Wondering where it all went wrong
& how the **** she lost his devotion
But with time she grew back strong
Gracefully flowing just like the ocean
Determined to move on
She found herself feeling unbroken
& so she carried on
That's when life brought u together
Instant attraction from the start
U both embarked a new endevour
Giving this feeling a fair shot

But now the time is rather worrying
U feel she's drifted off
Your future seems quite unclear
You're mind's consumed with fearfull thoughts
That this storm will never clear
& you'll both just grow apart

                                                      -Abraham Avalos

As I walk along the beach, leaving footprints in the sand
Reminiscing of old times, u & I both use to have
Night strolls along the beach with the moonlight as our guide
Conversations deep as seas that would stimulate our minds
Just two lovers in the night with hands that intertwined
Every step remained unplanned just like the blanket in the sand
Gazing up at stars above
As I bring u closer into my arms
Stare at your eyes like u do to me as I place my hand right on your cheek
Close my eyes & closely lean
As our lips touch
Like the sky & sea

                                                      -Abrah­am Avalos

The sun has come out
U can hear the birds chirping
U look to the sky
While your mind starts thwarting
As u walk down the block
U then see a stray
Puzzeld with consuming thoughts
U can't help look away
At what u once gave a smirk & harshly criticized
But now that you've lost your crystal eyes
U feel so ashamed
With constant blame
Assumed to even think they r all the same
But now it is u to roam with no home
For now u r known
As a rolling stone

                                                      -Abraham Avalos

Reflecting on the days we shared together in our past
**** I can't help but feel they went by a little to fast
I know we're both to stubborn to ever let this go
I just wish we could recover this bond, cultivating this seed of love to grow
There's no denying this babe, I'm still in love with u
That's why I've remain right by your side, constantly fighting this thing through
But I can't do this by myself, know it takes two to flow within this dance
I need u to trust me on this one, and I promise U & I will forever last
So please babe won't u hear my cry & take me by the hand
Cuz like u said,
There's a far bigger picture for us that we have yet to have

                                                     - Abraham Avalos

U live in denial
Instead of pressing refresh
U refuse to start over
Leaving behind all the cancerous mess
Instead u desperately wait
All night at the door
Knowing so well
She won't come through there no more
Tell me what will u gain
By living this way
Blinded by heart ache
U slip further away
Thinking now your the one
That must be put into blame
U can't seem to carry on
Everywhere that u go
U can't help but see her face
So u drown your sorrows
Every night after dark
Hurt from it all
You've lost who you are
Only to realize the answer wasn't there
Now your a mess & drunk
Completely lost in despair
But I know your helplessly trying
I see it within your eyes that constantly keep crying
Due to your heart aching pain
Broken down wondering how
It all ended this way
  
                                                     - Abraham Avalos

Like an addict when ignited as I’m placed upon your lips
U consume me through the friction of addiction as I light up your burning wish
U feel my warm embrace erase
All the anxiety’s that u face
Helping escape your given troubles
Keeping u humble through my given taste of grace
With no more run I’ve been left off departed & forgotten in the cemetery of an ashtray
For now you’re gone leaving me amongst the ashes of yesterday

Contienes un aroma de amor, calmante y than puro
Atrayendo me como una abeja a tu flor, penetrando tu mundo profundo

Extrayendo tu dulce sabor
Que se convierte a miel
Suave lo que se siente tu Amor
Me trae regresando de nuevo otra vez

Volando, y buscando de los cielos mas altos
Que jamas se a comparan a los momentos que ambos acumulamos

                                                     ­ -Abraham Avalos

Today u feel the storm
rain down on your parade
U fight to maintain strong
But find it hard to keep the faith
Far from all your goals
Life's got u trippin on the way
U screaming **** the world
No one understands your pain
Trying to preserve your soul
& contain yourself from rage
As life throws another blow
U find it hard to keep a pace
For all u do is fall
U seem to get no break
Young & all alone
U look up at the sky & pray for better days
But don't u give up cuz u low & these days don't even show
Keep yo head up through this phase
Understand that change is slow
& soon you'll feel the suns warm embrace upon your face
We all have to pay a toll
Before we reach the pearl gates

                                                   -  Abraham Avalos

If u ever find yourself, deep within a sea of tears
Just call on me one time & know that I'll be near
No matter the place or time, nor how long it'll take
I'll stick right by your side wiping off the tears from your gorgeous face
But babe if I'm real far
To far for u to reach
As the day falls into night
Look up at the moon
& know that’s where we'll meet
So whenever your heart feels low
& u start to feel alone
Stare up at the sky
& within a blink
....
I'll be at your door

                                                  - Abraham Avalos

Staring up at the sky
As I think about life
Reflecting back at the times
We was just getting by
Bumping G-funk in the streets
Spitting flow to them beats
Then pulling up to the store
To buy a blunt for the ****
Buckled up getting lyfted
Crousing down blocks
Looking suspicious
To those eyes we pass by
Thinking we people
With bad intentions
But that’s as far as they see
Not knowing
About u & me
Not knowing **** about our struggles
That’s been hitting daily
& although patience for change
Seems difficult to obtain
Before we see the sun rays
As it shines up better days
This is just fog in the breez
Never here permently
Keep ya head up with faith
For change is on it’s way

Incarcerated with vexation & your mindset feeling captive
In hopes to ease the pain u medicate but nothing happens
Just looking for escape far from the rain that's looking drastic
U start to run away, all night & day cuz u can't hack it
But **** it, That's the test,
Give it your best & dont feel so frantic
Life always throws us hits so dodge em quick but keep your balance
For if  u just commit, u will make it, so don't u panic
This game is hard, but remain strong & I promis u will surpass it

                                                 - Abraham Avalos

Let us end the days adventures by gathering around the flame
Sit & laugh about the places we have ventured while we enjoy the time & place
For this will be our time capsule of memories made when we unite
A simple cherished moment never to go frozen all throughout our life  

                                                   - Abraham Avalos

What is love?
A feeling well know to many yet so foreign for me to know
I plant a seed of love & cultivate its nature but never see it grow

What is love?
I've been waiting for it to find me but it never shows at my door
I seek it in the ones I think are meant to be but they always leave me for another so I continue to remain alone

What is love?
I must be very complicated, for I always end up getting left
But somewhere deep down I'm happy for em & their new loves that they have come to met
I wouldn't want to be a reason a woman reflects back at her life & only feels regret
For if I love this person I must let her grow
Not contain her soul
For what is love I ask?
To me it's seeing her feel joy & happiness
With every given second she comes to spend

                                                     - Abraham Avalos