In this world full of chaos
I try to find solace
I try to find peace

In a place
Where there are foxes everywhere but no sheeps
I try to find a soul who is same as me

In this world of  fake smiles and cunning minds
I try to find someone divine
Someone with a sacred soul and a beautiful mind

When I was 10 my mum Told me that
I was special
The Next day was the First time
she told me to shut up
When I was 14 my Friends told me that
I was funny
The Next day I Heard them laugh about me
And when I was 16
You told me I was beautiful
You told me you loved me
You told me you would do anything for me
But I did not believe you
Because I learnt that people don't mean
What they say
And I did not want to get disappointed again

Every day I am changing.
I was so lost.
So far gone.
Then there you were.
You saved me.
When I needed to save myself.
Every ounce of effort that I put into fixing myself was for you.
And instead of fixing myself, I broke you, too.
And you poured yourself into me, hoping to fix all the cracks.
And I had nothing to give back.
And soon enough, even you didn't make me smile anymore.
Everything went black.
Instead of falling in love with you, I fell in love with sadness.
And the sadness consumed me,
Like it hadn't eaten in years.
My eyes didn't light up anymore.
My skin became dull.
But there you were,
And you still tried to save me.
But even you became tired.
And you couldn't try to save me anymore.
And I'm sorry.
Today I will save you while I try to save myself.
And tomorrow I will only save myself while you try to save yourself.
Because every day I'm changing.
I am changing for you.
But I am mostly changing for me.