i'm sorry i'm such a
c
o
  w
    a
      r
        d
and that i can't keep us moving forward
you have no idea how much i want this to be
but you deserve better than me
i know you don't understand as much as you say you do
i'm sorry i never meant to hurt
y
  o
    u
you're the one that would get hurt
i don't care about me anymore
i'm sorry i'm such a people
p
l
   e
    a
     s
      e
        r
and i wish there was a way i could make this easier
again i say you deserve better
and i'm not worth anything that matters
so i know you'll probably see this
and i kind of wish you would read it
because i am so
s
o
   r
     r
       y
and i wish you knew
everything that i've said
and everything i wrote  and you've never read
but then again this was up to you
and this, this is okay too

Okay.
Listen here.
Listen good.
I'm not saying most of this is about you
(Though maybe I should)
But I think you can read between the lines
I'm tired of telling my secrets
Is there anything old?
You should know how I write by now.
Is there anything blue?
You should know nothing blue is new.
Sometimes I just write
And don't know what it's about
Not until the end, that is
Good god,
you should see my walls...
So read it for yourself
And stop trying to
figure everything out
You can speak for
a reason
you know
Start writing
Your own
Song
Now
    .

Our souls are fallen and the skies adapt to our faces
And the clouds let out rain when we cry
This month is bad for everyone
And no one really wants to try

There isn't much good about November
Maybe Thanksgiving, if you like that kind of thing
But it's the same old people and same old food
All wondering what kind of pie to bring

I'm so sick of this month
There's only really one good thing about it
But even that is usually not so much
Maybe it's two years too many or two years is enough

Can this year just be over
So everything can reset
With red hair and not so bright blue eyes
And not a single person I've ever met

I need you more than anyone, okay?
And you're the one that's never here
You don't know what it's like,do you?
Because I would always be there for you
If you want to have me you need to be here
Even when it hurts
How much can you expect me to do?
I'm only one person who's barely making my way through
I'm just
Watching, hoping, waiting
For you
Wishing, wanting, praying
That you will see this through
Please just...
Be here.
Don't leave.
Hold me close.
And love me.

superman dropped me as he flew away/i was slumped on the ground and cried for days/ i picked myself up and shook of the daze/ignoring the mindless superman craze/he's not the good boy that they all say/he's not sweet and he's not brave/but as much as i hate him, i love him that way.