I can be who I want now:
With my girly music and "emo" bands.
And bright red lipstick,
Holding my own hand.
I should've done this from the start,
But I let you get in the way.
I'm not timid and I'm not scared anymore.
Babe, I'm a ***** and I'm not afraid.
So what if you don't get my sense of humor?
I do, and that's all that really matters.
I can do what I want and say what I think,
Even though you always did the latter.
I think it's good that we let this go.
We can find ourselves this way,
And find our own paths in life,
If you ever get that brave.
So I'm going to be friends with who I want to now.
I think we're through.
Call me back when you have a change of heart,
Or stop being you.

Maybe his phone is broken?
Maybe he lost my number?
Did I give him the wrong number by mistake?
He might have a girlfriend?
Maybe he is just busy?
Is he just waiting a little before he texts me?
Gay maybe?
Or he might just have forgotten?
I don't know, maybe he is just nervous?
He might have a good reason
it will happen if I just wait
eventually my screen will light up with an unknown number
with a text that says: hey
I just need to hang on
it will work out
it will
it will
...okay, at this point even I don't believe myself
I'm just lying to myself now.
This was just really, REALLY important to me.
I guess I expected this to happen, I just didn't expect it to hurt this much.

Repost if you know this feeling. Or if you have felt rejected before.

I thought you said you'd be there for me
And that you always have pizza
And added a smile for effect
But I don't think you meant it
Because I can feel your regret
You put up walls that are painted blue
An icy shade, just like your eyes
And you don't know what to say
But what you do say might be lies
Maybe you're just awkward
(Well I know you are)
But when it comes to trying to fix me
You are especially
I know I can be mean and I can be harsh
But I'm just hurting, okay
But if you don't care or know what to say
I guess that's okay...
I thought I could count on you
And you say I can
But I guess not
And I'll just leave you alone

You know there's something wrong when the only person who's there when you're hurting is the one you just broke up with

Making you wonder if you made the right choice because your favorite teacher is the only one who told you that you did

And you're just standing there like where are my friends and why is it so hard to breathe
But far too easy to crack apart and bleed

Maybe I need new friends
Like that baggy t-shirt of his
Or red lipstick
Or maybe even that pair of scissors in the back of the drawer

I know I should feel alone, that was almost a break up and I was the breaker
But not this alone
Something is wrong with this picture.

you're my superman and my kryptonite, baby, lets fly away...
we don't have to stay...
it always ends this way...
fading from emerald green to grey...
your eyes glow red with a murderous light...
giving me a sudden fright...
i see your demon soul and demon eyes...
i don't know if it's fake or if it's actual...
because, baby, you're supernatural...
how can you pick me up and then drop me...
maybe that part was just in my dreams...
pick me up and hold me close...
i don't care if it kills me so...
bring it on...
before you fly away and are gone...

calm blue waters

falling stars

late nights

love highs

hellogoodbye

ever changing

ever damaging

drowning to breathe

tossed to monsters in the sea