Today was a bit easier
I realized that I didn't cry when I thought about you
Instead I was laughing at something stupid that I did
Remembering that moment I spilt my drink everywhere
and all you said was
Sauds
And even though I rushed to clean it up
you were right there beside me mopping up my mess
Laughing and commenting on my cleaning abilities
I felt bad that I made you wait
but you didn't care
cause that's just the type of guy you were
An easy smile and an open hand
ready at any moment to reach out
and help
I wish we could have helped you
I wish we saw something sooner
I wish I had the power to give you some of my years
cause Lord knows you would have used them wiser
But I know I shouldn't say that
think that
because it wont make the hurt go away
It wont bring you back
but that hope that you'll walk through the door is still there
I don't think it will ever go away
Today we did a tribute piece for Paolo, he was a dancer, and they redid some of the pieces he choreographed. It was...soothing, happy. The pain is still there, but it's not as sharp.