everything is dead
anxiety in my chest
I just want to bleed
I'm not of this world
scream at me some more
hit me till I break
there is no escape
demons claw and bite
I can barely breathe
tell me what you see
I only see blood
I only fear you
there is no more pain
scream at me some more
tell me what you think
obviously its truth
everything is dead
I just want to bleed

Fck you for hurting me when you promised you never would.

Fck you for being so inconsiderate.

Fck you for not trying to fix us, instead, leaving.

Fck you for not being my friend after, like you said you would be.

Fck you for moving an hour away.

Fck you for making all my favorite songs, TV shows, and movies make me think of you.

Fck you for being my dream.

Fck you for my whole family knowing and talking about you like it doesn't hurt.

Fck you for being okay without me.

Fck you for making me fall in love with you.

You tell me you'll love me forever,
More than anything,
forever.
maybe "forever" meant something else to you,
like "until next month".
unfortunately when I promised forever,
I meant the "forever" kind of forever.

Aching heart and mind
Needs touch of a caring soul
Yearning company.

You are my mind anymore;
In each fold and crack,
lies you and our memories

I miss your skin and the warmth it held,
And its power to warm me in the coldest mornings.
I miss your doe eyes full of care,
Gorgeously painted by an angel.
I miss your old apartment we'd hang out at,
which us more comforting than my own home.
But at the same time, I dont.
I don't miss worrying when my texts were left unread,
and I don't miss worrying when you hung out with that one girl,
Then again I'll still think of you daily
(and I may never stop..)

for over a year I was in love with you,
And I thought we were swans,
perfect and forever,
but, really,
someone else was your swan,
now that I've stepped away,
I realize maybe I NEVER was YOUR swan