The risk of takin' time to begin mendin' a broken and frozen heart is it could stop its natural rhythmic beatin' at any given moment, without adequate warnin'
Matter of fact it's bound to happen like global warmin', that's the only endin' found followin' right on the heels of drownin'
Any other prediction goin' 'round is only white noise background sound of them denyin' and rewritin' facts, specializin' in turnin' backs and bold face lyin'
I constantly find myself suffocatin' in my own skin like it's a plastic bag grippin' my face, compression at the neck, not lettin' air in
Debatin' whether or not to go all in and fight this overpowered and undefeated depression with persistence and medication, maybe some meditation and self reflection
Or should I just go ahead and give in again, puttin' in little to no effort to change the end into somethin' worth strivin' for, will there even be someone there lookin' forward to me arrivin'?
This is not pretend or manipulation, basically I'm forfeitin' due to exhaustion and frustration, handin' over the rains, just givin' my inner demon the win
I'm sick and tired of bein' tired and sick, gettin' beaten, pickin' myself up just to start takin' the walk of shame back to some new beginnin'
Plus, spoiler alert, I already know the final boss battle in this surreal engine is just gonna be against myself, once again
Same as its always been, it's not about to start changin' now, no amount of trainin' or preparation' will stop this from happenin'
Like the programer guy and I are playing a side game of chicken, he's got nothin' to lose, I've already lost everythin' holdin' out for a win that's never comin', never a celebration
I'll die if I don't keep moving 'cause I can see the next hardship comin', it's ******' gainin' on me quickly and I don't have a remedy or solution so, tail between legs, I start runnin'
I'm noticin' the **** selection, nothing good comes from either decision especially if you're plannin' on bringin' logic in as part of the equation, it should help but it's only a complication
And I'm forced to pick a direction without knowin' the destination or what I'll be facin' or what's waitin' for me at the finish lines location
Even without an imagination as dark as mine you can see its a risky expidition with low to no expectation of finishin'
Hope diminishin' past salvation, straight to damnation and a bitter end
Death awaits every person ever born, he's never missed one and I won't be the exception, it's the when I'm questionin', on my knees prayin', shiftin' seamlessly into beggin'
In one hand I could win the battle that's ragin' in between my ears, lord knows I'm tired of listenin'
On the other hand I lose the war, therefore there's no reason for even tryin', no goin' back to the beginnin', no rewindin'
I'm left nursin' a wound that's turned into an infection and its quickly spreadin', entertainin' the thought of idle hand amputation
Don't need to be an open heart surgeon, it's already been broken twice and put on ice, I'll just rip it out then hold it up for all to see before it completely stops pulsatin'
The fixation has never been on fixin' anythin' but rather dodgin' any situation that'll get me lookin' within
Possibly havin' to acknowledge I might not be worth savin', is that me speakin' or my shoulder devil at it again'?
It's gettin' harder and harder to tell the difference, both soundin' the same, the blurred line causes confusin'
I know the notion of what I'm sayin' isn't easy to comprehend much less believe in
And that's the reason why I've bottled every emotion and set them floatin' out in the vast ocean
To keep me from bein' a burden to anyone but one person, you're lookin' at him and I lie and say it's workin'
I don't know what I was thinkin' not takin' this more serious from the beginnin'
It's been ruinin' my life's mission, runnin' up a tab of bad karma that I'm gonna wind up payin'
Stoppin' all forward motion by keepin' me frightened to the point I've given up on fightin'
The results are in and it's unsettlin', I now only seem to be nothin' but a punchin' bag for Satan and his legion
I'm startin' to come undone at the seams and it seems like no one's carin' but I don't know what else I was expectin'
I could've predicted that with precision like I have the ability to be time travelin'
Knowin' for certain what the future is bringin' but I'm just goin' off of every previous lesson that left a lastin' impression
But still not seein' the big picture, fussin' over the small **** like somethin' on the roof of my mouth I can't stop tonguin'
Wastin' precious time that I could've been usin' to at least soften the blow I know is creepin' up, comin' 'round the bend with the collection plate to put my fate in
But again, I can't stop the regression long enough to gain traction, a continuation of my downward trend, market value crashin', free fallin' with no parachute or safety net to protect my noggin
I don't give myself permission to feel anythin' other than self derogation
Sleep deprivation has my dreams fadin', countin' one sheep, two sheep, ****, the rest have gone missin'
I'm left pickin' myself up and dustin' myself off, brushin' my own well bein' to the side, out of sight, out of mind, keep it hidden
All lefts, no right to weigh in even though it's my life my thoughts are playin' with, throwin' caution to the wind
And now that I'm broken beyond repair I get tossed into the compost bin lettin' somethin' else grow from me decomposin'
A form of reincarnation at worst, at best, a place to finally get some much needed rest in'
I'm no longer invested in livin', hell, I'll even sign my own death certificate, give me a pen

©2022

I have to let you go
Although it hurts me so
You moved on
You've been long gone
I just wanted to be the face that made your eyes light up
I just didn't want to lose my luck
Or you
Now what do I do?
You said goodbye
I'm holding a lie
Goodbye, goodbye
Those words come with a price that's high
I can't afford it
But I can't live just grippin the price tag
I have to pay, even if the payoff makes me lose my breath&gag;
I just need to hate you
So that's what I'll do
Then the words will just come out
The bill paid. No more "what about..."

I'm the wind you feel on your skin,
The burn your feelin within,

The hate engulfing your heart,
The pain making its mark,

Sparkin a flame in your brain,
As you sit in the dark,

Makin its way to you,
CHANGE,
Or I'll rip you apart,

Tame it,
Quit complainin,
I'm stayin,

I'm the idea behind everything that you're sayin,

You think that you're free,
But you're mine,

I'm the evil inside deceiving your mind,

You keep thinking you're believing a lie,
But in time,
You'll see that I'll lead you to life,

Without me you'd be incomplete,
Face it,
It's meant to be,

Just take it,
And depend on me,

Everything you thought you knew,
Erase it,
And leave the rest to me,

Open the door to your mind and let me in,
You've been chosen to endure a new life you'll never comprehend,

So here we are,

I'm in your head,
And I'll be there until the end,

To whisper in your ear,
Grippin you with fear,
The shift in every gear,
The pain in every tear,

Your influence in movement,
Uninvited improvement,
To undermine you, intrudin',
To run inside you, confusin'

TO BE YOUR ****** EVERYTHING-

-

I'm stuck in a mental loop,
Drink blood from the devil's spoon,
Breathe but need drugs to help it soothe,
Feel the need to speak up,
But dont know who to tell it to,

Listenin to whispers while it slithers in your thoughts,
See me pourin rivers cuz he hits you when he talks,

So here we are,
You're in my thoughts,
On and on it goes and never stops,

Blossomed like a rose,
And birthed from death,
Crawled on burning coals,
It hurts to sweat,

I'm caught in an endless fight,
Take my life in the breathless night,
Maybe I should repent this time,
Before I go completely blind,

Is it life or is it death?
Is there light in eternal rest?
All these questions feed my head,
Will I ever sleep again?

Why the **** do I need a test?
Life's just better when we pretend,
Cuz when it's not what it is,
Maybe I can deal with this ****** ****,

It hurts to think,
These are more than just words to me,
Maybe we can learn through dreams,
And define the true feeling of what burning means,

You make death so appealing,
But then again it depends on the feeling,

Make me believe that this place is worth it,
So that I can fulfill my painful purpose,

YOU CAN NEVER KNOW TO MUCH-

So whats it gonna be?
COME WITH ME,
I'll make you what you want to be,
But nothins free,
You'll have to pay,
Lets make a trade,
I'll make it all
Go away-**



HED TRAMA™

Gather round people I got a story to tell
Call me a romantic but I like to dwell
Dwell on the past & loves that are lost
And sacrifices made at a great cost

There's a darkness in this world that makes it a lonely place
You get blood on your hands and dirt upon your face
It's a bust and it's a beat up but we'll push right on through
Cause baby all I'm ever gunna need is you

Our love will see us through those long winter nights
Grippin each other tight till the morning light
The grimnesses of this would will not see so bad
Because I've got you and for that I'll always be glad

You telling me you're pregnant I'm over joyed
We've got ourselves a darling young boy
Our new lives can finally start
Our beautiful family will never be apart

We moved from the city to the countryside
Our son graduated college oh what a sense of pride
It's a time I remember well my dear
The world seemed glorious and without any fear

But I remember walking with you through those hospital doors
Wonderin what life's worth livin for
To see you get taken so cruelly from me
But from your cursed burden finally set free

In the dark and lonely hours you'll be at my side
Not there in person but you'll always be my bride
There is just one question I got to know
How am I gunna make it though without you??

This unholy libidinal gratification that we share;

lips of ours, interlocked,
strands of hairs, intertwined,
warm, shortened breaths, exchanged,
subtle moans sang; like songs of siren---

made me lock your head with these thighs,
as I squirm in ecstasy of pleasure,
while grippin' the sheet tightly,
ready to embark on another arousing journey.

Hold up hold up
I see the world corrupt
Since
I took a sip of the potion
I gotta swole up
Mobs like Luciano
Sound the instrumental
Watch the vocals turn detrimental
Servin' peens
Lyrically dumpin'
Out my magazine
You who I be
Straight wizardy
Fools thought i was soft
But I was taught
Combat so now I sinbad
Chased afta things
I never had
I scarfaces like Brad feel the brass
If you wanna be put on
Your ***

The world is mine.....
The world is mine suckas
Rack up
My crew be thick don't slack up
The world is mine
Dollaz stack up
So check yoself
Before ya wacked up

Yosef the don
The only one
Puttin' suckas through pun
And stun
Any poems
I'm so deep you'll love em
They wanna keep me
Bound but I'm above em
Drowning competitions
So I shove em
Out the scene
Puffin nature's green
Still wear guess baggy jeans
I'm old school ghetto as
Rallo
Many claim leadership
But they just follow
Others after creeds
I been a soldier
So I know when ******* feeds
Greeds
Made from a ***** deeds
Romance without finance
Is a slim chance
Its stuck in a fire with the devils dance
Fools out with open hands
Reeady take a reprimand
But I stand strong even grippin'
The slim
Knockin out flakes the world is mine

The world is mine.....
The world is mine suckas
Rack up
My crew be thick don't slack up
The world is mine
Dollaz stack up
So check yoself
Before ya wacked up

Back again it's Yosef
The magnificent
Rhymes independent all others
Dependant
While im closin' pennant my heart's in it
Lay more chaos than the Senate
From the land of Kemet
I see folks lookin' like me a super G
Vogues lookin' lovely on the
Caddy
Smokin' trees to reach higher degrees
My subconscious teases keep foes on they knees
Beggin' in pleas but won't get no mercy from me
See the skills I unleash true beast
Mob style Genovese
My death date set to release cuz my contract
With life was breached and teach all the dead souls
Takin' a toll this life ain't nothing but
A dream
Til the death angel sings I'm keep
Ya heads in ring
Rippin' off crowns welcome to
Htown
Where we be grippin' iron by
The pound
Slow up sound deffin' all haters
That come around
So nigggaz be prepared to
bow down....

Feelin' like Rocky so come fly
Now
So go ahead and take a bow as
I vow
My skills to this game **** shame
See the flame from the enemies I
Tamed
Breakin' all barriers and domain sniff *******
Til my thoughts grow sane
Labelled insane
Cuz I refuse to dance and take a
Stance
On a fake reality I'm an immortal
Make portals
Once I spin my vocals since I was an embryo
Earth was never a place I wanted to go sippin' syrup
Slow
Since hells below and heaven strains continue
To grow
I'm talkin' about seeds that go and
Glow
My brain cells if all else fails I'll see jail
My raps never a fairytale as I sail
Like Gail
Knockin' fools off trail choke em
Like Sprewell
Now I see you ain't living well ya going stale
Stiffin' up bodies when we come
Around
So ya fools know drizzill so bow
Down

STILL FRESH AN ****** THE WHOLE CREW
FORGET WHO?
I HEARD THAT *** ****** YOU 2!!!
DIE SLOW
MY FOW FOW
MY FOW FIVE
BOMM ON YOU BUSTAS
NO KILLAS REALISM
HOLLY SAID YOU WAS COOL
BUT THEN *** MARK TRYNA SHINE
YOU MUST BE SCARED
I HOPE YOU FRY
REM TILL U DIE
IM THE BEST EVER CONCEIVED
HAIL MY HISTORY
SNITCH
I ROC
I MIGHT BE BLACK
I DONT KNOW
WHO CARES
IM THROWED
FINNA LAY BACK
GOTO THE GRAVE
GOT THIS COMBED DOUGH
CLEAN YO ***** FRO
HIT THE HILLS
YOU **** MORE *****
DEADASS ***** *** PITCH
NO REGRETS
ITS FINALIZED IF HE HIT
***** IN MY EYES
YOU CAN HAVE IT
ITS A DEADLY HABBIT
***'N

YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE
I CAN LOSE MY LIFE
ANY SECOND
ANY DAY
BLOOD INSIDE ME
LEAKING LIKE IM DYING
DEATH FROM THE STRUGGLE
CONSISTENTLY DRINKIN
ALWAYS SMOKIN
POPPIN PILLS
IM A LOST CAUSE
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
HABBITS ARE A *****
PILLS POPPED
DRINKS POURED UP
SMOKE **** I AIN HAD ENOUGH
WAZZ UP
COME OVER
I CANT SLEEP
JUST HERE
WALKIN ROUND
AROUND GOING IN CIRCLES
THOUGHTS OF YOU
RUN THROUGHT MY MIND
I GOTTA HOUSE
YOU CALL HOME
I BUILT IT FROM THE GEE TOP
6 STORY MANSION UP CREEK
ITS A CASTLE SO COME CHILL
OTHERWISE IM DEAD
ALONE
AFRAID TO LAY MY HEAD DOWN
ASLEEP BUT AWAKE
THE ONLY WAY MY HEART WONT STOP
STILL BABY ITS ALL MENTAL
SO LET THAT BEAT DROP
DONT STOP

MOTIVATE
NUNCIATE
INSINUATE
CONCENTRATE
NO DEBATE
DO IT 4 THE GRAM
100 TRILL
STRAPPED ON MY CHEST
THE BEST
IM SHOOK
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK
I CANT SEE A THING
IF I HAD A TASTE
MAYBE I MIGHT BELIEVE
NOW I REALLY DO NOT
SO GOD
IF YOU REAL
IM TAKING THE WAR TO YOUR PEARLY GATE
I DIE A LESSON TO ALL MANKIND
REAL MEN EXIST AN ITS MUTUAL
REPRESENTATION
DEDICATED
ALL IN THE MIX
CONSISTENTLY HIP
CHEF COOK ME BREAKFAST
CHEF COOK ME LUNCH
SHE COOK DIN
ANY TIME OF DAY
UNDER CONTROL FROM BAD BEHAVIOR '
WHIPS THE WIFEY
OUTTA TOWN
CALL THE PHONE TO MAKE IT ALRIGHT
**** IM RICH
DO HOW I DO
DONT OVER ESTIMATE
ite
no net just bank in the streets the richest man ever
thought of ever seen
the resemblence of the GOD himself
the mighty one top shelf
over here nighly sleep
creepin my eyes wide open
half asleep driving by
riding by in foreign 2020 escorting
pimpins a lifestyle hotter than dry ice
icier than ross's jewler
look at the bigger picture
got these ladies drooling
**** it class is a fine wrist watch
buy me two aircraft carriers
carrying weight across the world
support one
you might catch a glympse of a life thats understood
a known concept about royalty protected an abused
the same time my bars ain a crime an done have to rhyme
no beat i only speak heat
spit those bars that hits you where you lay your head
spread the wealth or gimme your wallet
i cost to survive am starvin
that ain even half of my troubles this just the beginning
get stunnin
im a boss i cant help it
i was born z man the richest prophet in the game so insane
make you go phsyco mentally strained strange
flocking watch me ball an prey on the lion an zebra
zack got crack like lupall lowest cost outta dem all
got these hoes wishing they could call me
roll call
hott virus spreading like the word of the lord
so respect
keep the tech
like the **** an purple sprite
gotta bottle spittin jack smack
might have a heart attack on the punchline
fine get me some mo an pack it tight
so nice need a smile to feel right
take that *** to space tonight
i might even make her have a baby
world power right here right now
world power so potent never seen before
this **** is new exploration on mars
with my peeps my ****** we smokin angels work
high as **** till death wont give up
sittin here your hiness the righteous
fiend for that work
get yo *** to work
tired of sittin strugglin
dont you blow ya brains
get it together
whats the ******* issue
im tired of this *******
let it end now give in let that **** ride
im so rich i put my money in the sky
real high on a barg in space
you cant see me in and outta orbit
in my transformer
transforming the atmosphere to star dust
an alien more powerful then superman
smarter then lex luther
batman ain got **** on a ****** like me
its ruthless tootheless capital P
P for punishment
strappin the game up to take over the earth
finally everyones eating mane

taking over everything right now
i dont give a **** test me
you need 100k people
that many to even consider disregard my necessites
its necessary if you want to stop it
the magnitude of this grateituness uncompelled
40 percent of your middle class lower class an even upper class citizens you might need to go to the last body
they done been to the bar an nobody give a **** who you are
raise yourself more respectful an have gratitude
BE FAITHFUL
KEEP ON STEPPIN
REPPIN THE BLOCK YOU COME FROM
NO NEED TO **** IN YOUR HOOD
ITS NEGATIVE THINGS IN LIFE THAT GET YOU CAUGHT UP KEEP YOUR VANITY
OBEY SANITY
THEM VOICES ARE CHOICES
LIFE IN HELL
IS FORREAL LOCKED BEHIND A ONE WINDOW CELL
MIND YA BUSINESS
SOMEONE CALLS PICK UP
TAKE CARE HOMIE
SHORTY SAID SHE FLYING BY ONCE A MONTH
ITS BEEN A MONTH I AIN SEEN HER
BUT
I GOT HER ON SPEED DIAL
NOT STRESSIN
3 time state champ
air force one general had 18 thou hours
d land of the free the home of the brave
the air capital of the world
80 year old veteran saluting saluted back
the best feeling in the world
the years i did service i been there had that shipped it
you been waxed taxed an controlled
droppin b'z from the clouds
puff puff the dragon
sleep wake before noon
5 mill a week piece of cake
eating wheaties like scarface
200 MILLION ALBUMS SOLD
200 BILLION VIEWS
100 BILLION PLAYBACKS
SO MANY HOURS AN HOURS PLAYLISTS
BEING WITH YOU IT MAKES ME FEEL ALL BETTER
THE WEATHER HAS ME WEATHERED
TEATHERED INTERTWINED WITH A THEOLIGICAL VEIW FROM THE MINDSET YOU HAVE GIVEN AND PROVEN
WHAT YOU HAVE SHOWN WILL BE KNOWN
TILL EXISTENCE LYE EXTINCT

it ain optional
we be outta deriere faded
swede on my feet velvet on my carpet
silk on my seats leather holding the banger
sit back it ain optional we be ballin outta deriere
crunk tippin 44's  
win'n cash me outside on doin my dope thang
widda dope boyz homie till the end
im grippin grain ridin swerve
when i spin the wheel im home from the ville
im trill till death learn a lesson
pleasure an pain so framed
conspirical snitch
OUTTA STATE OUTTA DATE
NEVER HOME
ALWAYS MISSING
WANTING
NEEDING THAT ***** ON MY ****
IM BENT AN SUSPECT
SHE ******* OTHER MEN
I MIGHT BE WRONG
I STILL AM FAITHFUL
FAITHFUL TILL IM 6 FT UNDA
FROM UNDA THE GAME
I CAME OUT AN SHOOK WITH 3 STRIKES
10 THOUSAND BODIES STARTED FROM 300
ITS A ***** WAY
I GOT THE FAME FROM BEING THE SAME
I AIN CHANGED AN I NEVER WILL
TOGETHER FOREVER
in your name
#zzzzz

I wanna **** type like you that’s fire and on flight
So exciting, so live, ****** me exactly right
Supersonic stroke, dope soul, ***** so cold
Look at the way you walk with confidence
Look at you flexin’ your intelligence
Check out that voice, how deep that **** is
This ***** got me feelin’ **** I’ve never felt before
My thoughts are all flawed, steadily callin’ your name
Your smell all in my cells, your breath so spectacular
So passionate when I fantasize ‘bout you blowin’ your steam over me
Hazel eyes, bright smile, skin so youthful
You gotta be nothin’ but truth
Can I tantalize your lips with my tongue?
Can I run my fingertips down your neck?
Bet I can arouse your life, make tonight some epic ****
As you caress my nips, holdin’ tight onto my ***,
Slappin’ it, watchin it wiggle, while I’m massagin’ your ****,
Feelin’ your majestic sauce and thrall

*****, you got me out of orbit
Flowing in your fervid fountains and mountains
Hooked on your crowned kingdom,
How sensual you make my body feel in your energy
****, this **** is new to me
Never been so intoxicated by a man
Never wanted to **** until I came into your presence
****, your game changing my world
I’m yearning for you, wantin’ to do the nasty with you
Drink fine champagne, smoke cigars, feel you in my heart
Let the love accelerate in the dark
Where the stars illuminate our nations
Baby, break me in with your finesse
Put me to the test, *** my soul, and never rest
We can stay undressed until sunup, cuddling and kissing,
Seeing the sunlight rise and shine in our view

*****, you radiate magic, so everlasting
Feelin’ phenomenal passion in your galaxy
You’re so dashing, got me baskin’ in your beauty
Swimmin’ in your masculinity, seepin in your serenity
You give me endless adventures being next to you
Freakin’ the way we do is the **** that stimulates me
Grippin’ my thick cakes, talkin’ **** **** to me
Body on body, gettin’ naughty, changin’ positions
All up in me hittin’ my ****, shootin’ three-pointers,
Going for a touchdown, showin’ me your gangsta game
Keepin’ me in line, enticin’ me more and more with your dopeness
How you move in ecstatic slowness and fastness,
Pounding’ me, surprisin’ me, arching my back
Glidin’ your tongue down my back with hotness
Forcin’ me to take your **** with awesomeness
Holdin’ my shoulders, showin’ no remorse
All the ***** that I need to keep this **** tamed