Daddy where did you go?
I remember the days I would run to you as you came home from work so I could feel the comfort of your embrace
I remember asking you to talk in your funny donald duck voice and remember being amazed because I thought maybe you were the voice actor
I remember when you would get upset but come to me and apologize for making me cry and you would comfort me
I remember when you were still there for me
And now
Now you’re barely home
You leave and work and come home late
You don’t even come to the dinner table and when you do
I try talking to you but it seems like whatever is on your phone is more important these days
And I miss when you cared
Even if I make a snarky comment at the dinner table directed towards you, you don’t bother looking up from your phone
Even my anger isn’t enough to make you care
As soon as one of your brothers or sisters wants something you snap out of your daydream for them
If your friends want you to come over you immediately respond
And yet when I need love and affection from you
It’s like I don’t even exist
And I’m not the only victim of your ignorance
My mom who stays home all day and makes your food and actually pays attention to the kids, craves your attention as well
You take her for granted and it ****** me off
Even my little brother has become callous
He learns from you even though you’d rather blame me
He learned to shut out his family as you do right now and focus on his own entertainment
Maybe if you prioritized us then he would learn as well
And now I’ve started calling you father instead of daddy
Because you’re no longer worthy of the love that comes with “daddy”
Father of mine.
I search for love elsewhere because your love is no longer available