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Sometimes the silence is more damaging than the chaos.
Sometimes you’re so mesmerized by all the voices and actions happening around you that you forget to think.
You forget what it’s like to have to sit down and acknowledge every single thing around you.
You just watch and get entertained.
And then, the silences comes in.
And you’re left there, sitting, hearing the sound of your own breath - hearing the sound of your thoughts.
Your thoughts cannot be censored in the silence.
The darkest thought you will ever have, the hardest decision you will ever make, will be in silence.
You torture yourself.
You torture your mind and your soul.
You start to hate yourself.
You start to hate your existence.
You blame yourself for the way you are.
And then they tell you that you need to find a place where you can silence everyone around you and just think.
But what I really want to silence is not around me, it’s inside of me,
And the sad thing is that:
I can never escape it.
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
If I think back to the day that I lost all control. I realize that what I did wasn’t healthy but I did it anyway. My anxiety was out of control. Medications after medications, didn’t change a thing. Nothing has & maybe nothing ever will. Except when I think back on that very moment when I picked up the blade and cut my wrist once again all that fear & pain suddenly went away. I haven’t harmed myself in over a year but holding in all that pain, I just had to do it. I’m Feeling like I’m going back to my old ways.
It helps at the very moment when I feel the blade cut my skin & then I go numb. Almost like nothing can get to me. Although the very next day something does affect me & I think I’ll have to go back home and pick up that blade once again to make all the pain go away.
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
Flowers bloom during spring
& so does love? But what exactly is love?
Is it a feeling? And emotion? No! It’s a chemical that your brain sends to your body trying to fool you and to trip you
Into thinking that you need someone
But let me set this straight
You show your true crown when it’s
Worn by you and you
Alone
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
Player
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
It’s funny how a guy says
He misses you
But he never even was there
And now he’s saying this and that
But he never showed he cared
So now he sees you’re doing better
Then ever so now he wants to act
Like he’s your lover but in the past
He didn’t act like your lover or friend
He was just another ***
Who played you till the end
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
It’s funny how I
Think one day I’ll be
Able to the girl of your
Dreams
But then I come back to reality
Just to realize that’ll never
Happen to me
But in the mean time I’ll stare
At you looking so happily
But deep down I’m crying because
If the girl
I can’t be.
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
Fight
 Mar 2018 Unknown
Breanna
Not everything in life
is a smooth flight,
most times you have to fight
for who and what you believe in
and in the end it'll all pull
together again.
 Oct 2017 Unknown
Legion
When you see her cry
     you get a rag,
a gentle delicate cloth.
                                        Lovingly grasp her hand
                                               and dab its tip;
                                       dry each tear as they come.
                                                           ­                               And ask each drop
                                                            ­                                   why it'd leave
                                                           ­                               such beautiful eyes.

  If she wishes
to be in the sky,
  tell her to go.
                              Take the sun ransom,
                              and replace its shining
                                    with her own.
                                                            ­          So you can see her every morning
                                                         ­                          and wish for her
                                                                ­                  return each night.

When you see her scars
  both visible and non-
    touch each gently.
                                             And remind her
                                       that each and every hurt
                                            she has survived,
                                                       ­                                 has only made her
                                                                ­                   that much more unique;
                                                         ­                              that much stronger.

  Show her that she
  is a special person
and is worthy of love.
                                     That she deserves the love
                                            she fears to give...
                                            show her so that
                                                            ­                     one day after you're gone
                                                            ­                      she can find the strength
                                                                ­                    to go on without you.

    Tell her that while
she might not be a goddess
far above worldly desires,
                                          that she is amazing,
                                         for just being herself
                                    for being that beautiful girl
                                                            ­                   who thinks herself damaged
                                                         ­                         when in truth she's just
                                                            ­                    a different kind of beautiful.

   And finally, love her.
  Like a boy loves a girl
Till she finally remembers
                                            that that's what she is:
                                          not a scar, not a goddess,
                                             not a star. But a girl.
                                                           ­                         That deserves to be loved.
I'll sing of all the ways I miss you
and how this sorrow came to be
the verses, lies I should have whispered
the chorus, truths in harmony.

The melody will break the silence
and call your broken heart to me
to be repaired by love unyielding
to broken hymns in minor key.
Depression lies and makes us push those we love most away, sometimes so far away that they can never return.
 Oct 2017 Unknown
The Dedpoet
All the silence does not mean
You are alone,
It is the world waiting for you
To listen;
And in the darkness you are
Found by the light
Of your hope.

And in the tears of your
Pain you are born,
There you become stronger
And it creates order.

Pick up your flesh as your spirit
Lifts,
And speak your happiness
As if the tip of your tongue
Was the mountain's peak
Speaking at the sky,
The burden is a caged bird
And only the conscious can set
It free.
And sing to yourself so that
You know you are never alone
In your body.

Know that your crazy is beautiful
Because it makes you YOU,
Wear your skin like
Your cozy blanket and cuddle
In the warmth of yourself.
     You are not broken,
But scattered like the night
With pieces like stars shining,
    Open your pain and yourself
To the wound of the world and heal
Whatever you choose.
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