I have a tendency to overthink and overreact. I'm quick to get angry. That's just who I am. It's something I get from my dad who got it from his. But I'm going to try and remain calm and not over think and overreact. Just being hurt so many times, it's kind of like a self defense mechanism. I haven't been the best person to be with recently and it hurts me and I can tell it hurts them. But I can guarantee you with my heart, if you stick with me, I won't make you regret it. I know what needs to be done and what I need to change. And I'm GOING to do it.

my mouth tastes like pennies and your hand is too warm on my thigh under your parents table and i wish you would move it and i know the way you squeeze softly would be attractive to other girls but i am not other girls

i used to read books out loud to you and when i stumbled over words you would stroke my hair and i don’t think you even heard a word i was saying

you say you love math because there is no uncertainty and i think about how i am never a fixed point and i wonder if this is why you’re not always there when i wake up

you tell me you know me better than myself

my face feels too tight and flushed and i am not a crier but i wish i was now

you like to control me and i like to control me and i feel guilty for this

her lips look very soft on your cheek and it’s been a few months but i remember you never let me kiss you in public. she has bigger eyes than me and i still think about you

there are 2 bottles of sleeping pills and my favorite knife and a pack of cigarettes under my bed and i kissed a boy whose name i don’t know last weekend and it felt good

i haven’t cried myself to sleep in three weeks

your hand is too high up on my leg and i want to go home

You are the first person I text everyday and the last person I text before I go to sleep. You are in my thoughts and dreams everyday. You're out at a friend's party having fun and I'm sitting here bored and time is going so slow when I'm not talking to you. I really do think that, I love you.