I can no longer wake up and watch the sun rise blissfully over the horizon with my only friend
I can no longer feel the air on my face and the pedals below my feet as i ride on my bike, singing the same song over and over like the path i ride which is round and round
I can no longer hear a door crack and a quiet “are you up yet” from my mother’s soothing voice
I can no longer find all the comfort i need in the rays of sunlight and hundred cuties i would take in a day, every single day
I can no longer chase after the only truck we were allowed to approach because who doesn’t trust the ice cream man?
I can no longer simply live to be happy and be happy to live
Bring me back to when that was every day
Bring me back to when sitting in a plastic chair every day in order to one day barely be able to support myself wasn’t something that meant so much
Bring me back to when the color of your hair and the size of your body never mattered
Bring me back to when the weekends were a time for friends rather than a time to catch up on everything you are behind on
Bring me back to when the homework took twenty minutes rather than five hours
Bring me back to when i didn’t have to worry about cherishing my social life because i didn’t need to have one but i did
Bring me back to when things were simple and the life i lived made sense
Not to now where the only sense i’ve gained was to pick up a book and read all night if i want to make enough money to feed myself one day
Bring me back

She filled my eyes
took a pen and paper
she entered in me
to write about her feeling..

aeroplane
was an analogy
from birds
but it still to learn
how to fold the wings
after flight...

For Isaac Babel

Babel, you hated Russian, Pole, and Jew
You wrote as you were told, in ink all Red
You wrote the same old bigotry, nothing new
In gratitude dear Stalin shot you dead

My dreams are burning, Letting go of them all .
For my Dreams are filled with Fleshy desires too.
I need to throw them away so that I may pick up your's.
For it is your Dreams for me that shall Last forever.
It's your Dreams, that shall change me and help others.
For my Dreams are selfish, full of sinful desires for me.
But your Dreams for me, are your Desires for my Life.
So I know that my Selfish Dreams need to be burn away.
So that I may Pick up your Dreams , letting mine burn away.
For your Dreams for me shall be connect me to others too.
Our Dreams that you Put in our Hearts shall connect us together.
So that we can help one another, while helping out others.

She took a piece of my heart,
when she left the rest of me with marks
The blade was in my hand
but she made the cuts

She was never mine but it felt as if she was
when she gave me her smile.
I think of her everyday.

I can never  again love someone new ,like i loved her
These words cant fully heal a torn heart
In time ill scar,
but she will always have a piece of my broken heart

How exquisite it is; your smile,
When you haven't seen me in awhile,
The way it lights up like I'm the only girl,
Youre the only boy who makes my world twirl.
Am I the only one who understands?
Yes you say, as we take each others hands.
My mind blocks up for a split second,
This is a moment I never could have reckoned.

My rambling doesn't bore you, I am assured,
You still think I'm interesting with all the random thoughts you have heard.
For you i am funny and interesting, you don't care
If I am popular, to you I am a treasure so rare.
I may not have a lot of friends but you still think
I'm smart, the prettiest girl in body and in ink,
You are the one who never fails to make me laugh about
Stupid stuff that would otherwise cause me to pout.
You are the perfect one for me not just today,
No, i will love you forever, and after that if i find a way.