The sea demons cold magic seeps into my blood
The sun warm fingers lost by love
A far embrace and distance stare
Prove it was them who lost something here

the colour finally found it's love
but she lost it the same day
the red on her cheeks *
the red on her lips ~
the red in her heart <3
was unflushed *
unsmeared ~
and unloved <3

You tassel your tears to your face
As if they were your most beautiful garments
As they drip from your chin
They become pearls around your neck
What is loss, when you felt love
And so you overflow

Love is never easy
All magic comes with a price

I paid and you reaped
You laughed and I weeped

Its funny looking back
All I see is your trail of black

The light are out
The night seeks me now

You told the demons where to find me
You taught the ropes how to bind me

Tighter
Tighter
Just let it pull

Higher
Higher
Just let it burn

Is this just another lesson learned

I wish I only remembered the bad things
That way it would be easier to let go
Rather than holding on like an idiot
These foolish threads always tangling
And in my head we still dance
And in my heart we still sing
But in these nights I still cry
Breaking over all the memories
Good Lord, I loved you
And good Lord, I died
And the good Lord held me
All those night that I cried
It is better this way
And so much safer
To be alone, and afraid
What a foolish people
Who trade everything for happiness
Only to lose it for love
Or let it get mixed up and lost
We will do anything to live
No matter the cost
But I just feel alive
And feel nothing at all
Numb as the ice in the North
But you melt me
And washed away my soul
Broke me like thunder
Now I am less than whole
We drink to forget
And we forget to blink
And we cry in the night
And fill up the sink
Now I'm just a sad song
You can forget me
It will be okay
You shouldn't remember
Any of these days
Its all over
It is all done
And in the end
No one won
Will you continue
To reach for the stars
Or will you realize
They are much to far?

I don't know
How much more I can handle
All the thoughts
In my head start to ramble
The earth is shaking
And I can't remain stable
I fall to the floor
And hide under the table

My veins course
With red hot fire flames
The longer they burn
The less I feel the pain
Please just hold my hand
So I can feel alive
Everyone's saying I failed
At least I know I have tried

Whatever you want
Please just take it away
Along with my heart
You left with it that day
I can't ask you
But  I want you to stay
Right by my side
No matter what people say

Every night I breathe
Slower than the last
Every memory part
Of a beautifully twisted past
What can I do
To try to find my own way
A road to you my friend
I would travel any day

So far way
So lost in all the confusion
Tried to win
But all along I was losing
Around my neck
So close to my heart
Imprinted in my mind
So we are never far apart

What a beautiful drug
Running through my veins
Keep it coming
Even when you drive me insane
Don't cut me off
Because then I'll feel to much
Just one drop
Is more than enough

God Lord.
I cried so many tears
Raining down
My face like all my fears
You were stripped away
And it left me alone and bare
And I was a fool
To think you would always be there

Just let me look
Please one more time
Then close your eyes
Lie, and say you are fine
If I could change
The way things could be
I'd paint a picture
Of you right next to me

What feels right
I'm told couldn't be more wrong
But I've listened
To my heart all along
Who will guide me
When I am lost and weak
Give me works
And teach me how to speak

Can I choose for myself?
Would you follow me blindly?
Don't have to look
'Cuz I know you're behind me
A shadow so solid
I could melt into it
It's a sweet torture
But I would gladly die for you

Does it make a difference
If I cry enough times
Alone in the dark
Blurring all of the lines
You fly away
On your broken wings
Your heart heavily burdened
With all of the songs that it sings

It pours out
Of me like a waterfall
Will you catch me?
When I start to fall
This is my release
It helps me to let go
No matter how far
You will always know

I Love You <3

There is a fold in my heart
An uneven crease
Like my heart
Might be missing a piece

She loved flowers
And so gave her roses

But I grew them out of my very own chest

She loved music
And so I wrote her a song

But I pulled the words from my very own soul

This toxic love

I cannot even breathe
The temperament
And all I believe

Hey!

You.

I don't know what you are thinking about.

But if it's self destructive, please don't.

Why?

Because I've been there, and I know that is the darkest pit of all, and it seems as though you can never get out.

But I'm still here, and I think you should stay.

I am here for you, even if no one else is.

Bless you my friend.

Xoxo

On this street in the house
In the walls
Over the mouse
In this house on the floor
A girl who loved
And could love more
On the floor in a her head
A demon drank
And she bled
In her head, inside her mind
She knew she would win
Cuz this demon was kind

I die while I wait
Every moment a bit of life
Extinguished
Like the flame of a candle
Slowly sinking to the earth
Wreathed in light
Yet reduced to darkness
And so the demons rise
In the blankness
You have been found lost
Yet you must just say the words
To be taken home
But so still you stay
Alone

You are my hope when I have none


My light in the deepest dark


You sing to me the truth


Like my morning star, and Lark





You are my dreams so sweet


My nights everlasting


And we shall cling to each other


While the stars are passing





You are my friend


In the cool of the dawn


You make the world right


When it is tilting into wrong





You are my sister


We bleed the same tears


You are my sword


You fight my fears





You my shadow


Holding up these walls


You hear my voice


Every time it calls

Look at me when you say goodbye
Not the red-fire approaching end
This was just a dream
Now you are my memory of love

I was blind
Cuz you took my eyes
Out of the fire
You bore my demise
Soulless passion
And empty bottles
Drink back the memories
Shaken or stirred
I'd take a tall glass of water
It is preferred

Train the silk worms to crawl in formation
Over my corpse
In China, they wont of heard how I died
By a broken heart

Classic

But teach them to trace the skin on my body
Show them to dance over my frame
Let them see the effect of loss

Lead them over me
They could almost pass through me

My heart once hard
Till you made it soft
Held it together
So it wouldn't get lost

Teach them to run
Over my eyes
I will never see you again
Never journey inside your mind
Not be part
Of the moments when you are kind

Between my fingers they can sleep
Where your hands once held
Each of my own

Teach the silk worms to crawl in formation
Make me a casket of finest silk
Let them wrap me up in lace
So you can no longer see my face

Butterflies in permanent marker
Each with a special name
I wish they weren't trapped to my skin
Like in a painful cage
Maybe one day, with a lighter heart
They will fly away
And find another home
On another girl's heart
But for now they are mine
Keeping me from making lines
An artists kiss to gentle dreams

Come to me
With your stone cold hands
Come to me
Whatever you are running from
Come to me
I willd hold you close

You feel alone
And fear your only companion

Come to me
It's okay to leave everything you know
Come to me
We will journey on
Come to me
I've been waiting for you

I'm waiting for you

There is no guarantee that this life is easy

The shackles of my spine remember you
Better than my lips will ever confess
Your tongue will once again
Crawl out of your mouth
To beg forgiveness, like I begged you for love
The candles I have lit
To my alter of your memory
Would do better to drip wax in my eyes
Then I would remember you as things had been
From the eyes of a full moon
All looks to be well
Troubled waters sleep, before the rise
Even the sun takes rest
Before apollo lights tomorrow's skies

I worshiped your skin
A church to enter
A place to pray
Forever humbled
Let me honour you

I'm already living in black and white
You didn't need to add salt water too

I just want to die
And I don't want you to understand

I am not okay
And I don't have the energy to explain why

I'll tell you I am fine
But I have crossed all the lines

Just let me go
So I can sleep forever

Just another note higher than the rest
Just another cry trying to find a nest

I have no peace in me tonight
I have waged this war against all my days
It wearies me as never before
I fight with words
Yet you have lain such a seige against me
With the fire licking flames from off your tongue
My gates, they will not hold
I will succumb to the fire and she will burn me up from the inside
As if I were made of dry kindling and oil

The thought of smoke fills my lungs
I bite the back of a cigarette like it was a shell between my teeth
She tastes of death and the promise of hope
It is just a thought
Yet it eats away at me as if it were a famine

Still there is no peace to be found
Not in the palm of either of these fists
Or in the dreams that will pass through my sheets tonight
Oh that you would find a quiet thought that I could hold
To change the way the world creeps into my mind while I sleep

No peace for me tonight

If my heart stopped beating
Would your lungs stop breathing?
If I wasn't here
Would you even care?
If I broken my leg
Would you carry me instead?
If I kissed another man
Would that be something you can stand?
If I gave you my heart
Would you make it start?
If I died today
Would you pick me flowers everyday?
If I knew your name
Would you be the same?
If my casket cracked
Would you fill the crooked gap?
If my soul were yours
Would you be its core?
If my arms were within reach
Would you try to breach?
If I could love in this life
Would you pay love's final price?

Can one heart be longer than another as a sentence is in my language
Do you speak love or merely write it on my arms

A day will pass
Another lifetime in its rising
Ropes they are cut with scissors and heartbreak
Endings are sewn into your pockets and the backs of your hands
And such as today is just a whisper to tickle your ear
So tomorrow will call like the dream you slept beneath as it rings the planet in its honesty

The oldest trick in the book
Is to look over there

But why would I do that
When you are right here

I want what is real
And what's in front of me

Stay the night
And hold my hand

And in the morning
Help me stand

The pine scent in your hair is a gift from the muse in the forest
These trees are ancient
They hold no ache that the sweetness of their sap running in the awakening will not sweeten beyond memory

Mine will be a child's poems
About kings and mice and cheese
Asking for a book to help me along
I was going to make a copy
Of a story I once heard
But these words are from my own mouth
Reading the words off the screen
As the music fills my ears
Hope and nothing?
Hope and stars?
Really?

Is there more to come?
Could I make it mean something?
About God or life or dreams
Questioning each word as it appears before me
With furrowed brow and small smile twixt chin and nose
Now that you explain
Do I understand?
Oh my soul

The woman made of bones
Stood in front of the oak door
‘Do you want to feel safe or happy?’
She challenged

I closed my mouth and turned away

The sweet smell of frozen pines
The disappointment in your eyes
I am sorry I ignored all your cries
But at my heart it's me I despise

The cold embrace of winters hug
I just don't feel it anymore no love
All I feel is the acid rain falling from above
I am a ***** urchin and you a pure white dove

The silent kiss of the wind when it blows
The beat of the drums no one knows
The secrets that only time shows
The silence of power that the water flows

I was strong with a good heart
But that is in my past
Like all good things
It was not meant to last

My words are half true
But I can't see clearly anymore
I just want to know my destiny
To see what's in store

I am afraid to dance
Maybe The Lord of change will curse me
Better to be bound with others
Then alone and free

Better to look through frozen eyes
That have to part with sight or say goodbye

A door slammed over and over again
A battle fought by foolish men
Feet running in a straight line
All of us trapped by time

I had sixteen candles
But just one wish
I had lots of friends
And nothing to lose
I had once chance
Just one breath
But I used it and now nothing is left

Cuz when there is no water I am still wet
But we haven't finished, yet

***** you emotionally
Because you ******* me physically

Bang you with a hammer
Because you did the same to me

******* and your life
Because you ****** up mine

Sleep all alone
Like you never let me sleep

I thought I stole your heart
But you just tore me apart

I was left with bruises
But you just used your brain

I thought I leave a mark forever
But now I'm called insane

You only kissed me once
But I'm still a child

I cry tears in the dark
But they are all in vain

I thought I'd be happy
Not trapped in troubled pain

I spoke from my heart
But you didn't listen

I told you the truth
But you didn't hear

I thought I would hold you
But you were never there

I am still a child
But innocent no more

I am left standing behind
A heavily shut door

I need a reason to go on
Not a past to cry about

I am just a child
Hiding in the dark

If Jesus came back I'd be the only one he left
If the clouds parted I'd still be in the dark
Behind the shadows of forgot times
Just another face in between the lines
If the seas rose and the sky fell
I would shrug my shoulders and sigh oh well
I could simply sit and wait for a new world
Like the one I live in cold and forgotten
If the stars shone in your eyes
I could lie back and not see the picture
If I were a puzzle and you the last piece
I'd rather run away than have you stay
I hate this lonely life but wouldn't want it any other way
Cuz if you asked me, I'd say go away
I'll face the world alone
With no one by my side
I'll take the challenges
And bare the stripes on my hide
I'll die happily
As long as I keep my pride