Would you of spilled your secrets the same,
If it had been blood from your own body?
I would answer wisely
I have done both and yet somehow the scars are the same

Maybe feelings, are not meant to linger
Even as the sweetness is faded from your tongue, does it not warm your heart still?

Whisper softly to me
Through the seams of your pillow
For just one night
Let my dreams be sweet
Carried in slumber
By the sound of your voice

I have learned that tools are near purposeless unless guided by a hand
Some people are like this
But that doesn't mean they are meant to be used
They can still make such beautiful things
With just a little help

You are a gentle memory
I cradle such
As the night sky does the moon

The inner workings of my mind have become lazy in their toil against the opposition
I am feeble minded and the legs of my stamina crumble
I am bent out of shape
I wish to hide, but I must seek
Yet I stumble about like a fool in the dessert
My oasis is dried up when my heart cries for a river to pour forth
Swallow me up in the night
I will surrender my self
As an angel of the night
Claim me as you do your own creation
Whisper to me where rest may be found
I seek peace above all else
Even as my heart thrums with the aching of the universe
I am so little to feel so much

We strive, trying to much
In a world that rewards broken hearts
With broken promises
As a final kiss
On the lips of a coffin slumber

The edge is not the end
So I fall

As did the angels

Oblivion calls my name
The unknown I will break upon
I answer in whispers
Riddled with moonlight
To know you
Is to feel the sun on my face
I miss the summer
I long for the love she bore

You did not find the truth you were looking for in my words
Yet the honesty was in your intentions
This is weights and you are a measure

You remain such as you are
If only all things beautiful would
I fear to destroy you with a touch
The glass between us is necessity
Though in my folly
I think you would be beautiful
Even in the change
Is not death the most beautiful of all
It kills my humanity and that is my anchor
I will behold you, in this light
May I be granted one more day
That I may look upon you again

Do you feel the desert sun
As it pulls
All the moisture from your skin
You barter for each breath
Lest it escape between your lips
There is smoke in the night
It stings your eyes
Full bodied in your chest
The sand is warm between your toes
It burns with the heat of the day
Although the sun
Barely laid to rest
In her bashfulness
Looking for her stamina
To wear tomorrow
One would not think
Gravity would pull so hard
It does not seem fair
When the stars
Look so beautiful
Call so close
I shudder in the dunes
Oh that dreams were a grain of sand
That they were as weightless
It is not such
I cannot bury the tears
Even still they fall into the earth
A kiss that becomes a vapor
I will water the earth
Pouring into her
My pores vacant
My spirit follows
She makes me toil
I am not above my humanity
It humbles me
Staircase of pride
Stumbling block
How does one face a new day
I bite my tongue
To spit in the face of destiny
Is a fools errand
Yet she has done me no favors
I owe her no respect
A token slipped between hand
A bet and a wager
That will not be paid
Unless blood is spilt
Earth claims all, as she bore all
Sand in the desert, burying secrets
The ground knows so much
She does not taste
But swallows up
She is a scholar of sinners
Outlasting the shudders of your spine
Patient is she
It costs her nothing to wait

You are a smokey memory
It brings a light to my eyes to think of you
What could I say to the leaving of my life
To ask you to come back home
Would mean everything to the shallowness I wallow in
Mindful in my retreating
It does very little for a wandering mind and stationary feet
I have found my humility in begging gods dead and lost alike
Though wherever I find them it seems their ears have been shut with the worries of the world
This storm has stamped my skin and the ink runs wild in my veins
Time will check its reigns
A wanderer is never lost
A spirit restless never sleeps
This to shall pass
I bite empty promises into my lip
I dig a grave for my stamina into the palms of hands with my nails
There is such an emptiness to be found in tomorrow
Your hope for her is not a dangerous one
Yet we forget the wisdom of yesterday as quickly as she is lived
Oh the mutterings of my mind
It is worth pennies in the street

I have become less of late
And my words have become such

I will lift my eyes again to the sky
Hoping for a glimpse of the heavens
On that they would pour open
Washing the earth still toiling in sin
As these nightmares creep into my head
The visions of the night that will not be silenced
Oh these cold dark hands around my neck
They whisper in my ear the secrets of the dead
They know the secrets of the living and those lost in the inbetween
It is a voice of a stranger that begs familiarity
Oh that I was deaf, oh that I was blind
Silence has been my friend when comfort could not be found
Yet I am shackled to those who have gone be for
I will not go out until the tide is high
and the moon is full
I am lost within myself as each new star takes its place in the heavens

Pulling string riddled through my mindlessness
Never took me places I should of gone

I found in the dark
Things wrought in moonlight and tears of lost lovers
How beautiful they would be
Sparkling in the light of the sun

I need you as you are
You changed.
I slept, fool that I am

I am dying now, shuddering to think
That I will live another day
It will be a day I live alone

There is nothing sadder to my soul
Than one set of footprints in the sand
The oceans claims them just the same

In the frailty of my mind
I wonder
Do dreams come true
Or nightmares found a way to sweeten themselves

Sigh

The night never ends
She just takes coffee breaks
I just break
Break up
Break apart
Drift among the uncertainty
With one hand clasping the necklace around my throat
The other holding a rose pricking my fingers

I shudder to think
So I close my mind
Running circles in my skull
Just wearing out the floor
Just wearing out the floor

Our perceptions are flawed in this
That we will look with our eyes
Listen with our ears, for even the quietest whisper
Yet we do not do the same with our hearts
To find colors in words spoken with a trembling breath
With the sobs hidden in the laughter we so quickly discard
Oh dreamer, let your pride pass
That you would see all things come to pass

I will die tonight
As I have done before
Still I must remember
To say my prayers
For tomorrow is a new day
Bathed in new light
I could not bear
To tarnish her
With the memory of my sins

You told me you knew what love was
Yet even the bones of your house are cold
You lie with your tongue between your teeth
I cannot wonder how you sleep at night

I am not untouchable
For I am human
In my tangibility

I shudder to think
Yet that is all I do

Let the sun go down with your anger
They can fight over who will keep the other warm

Chaos is fluid
We think in concepts
Water is life
And yet all of this is a single stone
Thrown in a chasm of knowledge in this eternity

Another man's bread
Has nothing to do with how you set your own table

I just love to think of you
Your memory is a spring day

It's the keeping on that breaks you
It wears you out
As does tread on a tire
The rubber has met the road

I wanted to breathe with my heart, whispering...

I hope you find your happiness
I hope to God you make your healing
If love was tangible
It would be a blanket to keep you warm on the nights so cold and soulless
It would be the way home on the night of the weakest moon
It would be my hand winding through yours like a vine

A dreamer kisses a canves, because even if there is no beauty to be seen in something, it can be made
A vessel, no less, no greater than the intentions
Just as the hands who work it are folded in prayer

I wanted to breathe with my heart
Wanted to kiss with my hands
I'm learning to love though
As only a fool can

These tears have built more towers
Than your hands ever could

It brings tears to my eyes
That you love the words of a broken heart so
So much

Hell has developed quite the appetite

I just want to make you feel loved
Because I know without that reassurance
It's so hard to keep going

I have peace in my soul
When I lay in the grass and face the sun
Such is the same in my heart
When I look you in the eyes

You have a wanderers smile
The feet that have made a thousand memories
I see the twinkle in your eyes
I cannot help but wonder
If it used to be brighter
This day is overcast
So you have become such yourself
Weariness will follow you
Chase you, to nip at your heels
Is this why you go on?
To be just one step ahead of yesterday
Yet never home
Oh how humble the journey of a broken heart
With no one to kiss you goodbye
Every day a new open door
Yet a candlelight shadow
Whispers into your dreams
That you will never sleep
As you did next to the warmth of another body
Of one more fortunate that your own,
To the wishes of the world
Still you give and have given of yourself
Like pennies in a jar
A little bit at once
Though no less in your intentions
The day will come
As they always do
Just as the full moon rises
On the back of the sun
The day will come
When you will lay your head to rest
In the green of a field
Barren of troubles
Laid waste of trials
The day will come
Though she is not here yet

I just want to write something beautiful
Give my trembling hands some purpose
I guess what I see
Does not always mean inspiration
What I feel
Does not always find a place on my tongue
It just courses through me
Like a river wild
Like a river free
But there is no freedom in me

No one told me sadness felt like this
I cannot help but wonder if they did not know

This is why I feel so alone

Do you hear the wind blowing in the willows
Her moan calling through the trees
She knows no names
Still I know her voice
Oh how bitter her cry
She knows no peace for a hundred years
Like the rings of a stump
I have felt these things too
Oh that we would find comfort
Oh that we could make peace

Hush, your crying
Little one
It will be okay
I won't let you go

Big troubles
For a little heart
But such a big heart
For a cruel world

We have all
Cried our tears
Yours no more salty
Than the rest

Hush, little one
All things will be well
The night is here
But the sunrise will come

You were moss thoughts - growing on the trees
In my mind - just a garden of weeds

I worshiped your skin
A church to enter
A place to pray
Forever humbled
Let me honour you

The anger
It steamed out of my mouth
As screams in the night

Silence is broken
But I needed her
She was my sanity

A bitter trial
Leaves the taste of grass
On the tip of my tongue

The earth will one day
Cleave herself in two
Not until then will I make my choice

I am foolish today
I know naught of tomorrow
But I hope she will make me wiser

Your lips were the edge of the world
I find myself
Forever falling

You were melting
It made me wax
Like the moon
You were wick
And wicked
I could be nothing to you
But I was only yours

You said you were sorry
For not loving me the way you were supposed to
I told you it was okay
Because you had never really loved me at all

The angels are dripping gold from the sky
Shudders of timelessness resonating in the earth
The beat of wings at the foot of the eternal
Cold marbel beneath my tread
I kneel
This is awe
This is wonder
I have come undone
A thousands thoughts
Yet not one voiced
The choir fulfills the longing of my soul
The dreams I dreamt asleep
Hold no flicker of light to this euphoria I find awakened
I hide my face
I am not worthy
Still blessed through the length of my days
Wings covering me
But not my own
I am not my own
I am breathless
But find no complaint
My eyes drip silver
A metal moment
Nickel plated hands
Hush my cry
I grit my teeth
Like gravel beneath a heavy tread
Oh simple one
You have stars in your eyes
And I will never wake

A door is closed.
Oh there were years lived in your leaving

The mind goes
And the husk, it follows

Like the smoke, still stinging my eyes
And the coolness of the harvest air fresh upon my tongue
You fill my senses
As only a full moon can

Time.
She bids no words come forth
If my chest split open
Let my screams swallow me
Yet the Eternals
Would find shame in my humanity
For they have no part
In the drying of tears
Or bones that knock together

The number of days I have lived
As a foreigner in my own way
My own place
And the days I hold in my heart
That I could count upon one hand

What happens in our lives
And what changes us in our lives
Both a weight, and a measure, though neither sit upon the scale

The call in the night has fangs
She has sunk her teeth into me before,
I am soft
And my flesh is but an offering and a sacrifice
Still you bite the hand that feeds you
With your own fingers twisted together behind your back
Yet the clasps that contain my soul
You reach for them with your fingers
Sad you did not know the sun had warmed them
And now you will not touch me
For fear of being burned

You who have shared sheets and bread alike with me
Still you do not know what is the fire lighting in my belly
Yet you curse me for the flames on my tongue
All will be well
The weight will lift
With the fog in the morning
My mountains will sing me another hope
And I will bind it upon my chest
To be one with a promise
If it is broken
So it breaks me

You're words have moved me
My soul is shifted
Stability is wanting
And I have no fulfillment

These trials and tribilations
Have eaten my alive
They have devoured me
From the inside

And
When I showed up bleeding
To my date with the devil

He told me how beautiful I looked
But I spat in his face

And said, you have been burning much longer than I
It does your appearance no good

The rustle of leaves
Makes me restless
Sleep, you tell me, will soon be here
I say I cannot stay to wait
Running is my jacket
And leaving my footsteps
The door is swinging in the wind
I will follow the feathers the birds leave as they journey south
A way to go
Is a way made by those gone before