What is silence?
Im not talking about the sudden silence in a room full of people,
Or the sudden silence of the class that makes many uncomfortable,
Im not talking about the moment of silence requested when I wake up,
Im not talking about the moment of silence you get when you finally turn off your phone and toss and turn to sleep,
Im talking about the ability to silence your thoughts so you can think straight,
Im talking about the ability to silence the vioces that keep you up at night and control daily activies,
Im talking about a moment just a second of silence,
Just a moment when they are not shouting at me,
Just a moment when they are not trying to **** me,
Just a moment without internal torture,
Just imagine yourself standing in the middle of a full football stadium with each and every person screaming at you,
Thats exactly how it feels in my head,
The vioces shout over eachother while I try to sleep but they always have something to say,
They always tell me what to do and what not to do,
How to sit, stand walk and even talk,
But most of the time thry shout at me for eating even if i didnt eat that day,
I am sick surrounded by invisable abusers,
I am a victim in my own mind,
And all i ask for is for silence