Like smoke in my lungs, it is an acquired taste that I could not bring myself to quit. And now that I have, the flavor is unprecedentedly toxic.
2. Your name is merely a catalyst to my relapse. You turned your head away from it then, and I know you will turn your head away from it now.
3. To hear that beautiful arrangement of letters coming from my own lips only reminds me of the genuine smile on your face that you can only have when I am gone. And every time it makes me wonder if I truly mean it when I say I am happy for you.
4. I cannot reconcile what is with what could have been. Maybe if I was still yours and you were still mine, it would be endearing to say your name.
5. When it's 4 am and I am falling apart in my half empty bed, I cannot find the breath to utter your name between sobs.
6. I have spent too much time pretending that your absence has had no affect on me that I have not yet grieved. But, I could never pity myself without shouting your name into an empty void.
7. Maybe I am only idealizing you, but his name left a bitter taste and I have been craving yours on my lips.
8. I cannot say your name because I know that if you were to turn your head in recognition, I'd get lost in those blue eyes and fall for you all over again.
9. There is no logic behind how I inherited the right to say your name. Since you have left, this complacency is eating me alive and I am only left to wonder why someone so beautiful would have ever touched a soul like mine.
10. I cannot speak of your name any longer because it is no longer my privilege. It is hers to say now.

You either change to love or love to change
There is Love everywhere out here for the taking
And though your sad story's somewhat creepy and strange
You can find someone to pick up the pieces
I envy your breath while contemplating her kisses
Hear out of the diverse universe only she deserved to be your Mrs
She brought you the phantoms that Hurt
Yet she's still the one person you truly heart
You heart her so much that thoughts of her tear your eyes and drive you crazy
You see every moment by the mind even if your vision's a little hazy
She threw you in a pitch abyss of a daze
You have failed to climb out of cause you cannot find your way through the maze
So you just keep falling unceasingly into that abyss of despair
In hurtful vain because no matter how deep you go,an end ain't there
You were an idiot to trust a human with your soul
And guess what, bruised souls heal slow and sometimes never heal at all
Be glad though,you loved and unprecedentedly lost
And you still love that demon even when you know Hell's the cost

See the wrinkles on your forehead,
read the dimples that comes with your smile;
see your eyes reading every lines
deep within your eyes, a great story lies;
firmly waiting to be unlocked

your smile unleashes pressure of pleasures
on mankind,
fire and ice locked within your thoughts,
when excited, your words travel unprecedentedly
your thoughts parade in high mountains;
till they reach the peak

never giving up, your enthusiastic instinct
visits emotions in illusion
illusion bringing an hyper-sensitive
flair to reality,
though rough at the first line,
it never crumbles uncompleted

exhausted at third sight,
you portray a great character
magnanimous in actions;
friendly in words

your portrait bring life's inner strength
to the surface,
capturing and comparing
all vivid-images and sensations
to the first plane.

Born of deception
Deciphered by  insincerity
Translated by ignorance
Defined by misunderstanding
Unprecedentedly presented
Demanding acceptance
Altering the alternative
Until they are the only truth
Found in the heart of the withholder