"saveme" poems
I loved you, at first,
more than anything.
Nothing else mattered,
If I could be by your side,
I would’ve protected you from a n y t h i n g.
The feeling of
your lips touching mine.
Cold and dull,
is it wrong that I still miss them?
Your eyes drifted to others,
never straying to mine,
never filled with the same spark.
Why won't you look at me?
You would say it,
those three words and I could only listen
as you say it to the others.
Not to me. Never to me.
They always got your love,
and warm smiles,
while you gave me your screams of
"You should be happy. Why aren't you happy?"
My orders:
never to be near you,
holding hands was forbidden,
we did not know each other, not publicly.
They would get the wrong idea.
“She's just a friend,” You would say.
Forcing me into a corner, chained,
As your collar (pleaseithurtsithurts) leaves me
b r e a t h l e s s.
It was all a game, wasn't it?
Of how fast I could love you (whatwasithinking),
of how much I could bleed (Goditwaseverywhere)
of how long before I couldn’t take it (saveme,please,anyone)
You were the king,
and I, your faithful pawn,
Just another piece on your board.
Your touches, never warm, never tender
What an artist you were,
Always defacing your canvas with your brushes,
Aren’t you talented?
Is this what love is?
Take it back, please,
I don't want this anymore.
I just wanna forget (getitoutgetitout).
“It’s okay, you don’t have to love me, no one ever does.”
May 14, 2018
May 14, 2018 at 11:59 AM UTC
i cut ladders
up and down
my legs
my arms
my stomach
maybe
if i cut just deep enough
space the
perfect straight lines
just so
just this far apart
i will be able to climb
up up up
dig my feet into
the bright pink muscle
push the skin apart
and climb the bean stock
to a universe
where
my skin is not too tight
my eyes are not broken
my seams are not ripping
my soul is not shattered
spiralling
out
of
c o n t r o l
saveme
i make ladders
full of hope
because i have none
Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 8:48 PM UTC
my seams are ripping
but the needle is too heavy
and i am out of thread
my seams are ripping
i am far too tired
to sew myself back together again
my seams are ripping
saveme
Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 8:56 PM UTC
Later, I'd swear that the empty bottles
and the smell of smoke had
rotted my clothing away
I think I may have tried scrubbing myself
with dirt; i found blood on my hands and my feet
the next
morning
sweat was everywhere in my eyes
the only thing that made the stench
go away was soaking myself in perfume until
my skin pruned
and i couldent breathe
no sleep, no heatbeat here in this body
who needs breath
who needs love, after all
break the mirror, replace your artificial beauty
scream "wantmeneedme saveme"
watch them want you.throw out your artificial hope.
replace your broken records
now start to play them all again
Aug 31, 2011
Aug 31, 2011 at 1:58 PM UTC
somebody
anybody
save me
take me away
from my early demise
to put it bluntly
I'm freaking out
I think
I might be going insane
but it's okay
I'm just
"overreacting"
maybe if these screams
trapped inside
would finally burst out
I would be
unclogged
cleansed
free of my sins
my sorrows
disappointments
to me you everyone
cantcantcantcantcant
helphelphelphelp
saveme
please
make me happy
make me free
please
somebody
anybody
Nov 14, 2013
Nov 14, 2013 at 10:42 PM UTC
Up,
Up I go,
My whole life,
Up was the way to go,
Don’t look down,
Don’t go down,
But it’s so fun,
So easy, simple,
Before I knew it,
The sky seemed further,
And Hell seemed closer,
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Nov 28, 2013
Nov 28, 2013 at 4:48 AM UTC
i have trouble sleeping at night
as i keep on dreaming awake
wandering thoughts through the stars and skies
i wish you'd save me from all the guilt and lies
#dreaming #saveme #love #lies #guilt
Aug 14, 2020
Aug 14, 2020 at 3:14 AM UTC