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Jonna Adam Aug 2021
Just realised our story will stay incomplete…

Just like the song you send…

Hamari adhuri kahani…

I don’t know what I was wishing for…

May be I got a little greedy…

Just having you in my life was enough for me…

I never dared to dream more than that…

May be I was afraid I will get rejected…

May be I was afraid I m not enough for you..

I don’t know what you want…

And I never dared to ask you…

I was afraid of the answer…

May its your silence that I liked most…

Let it be like that…

May be we are hurting each other…

But sometimes your words hurt me more than your silence…

Let’s drop this pretendence here…

And move on…

Some stories are meant to be incomplete…

Just like ours…

May be deep in our heart that’s what we wish…

I can feel the pain…

I can feel the love…

I can feel the regrets…

I can feel the happiness…

I can feel the sadness…

I can feel the excitement…

But I can never reach out and hold you…

We are close yet so distant…

I know we need that gap…

It’s what keep us going…

Let’s just embrace our incomplete story…

Hamari adhuri kahani♥️

-- Jonna Adam
God came upon Jonah
one night in a dream
said, " preach against Ninevah
It's sins i have seen"

God's spirit went one way
but Johna the other
he jumped on a boat
and hid under cover

The seas got much bigger
as black thunder roared
the crew found out Johna
he was tossed over board

As Johna was drowning
he cried to the Lord
" please God save me
for it's you I adore "

God showed his compassion
and sent a big whale
that swallowed up Jonna
and to Nineveh kicked tail

Three days & three nights
the big fish did swim
it's belly full of cargo
Johna praying within

The lord heard his prayers
& gave a command
then up spat ole Johna
onto the dry land

God said again ,
" go to Ninveh and preach ,
that city full of people
my grace wants to reach "

So forward went Johna
to warn of God's wrath
and just as he feared
they turned from sins path

Those people weren't Hebrew
so Johna was jealous
that his God would save
a city so rebellious

Then God spoke to Johna
in the heat of the day
" you care more for shade
than sins washed away "

" why be greedy with me ?
I'm a saviour for all
don't put me in boxes
never run from my call "

" so when that day comes
that I ask you to go
don't be like ole Johna
and pull a no show "

" but be like that whale
that was ready to kick tail "

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Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Do you know what is the worst pain in life...
To see the disappointment in the eyes of your loved ones...
When they see you...
The sigh, which they made...
When they see you...
which hold a lot of meaning...
Hurts like hell...
Their eyes and silence talks much more than them...
Still they  couldn’t understand you...
As you never let anyone...
They don’t know your helplessness or regrets...
They don’t see the pleading in your eyes...
They only saw the arrogance and selfishness....
Yet you smiled and talked...
Like you never saw the hurt in their eyes...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Hai love and Rain,
Somebody told me that both of you are like alike....
Is it true???
I don’t know as I have never been in love...
Or I think so...
May be it’s bcoz you both can be viewed differently...
To someone in love...
You are pouring out of joy...
And brings the happiest moments...
And the belongingness...
To to a broken heart...
It’s sadness...
And the lost love...


— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Let’s take a  break my friend...
No it’s never you...
But me...
My insecurities...
While sitting in silence...
And waiting for your message...
I realised you are too close to break the barriers I have made...
The barriers I have made long ago...
Sorry my friend...
As I have to take a break from you...
And mend the scratches you have made...
I know I m being selfish...
But this is what I m...
Thank you for being with me...
When I revisited my past...
And for making me smile...
And for all the flowers you have given as a token of our friendship...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Feb 2020
You’ve dried up your tears once...
And yet your tears are escaping...
Don’t you know that the spilled tears never mattered...
And yet here you are crying...
Crying just makes your eyes puffy and red...
It won’t wash away the hurt or sorrow...
The heaviness you feel...
It won’t go away...
What are you waiting for then...
Someone to dry it...
Pull yourself and get yourself dried...
And mask it with a smile...
A smile that nobody can take away from you...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Been walking alone for long...
I stopped walking...
And suddenly you came...
Out of no where...
Stretching you hands...
To make me stand...
And made me take baby steps...
And I walked through...
It was painful at first...
And thought of taking a break...
Which you didn’t let me...
And I m walking steadily now...
Thanks to you...
And may be in future I’ll run with joy...

—Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Hai Rain!!!
You have been pouring out for few days....
Is it bcoz you found some who loves to get drenched...
Like I have been pouring my muses through writings....
Or is it because you are pouring out your sadness...
Like I have been letting out my sadness through writings...
As we are alike...
Let’s have a date...
If you pour out of happiness...
I’ll get drenched and dance with you...
If you pour out of sadness...
I’ll sit with you getting drenched and  
Letting my tears down for you...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Not all roses are red...
Not all reds are wine...
But you’re my Rose Wine...
Which I love to savour all time...
Hope you will be always be mine...
As I don’t wanna share you...

Today we stand before our loved ones....
To say our vows and be together forever...
When we said our vows....
You give me a rose...
Which I throw it your face laughingly...
Some where stunned... and some smiled knowingly...
Because that’s how it started...
Our path to togetherness...

Everyday you waited for me with a rose...
Which I throw it your face...
But you waited patiently...
Until I couldn’t help but accept the rose...
Thank you for not giving upon me...

We had our ups and downs...
And we fought it together...
And we will... in the future too...

You took me to the room we share...
Our bed was covered in rose petals...
And there, in a glass, my favourite rose wine..
You can say I was surprised...
You led me inside and closed the door...
You took a sip of wine...
Reached me out and kissed me...
I can savour wine in your lips...
You bit my lips... which made me to part my lips...
You deepened your kiss...
And we ended up in the bed of rose petals...
Where we started a new journey...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
I never thought that I’ll fall in love with you again and again...
But time proved me wrong again and again...
I don’t remember when I first fell in love with you...
But I do remember all the other times I fell in love with you...
I thought I couldn’t love you more...
But I fell in love with you again and again...
When you said that you loves for the first time...
I couldn’t help but fall for you again...
When I saw you in your wedding dress...
When I saw you with our bundle of joys....
When you’re playing with our kids...
When you give your ur warm smile...
When you gently  squeezed my arms to get me calm...
And especially now...
How you’re snuggling against me...
As if you’re not warmed enough...
When the rain is pouring down...
I couldn’t help but kiss your forehead...
When you woke up and gave the beautiful smile...
And your eyes reflecting the love for me...
I fell for you again...
Let me make a promise to you, that...
I’ll fall for you again a and again...
— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Jul 2020
Night is still young...
Calling us to take a stroll in fields...
Showered by drizzling rain...
And warmth of moon light...
Ànd the song of lonely crickets...
Breeze carrying the earthy smell...
Making us to stay there...
Wishing the time will stop for us...
Just to embrace it again...
With you holding my hands...
Our souls finding each other...
With the rhythm of our hearts...
Without any words...
Without any gesture...
The oneness we felt...
Only when you kissed my tears away...
I realised that I was crying...
Making me smile again...

-- Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Dec 2019
Love me...
I don’t know why you love me...
And I don’t want to know...
As I m happy to be loved by you...
I don’t know what I feel for you...
Whether it’s love or not...
Don’t ask me...
As I m afraid to say I love you...
I want to say stop loving me...
But I will never...
I want to be selfish once...
To have someone who loves me...
Am I being wrong dear...
As you are not mine...
And I will never be yours too...
My day starts and ends with you...
Yet we are far...
Far to reach out... and be one...
Let us be far apart always...
As we are meant to be...
Love me from afar...
Though I can’t hold it...
I can always feel it...
Which makes me smile...
The smile that you likes to see everyday...
Love me please...
As I can’t live without it...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Don’t we all have mask...
That we have perfected over the years...
As it become second skin...
Unable to remove it...
And without it, feeling vulnerable...

My smile is what i masked first...
As she told me not to smile too much...
May be that’s why I started to find reasons not to smile....
And that’s the time I realised...
How I was betrayed....
And that got me reasons...
Not to smile...
And one day I stopped smiling....
And she was worried I m not myself anymore....
So I perfected a small smile....
To satisfy her....
And now I wear a mask for everyone...
As they needed...

May be one day I can remove it...
And get to breathe the happiness of freedom...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Dec 2019
You are my brightest star...
My sun...
Which shines for me...
You brought the warmth....
As I was cold...
You brought the light...
As I was in darkness...
And I know you are hot...
And that I shouldn’t come towards you...
As I will get burned....
And turning away from you will make me cold...
Colder than ever before...
And make my life dark...
Darker than ever before...
So I have to stay in my path...
Moving around you...
Some days will be hot...
Some days will be warm...
Some days will be cold...
I should get used to it...
As I could never come closer than this...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Sep 2019
How I wish...
I can write...
What I feel...
With openness...
With passion...
With love...
Without any fear...
Without any judgement...
Without any regrets....
To convey the message...


—Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Sep 2019
I don’t know why you didn’t pour out today...
Usually you like to get me drenched...
The day i really wanted to you soak me...
You didn’t...
I know you where trying to soothe me with your drizzles...
I couldn’t even feel you today...
What I wanted was you to pour out...
How I wished your each and every drop will fall on me...
How it makes me pain and cold...
And in the end numb...
I could have cried without anyone noticing...
And I could tell everyone, you made my eyes red...
Yes I know how you took all the blame...
How you could never satisfy anyone...
Just like me...
Even I m blaming you for not pouring out...
But one day you really have to do what I wish for...
Where only you and me will be there...
To let me out all the feelings I kept inside...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Haven’t you ever wondered...
Even though hundreds applause you...
You will be down bcoz just one didn’t appreciate you...
One person who have the power to let you down...
To break your confidence...
To make you fall down from all the steps you have taken...
To wipe off your smile...
To make you feel that you are nothing...
And what you did will never be enough....

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Sep 2019
How I wish I could walk again in solitude....
Through the paths I have taken in the past...
To revisit the places I have travelled...
Which hold so many memories....
Memories which I hold on to my heart...
Never letting it go for years....
How once I wished to visit....
Holding your hands....
And showing you my life...
How I dreamed of you enjoying my happiness...
And how you will hold me through my sadness....
How you will help me to let it all go....
But as I never found you....
I dreamed of walking in solitude...
It may take me years....
And it may be painful too...
But being in pain for years...
I don’t feel it anymore....
Unable to tell apart what is pain...
And what is happiness...
May be walk in Solitude is what I needed...
To make me alive...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Have you ever wondered why the whole world is lusting over you???

The day you born...
You know you were different...
The one who should have treated you as princess...
Treated like you a prince...
He thought of making a Prince in Princess body....
He made her strong and independent...
Failed to notice what his princess suffered...
Where he saw the young Prince...
The ones around him saw femininity...
They saw the glow around her...
The glow she had when she was happy and smiling...
The ones who hugged her in protectiveness....
Show their disguise in the darkness....

And slowly your glow faded away...
Or you kept it away...
Afraid of being taken away...

And now you can feel the glow...
Pouring outside you...
As you are feeling happy and smiling....
And you are afraid again...
Of lustful eyes...
Which will stare upon you...
And this time be brave and say “No”
— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Don’t know when I started to feel the pain of loneliness...
I was hurt...
Broken... and Scared...
Slowly I started to embrace it’s pain...
And may be, started to love it...
It couldn’t hurt me anymore...
It made me start again...
As nobody will start it for you...
It made me not to wait for anything...
As nothing will wait for us...
I love to call myself a late bloomer...
As it is, better late than never...
Happy that I could bloom...
As many couldn’t...
Sometimes I still wait for someone...
Who will wait for me...
And still I embrace the pain of loneliness...
Only this time with a smiling face...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
I can feel and see you fading away...
Fading away from me...
I thought of holding you...
As I always have...
But I saw you not holding me back...
So I m letting you go...
Without any fight....
May be because I too want to fade away from you...
As I felt being caged by you...


— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Sep 2019
Don’t know what this feeling is...
Is it missing someone....no...
Or is it reminding me everything...I don’t know....
Just knew I m sad...
And wish for someone to hold me...
Feeling heaviness in my heart...
And my eyes become blurry....
And my mind blank....
So what’s the reason I feel down???
I have gone through this many times...
And never got an answer...
May be this will always be my part...
Never letting me go....
May be I also need it...
To remind me something...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Feb 2020
Everything is falling apart...
Whether you realised or not...
You were in a dream land...
Where everything was perfect...
Only when the imperfections showed up...
You realised it’s reality...
And you are just a single drop of that....
You presence or absence never matter...
Yet you thought your absence mattered...
Your tears where unknown...
You spilled it again for another...
Why can’t you know that...
Love is not in your dictionary...
And it never will be...
So dry up your eyes fool...
And let’s begin the journey alone...
What are you waiting for...
Nobody is there to pick you up...
You have to stand alone and walk alone...
Like you did before...
You may struggle and it may be difficult...
But still the show must go on.....

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
Do you know I don’t remember  you....
I didn’t even keep your photo...
Nothing is left with me to remember you...
I don’t remember your birthday day...
I don’t remember the way you smiled...
I don’t remember your favourite colour...
I don’t remember your favourite song...
I don’t remember the girl you loved...
The one you always talked about...
I don’t remember our whispers in late nights...
I don’t remember your hugs...
I don’t remember the day you left us...
As I made myself to forget everything about you...
I came to your house to console you as I didn’t know who left us...
To know it was you...
I wished I could follow you...
I wished I could cry...
The unfinished talks...
The unfinished letters...
You were the one I hold on to when I was low...
I dreamed of us growing up...
You marrying your loved one...
And me living alone...
And here I m all grown up...
And you are not here to see that...
— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
It’s my promise to myself...
That I won’t let you hurt me....
Your silence or shouting will never hold me back...
If you thought my silence is my defeat..
You thought it wrong...
You broke me once...
More than my molesters have...
They broke my happiness and smile...
But never my self esteem...
But you broke that...
Only bcoz I let my guard down...
And trusted you to love me...
But the day you broken that...
I promised myself...
I won’t let you win...
I didn’t fight back not bcoz I can’t...
Because you are not worth it...
You became someone I just met in between the journey of life....

—Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Aug 2019
You told her to pick a colour...
To like...
As she didn’t have any favourite...
If only it’s been easy for her...
To choose what she like...
You think she choose to lose all colours in her life...
And she chose to live in shades of Grey...
Only if she could choose...
As she is drawn to shades of grey...
Colours become distant...
Something she thought will burn her  again...
As she is slowly started to mix colours...
As if testing hot water...
Let her to accept the colours...
Let her gone through all colours...
And when the time comes she’ll choose one...

— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Jul 2019
Lucky are those who cry...

As I envy you...

As i have dried up my tears...

Not by crying...

But by stopping when i felt through....

For me tears were weakness...

But now I know its strength

As it wash away your sorrows...

It brighten your hearts....

It makes you light...

And it makes your smile bright...

I wish there was someone to tell me

"IT'S OK TO CRY".....
And someone to hold me when I cry....
 




— Jonna Adam
Jonna Adam Jul 2019
I m not Deaf nor Mute...
But I have become one...
Bcoz of you...
I’m not accusing you...
But merely stating the facts...

There were times when I needed you most...
To talk... and to listen...
But you were too busy with your own worries,
You didn’t saw mine...
So I stopped talking and listening...
By the time you felt something is off...
It was far beyond to break ...
You thought I m depressed...
You got me help...
But what you didn’t know is that,
I never talked...
I took all the pills they have given...
And started to smile...

You may think I’m selfish...
And never listen to you...
But I think it’s better to be at the end of your angry self...
Than seeing you broken...
Or to think that you failed me...
Now I feel relieved that we didn’t talked...
You can continue without any regrets...
After all why do we need to make everyone suffer...
If little bit of silence make everything OK!!!

— Jonna Adam

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