Looking in your eyes, I see myself
Scared, sad, lonely
But that's why you're my one and only
You make me feel like I’m not the only one
The only one that wants to run
Run away from their problems, forget it all
I always fall
But you caught me
You caught me when no one else did
Then I looked even deeper into those blue eyes
And saw that the love of my life was in disguise
You were hidden under a mask that I had to pry open
I had to pry open the mask that hid all your emotions
But when I did it was worth it
I realised that you were perfect
I never knew that I loved you
Not until it was only you
It was you who brought me to the light
Brought me happiness
Brought me love
I thought you were my brother, just a friend
But then I realised I wanted to be with you till the end
So I kept that mask pried open
I showed you my love
Hoping you would understand
But I thought I didn’t stand a chance
There was another girl we knew
Who always looked at you,
The way I do
So I let you wear that mask again
And I was only a friend
I was sad
I was lonely
I thought that maybe, you were my one and only
But then you went with the other girl, not me
I was broken
Just a shell of a person
A person that onced loved, always kept everything out in the open
But then I felt betrayed
Betrayed by love
Betrayed by you
Betrayed by the only person that knew
The only person that knew my problems
I never kept it inside with you
But you wouldn't take a hint
I tried flirting
But I felt degraded
I felt like I was trying too hard
That if you loved me, I wouldn’t have to try at all
So I gave up
I went with another man
But he wasn’t the same
I felt like I was playing a game
But this game wasn’t fun
I wanted to run
I wanted to just leave it all
But I lasted 5 months and 17 days until I had to fall
He wasn't the one
I knew, because you caught me again
I didn’t feel like I was just a friend
I wanted to be with you until the end
But I didn’t want to hurt you
You seemed happy with her
So I hurt myself insead
I left you again
Tried to hang out with other friends
But they didn’t get me like you did
I put my mask on
And thought I would never take it off again
And I was lonely
I didn't want them to see me
I wanted them to stay, not leave
I didn’t want them to leave me like I did to you
But then summer came and they all left
I was lonely again
I had no more fake friends
But I didn’t talk to you often
Cuz I still didn't want you to hurt
I didn't want to be tempted to flirt
But then you told me you used to like me
And suddenly I didn't feel so lonely
I talked to you again, but not too often
Because you said “used to” not that I was still an option
But then school started, and later I got grounded
I couldn't talk to you at all
And I had to fall
But I found a way to talk and felt relief
I felt relief from all the pain and suffering I’d endured
But then I found out you were suffering even more
She left you and broke your heart
I felt the need to rip her apart
You shouldn't have had to feel that pain
You didn't have to suffer
But you told me about another girl you liked instead
You said she was beautiful
That she was smart, and kind
But I got jealous and couldn't take it anymore
I grew a pair and told you how I felt
And I was happy I did
Because my one and only, felt the same
You thought I didn't like you the same way
So you were scared to say
You were scared to say you liked me
But then you asked me what I wanted and I got confused
You asked me what I wanted us to be
So I told the truth
I told the truth and asked you to be with me
You said ok and I was filled with glee
I felt old saying it, but I told you I was giddy
A couple weeks go by and we made a promise
And here we are still keeping that promise
We made a promise that lasts all our days
We promised each other, forever and always
This is a poem I found that I wrote a while ago about my boyfriend. We werent even together a year at this point but the promise has still remained the same over two years later.
