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papers are one dollar each!
Sentiments are beyond reach!
My pet dog seems to be busy scraping of dead meat off the ground
Smoke and gold, a melancholy!
The honorary debate between mistrust and a dead fetus!
The wait for a pension which serves blood and redemption
Who would have thought that drama was scarred on my *******!
As to who stabs whom,
THE DEAD IS THE DEAD *******
TRY TO BREATHE YOU INCESSANT FOOL
THE LINES OF LOVE!
Tell me more of your fables
full of
LIES, LIES AND LIES!

Trespassing in the wake of hope
I rise to the challenge of looking for optimism in all aspects of drama
To feel charged is preferable to being drained
What's the worst that could happen apart from the already inevitable

He decided to stay out of it work was way more important than drama. These thoughts are dark and deep could change the tone. Straight forward mostly honest getting no love or respect. Just stayed quiet observed listen to the what was going on.
Always tired demeanor changed working through staying honest and true. Things got wild so personal things got cruel.

The day you say "this is not for me" the world changes. All the people, I've encountered had fun with. Once the alcohol craving went away no one cares to stay. The party was over see who my true friends are now that I'm sober. Most went away but I won't beg them to stay a new chapter of life. Now they talk about me when I had nothing but good things to say. Deep down I knew I was better than them anyway. Focused on work no time for drama or fake friends being alone got easy. No longer afraid to be alone now a days it's all I know. I prefer to be writing over arguing and fighting. Sober because I hurt others most of all myself. Clean life things are easier and less stress since liquid courage made things worse. Sober living breaks this curse things are better can't complain.
No more hang overs but living life over and over again

All this pressure feeling like why can't that be you. Others didn't give any effort but expecting more. Giving everything nothing in return such a burn. Helping because it's right incompetence picking a fight.
Held to another standard not trying to get played with these made up rules double standards.
He worked hard didn't take crap from anyone. Did his work and extra too much drama didn't care to be involved.
Some days they loved him others he got the 3rd degree. After a while he stopped caring getting involved. It was exhausting to give his energy while they didn't even try. He never talked about them but they had plenty to say. No one asked or was interested. Everyone had a life to live no time for critics.

Eagerness I've set aside
I no longer rush. The stream
of life flows as it may my way
inexorably--it chooses its scheme-
all that I could do is to live in contingency
by the moment and day-

time with its omniscient eyes
is the eternal sentinel that won't go away
its task is to silently watch and survey
to the human drama no words does it say
the path I tread is my own volition
for nothing need I to pray-

glory there was and will be
but all that is, is transitory
fragility is the unchangeable key-

sinking moments,  breath-holding-
rainstorms and threatening clouds
across the tumultuous human sea--
we live mostly in sorrow and doubts
our commonly shared destiny
but hold on to our liberty with dignity

yet my ground
I hold fearlessly
as I tread through
life's roughest territory

Embraced being told off
Blocked out all the bad
Being isolated over drama
Excluded being talked about
Rebelled from the toxic crap
Stopped taking the blame
Had no say or control things happen
Finding confidence within
After squatting being trampled
Stood up for moral integrity
Made a stand the tone changed

All my internal drama
But my boring so-called life

Sorrow today and tomorrow
Think I'll talk a stroll

Separated from children
Agony with my wife

U2 on my stereo
Please save me Rock n' Roll!

There are days
When I need a song
That’s powerful enough
To take my mind off myself
And my problems.

Not a lot
Of drama
But a strong message
With powerful delivery.
Oh, for such a song.

The drama takes your time
The toxic suffocates your spirit
What is precious and beautiful mystifies some
While others focus on their fires
Let them
It is nit about their accepting or even understanding
You have taken all of this hard
Take it gently

C@rainbowchaser2019

The emotion poured out no longer holding it in or holding back. He respected others but they treated him like he didn't matter. He did favors but once he said no or wasn't able to they treated him like the enemy like he was going against the family. He forgave them but they continued to hold a grudge no longer taking their drama he was out of the circle. All he wanted was to belong but he realized he was better off without. He hated the fact he had to give up who he was to be accepted. He would not lower himself to be accepted, they denied him and his ideas. He was hated for asking questions and for telling the truth. He thought they'd value and respect honesty too bad everyone was fake living lies. He never criticized but they always judged him for being different. He wasn't a follower and didn't owe anyone anything. They owed it to themselves to be better be more instead off settling for less.

As he got older he didn't have time for drama. He didn't feel bad for people that did drug or drank because they chose self destruction over life. Sad that some chose their bad habits over their family.
Some think they can pick and choose when they want when to participate. Be their full-time or don't bother wasting everyone's time. So much is expected but nothing is put out.
Growing up poor was feeling unworthy but once you got older you worked hard and through it. So many things to learn and rise above. Mostly learned by doing get in there make it happen.
Learning to lead mostly inspire those who want to make it and put in the time to do so. Some think it but never put forth any effort to get to the next level. Being social is hard because your agenda is to get the work done and keep gaining and growing while others don't care going through the motion without any effort.
Finding self motivation because the people you think are on your team have your back are the ones talking. Not doing any work trying to place themselves above you but not doing anything. They could have their criticism back all those rude remarks because they'll try to break you then try to install some of their ideas like if they care or know what's best for you.

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I needed a break
so I threw my self into all the things that needed to be done every day and neglected you for some time
for 3 months or so
I have never been away from you for so long
but that should have been enough time to cleanse the mind
I am happy to say that the tears are gone
the wall is slowly going up
I am ok with this
I need to focus on me
I gave you way to many chances
too many fresh starts
bid you goodnight with hey don't worry tomorrow is a new day
well now that's going to change
It isn't really me it was always you
I took the first step and then second and kept on going
but like always you never stayed in one place
you were actually all over the place
and I always found myself in a mess and had to stay calm no matter what
because well, one of us had to be grounded
That should have been your job too at times
especially when I got tired of the drama and feelings and wanted to feel and understand no more then the warm embrace of your arms
it would have been more then enough to shake away the cold thoughts and insecurities
I smiled and exuded confidence but most of the time for your own benefit
Now I cant even do that for myself
I have formed the habit of staring into the distance and thinking hard
so hard that people now think that I am always mad
mad at world
when truthfully I am just mad at you
I know, that's long overdue
but it's true
so mad I could scream cry and break things but I wont
I will just continue to stare as the wall goes up
I don't mind
I am ok with that

At the end of the day he told himself to be better. Trying to live and learn from his mistakes. Tole himself never to be like that do it better be better than those who did you *****. Keep a clean head on your shoulders listen and learn.
After a while he expected too much from the wrong people. Leads are playing boss not a friend not getting personal.
Where trying to be the guy doesn't exist using use then dropping. Feeling like everything is a decoy. A set up all you want is to win but feeling like everything is a loss. All the drama all the toxic people trying to bring you down with them

Changing his mindset; way of life, too many assume; who he is rather than get to know him. He focused on that work trying not to complain get caught up in the drama. It rubbed him wrong when people who claim to no like one another being all fake and phony with one another.
Would rather be alone then pretend to be someone others made up about your reputation. Let them make a fuss my reaction or emotion focused on doing your own thing.

Working harder than the rest. Mentally prepping a new process to stay sharp on top of the task. All the drama doesn't matter. Started believing stopped doubting because some useless lead doesn't believe in you.
Being the guy instead of letting others steal credit for your hard work. Working behind the scenes not taking NO pursuing a dream stepped it up. Standing out making a difference for those that believe in you gave you a chance. The hard work is how the favor is returned.

the brain
switch off the body
for the mind
to watch his drama

they don’t like drama
but a lot of them are liars. If that were
true the soap operas would all be
cancelled.

People say
they don’t care what others think. But if that
were true, they wouldn’t get so upset
about comments left on the internet.

People say
they don’t make comparisons. Who
the **** are they kidding!? We all compare
ourselves to everybody else. That’s why
there’s so much unhappiness.

People say
the damnedest things. I, myself
included. No, it’s not an excuse for
being rude. It’s just us folks are hard to
figure. We’re all fractured and splintered.

People say
things they don’t mean. You can’t take
everyone on their word. And people
mean things they don’t say –
Ya, don’t say? Hell, I’ve given up
trying to figure them out –

for today

Let joy in and help those that cant find it
Give your time or if you can ,share
Open your heart and let those negative thoughts leave and hopefully return less frequently
Remember that family and friends are the best gifts in the world because they cant be gift wrapped and hopefully never returned
be humble and grateful because you have more than you know
Those people you let go of have their own to deal with
They are no longer the drama they caused
No matter what you celebrate may I wish you warmth,joy, peace and most important please take they time to communicate with people
Social media and Technology need a vacation

C@rainbowchaser2019

Some just, well, must obsess
over the issues from the past
Combing over details to the last
Wishing things had been different
If they had done this with more intent
Did that this way not that, hell bent
Opening and closing this drama, trying
Again and again, crying and dying again
Every single time and again, Time better spent
On what to learn and apply Is what’s meant
Past proves present unless you love malcontent
Let the  past go. It’s so simple yet
Not many can do it takes practice
Forgiveness, redemption, commitment

The heart of a warrior beating strong
Fighting to be heard rise above hate
Tired of being ignored walked away
Taking a stand left all alone
Went against family seen as taboo
Family has been disrespectful for years
Talking bad on others they are no better
Running mouths that cause drama
Trying to expose others to hide wicked way
Called them on it now they are mad
Try to erase you for having an opinion
Cross you out for speaking your mind
Never used or took anyone for granted