"definatly" poems
From the beginning I trusted you, but in end I rejected you
Because the demons inside shined bright in the night
Sadly, we only hung out at night...
When your world was already dizzy
Mine was too busy to understand the reasons why
So my mind decided that a marathon was stunning
I only thought of you but it managaed to keep running
In this case 28 k but seemed like 28 days
Becuase as you know you just dont run the race
Theres many days of planning and exercise just in case
Now, my heart beats out of rythem
Becuase of the precision of your desicion
Your words seemed kind but in my mind I knew that they hurt
Like you grabbed my heart, played with it, put it back and left it in parts
Since then my left atrium doesnt work
Its like a inncoent whale that was left to die in the beach dirt
And i was simply that... innocent dirt
What had I done previous to this that made you act outrageous?
But now I know your contagious
A disease that brings you one step closer death
But now im just once step closer to home I guess
Home. A intanglment of feeling like the fibers in my sheets
I thought it was a place of love but then relized its just a place to meet
My mother was a weird one. Often pressing burdens on her son
A seperated family with nothing in commom is definatly more common then Nostradomeous
To say I love quotes would be close but theres some that make me simply choke
Remember when "like father like son" was an inpiration quote but for me its what kept me a float
On the sea of hatred with the destination of dope
Becuase of the words my mother chose, addiction would be my affliction
A state of pain my mother, father, sister and brother could not feel
Yes, this is the shittest deal, but look at me now
A person ontop with the world as my partner,
Ambition like a morning light because I had the will to fight
Only you can make a change your life, not your mother, drugs and neither your wife.
Sep 19, 2013
Sep 19, 2013 at 4:04 PM UTC
There are those
Who you cry over
Tears stream down
When you know
That those you loved
Left or betrayed
And you cry because
You loved them
And because a part of you
Still does
Because they were perfect
And because you
Still want the old them
They have changed
But you cry for the future
That could have been
But now my eyes are dry
And it's not because
I go with out pain
You hurt me and fight me
But I don't cry
Because you don't deserve
My pain
And you definatly
Don't deserve my
Love
Jan 25, 2015
Jan 25, 2015 at 1:27 AM UTC
Yes I have a bipolar mind.
I look for clear but never know what I will find.
Mom sent me away.
For a few months and a day.
Mom said she couldn't handle me.
Why couldn't she see?
I wasn't really myself.
I was someone else.
Sometimes blue.
Gosh if I could sue.
Every little ****
Who made me hate my guts.
Awe look at her.
**** she's got the face of a murderer.
Why you always crying Graffe *** *****
Why not end it and die in a ditch?
I was definatly all over the place.
Stuck with this awful race.
I couldn't control my actions.
So I shoved all emotions back with a little lithium.
Then I didn't see clear.
Actually nothing ever happens here.
I see nothing now.
And there's no changing my mind.
Mar 15, 2016
Mar 15, 2016 at 5:35 PM UTC
Roses are red...
Violets are blue...
I'm just gonna stop this crap...
And come out and say I love you.
I know sometimes I'm not poetic.
Sometimes really quite pathetic.
But you'll never find a girl who loves you more.
It's like one day I opened a door.
Let you in.
Gosh, I don't know where to begin,
How do I explain the day when it all changed,
How to I explain the way my mind became rearanged?
You were always there.
Somewhere.
I'd see you everywhere.
Smile as I walked the halls.
My thoughts bouncing off the walls.
Never had I met a girl so beautiful.
Never had I picture a new story to be told...
Willingly I decided this was all part of a bigger plan.
Gladly, I took your hand.
Slowly day after day,
Growing closer to you.
Until we were the inseparable two.
Your hand in mine.
Always by my side.
Eating lunch.
Following routines.
Everything simply meant to be.
Day by day I began to fall,
Harder and harder,
There was no going back.
My heart was under attack.
Quickly you won the war.
Taking over my heart.
Making it beat off the charts.
Every time I saw you my stomach spun.
I could definatly tell you were the one.
Never had I met a girl like you.
Never again do I want to.
(Didn't mean that in a bad way)
Your the only girl I ever want to be with.
Still asking my self on the daily how did I get so lucky.
Your...
Stunning,
Mesmerizing,
Beautiful,
Gorgeous,
Caring,
Deep minded,
Amazing,
Breath taking,
And everything in between.
So the story of us.
You've lived it once before.
Well only a chapter.
We have many yet to go.
so,
This book won't write its self,
So let me begin again,
Never going to reach the end...
I'll start this page.
Simply by saying...
I am madly in love with you.
And absolutely everything you do.
Jan 19, 2017
Jan 19, 2017 at 2:47 AM UTC
Scared of being late.
I texted her nonstop.
Is it beginning?
No not yet.
I waited for her but ended up going in alone.
Which is absolutely okay. :)
When I went it I was lost.
A big casino.
Looking for one group of people.
It heavily smelled of cigarette smoke.
Memories of the past flooded.
But they were only pushed down.
When I was told where to go and did find it immediately my eyes found her.
Yes she was here.
I went off to my own date and I guess that was good.
I danced occasionally looking at her. Which was completly unintentional.
She and her date(I think) were extremely beautiful.
Her in service dress.
I hope you had fun.
I can tell you I definatly did.
May 7, 2016
May 7, 2016 at 1:45 PM UTC
I do believe, Birth and death are preplanned certainty.
all our choices that we make, will plan our destiny.
everything we do, changes what could be.
If I say yes to you today,
I may lose something more tomorrow.
But who will ever know?
A certain spill or minute missed, could mean everything,
to happiness and misery
or timely uncertainty.
I was late this morning,
changing my formality.
My fate was changed immidiatly,
when I was late this morning.
I was safe today.
I heard the news,
a cemi struck my bus .
If I had been on time,
sends shivers down my spine.
I could have been no more,
with the other casualties.
When I saw the bus;
dented in completely, where I always sit,
laying on it's side.
many did not make it,
my pain I bare inside.
for I was saved by minutes late,
my special fate today.
A kiss from death this morning,
was not my time to leave.
My time of death is certain,
planned it is for me.
For me it's uncertainty and definatly destiny.
Mar 7, 2016
Mar 7, 2016 at 2:05 AM UTC
This is a place where we can learn nothing about ourselves.
this is a place where they INSIST ... that *** should sell.
This is a place where we get the things that we definatly do not need,
and this is a place where YOUR kids can get addicted to alcohol and ****
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 4:12 AM UTC
More joy than the last time.. or what you are having.
Instantly gratify my desire for higher.
Ready.
Aim.
Higher.
Dummer.not as.smart as you wuz last summer.
My brains bigger than yours...or where did you get that idea.
slow.
Slower.
Slowest
Bummer.that is definatly not funner.
Down.
Down.
Downer.
:-)
Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 5:46 PM UTC
Today I'm 40
Yesterday I was 39
I guess I should celebrate somehow
With some food and a bottle of wine
The thoughts of being younger
Keep running through my head
When I could act like a complete clown
And not panic about things I've said
The world was exciting and happy
So I embraced it with all my might
With the good times and the bad times
I still learnt with the world in sight
Turning 40 hasn't really changed me
The mind still thinks it 24
My body gets an occasional twinge
But I'm definatly not a bore
So here's to being 40
If you want to celebrate it's up to you
I'll just keep my thoughts of happiness
And sit around till I'm 41 and 42
Dec 2, 2016
Dec 2, 2016 at 6:17 PM UTC
It's never made sense how things change
Sudden as a storm or slow as years
This time there's no one to really turn to.
There never really was and who's fault is that?
Fragile like proceiln, fragile like skin.
We're only human and that's not enough to grow on.
How quickly happy turns to sad,
To longing and to tears for something that's not missing
But definatly lost along the way.
Throat, eyes, skull and heart.
Heavy.
Tired.
Breakable.
How can I change what I feel if I don't even know?
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 2:12 AM UTC