It's my most favourite life game,
Leaving you behind with no particular aim
In the midst of a charming thing we perform
And keeping you waiting  till the time,
I choose to be  back again!

Did you ever notice it yourselves?
(If not what's the point of telling one?
I may ruin the pleasure of not allowing
Not to see what one naturally do not see)

I've  freed myself from the vagaries of time!
An esoteric art in what avatars are with me.
I may not return to you in an
Expected time frame or plane.
I'll spend  time the  way I wish,
Taking as much from the chest of universe
and add a fine twist to it.
Wouldn't you call it making poetry?

I've bandoned all expectaions time,
Imposed on us by  its lenier progression.
I may keep you waiting for long
You may think,  as you are now not that girl,
But a wildly bloomed tree waiting for me, The migratory bird on its usual sojourn!
You are eager to offer your best of fruits,
I peck at it with atmost care, and attain,
An 'Ananda ' pure and simple
And gift you a perfect Buddha smile,
That transcends the warps  of time!

A shortest smile bears the deepest impression...
The loss of sense draining in depression...
Talk about sharing thoughts with someone known..
But efforts fail as the talks become unknown...
Try and tried of putting thoughts together...
For the memories that render over and over...
Of what mind speaks hurts me again...
When heart seeks gives atmost pain...
Who shall understand for people live in vain...
Its almost peek of insanity nearly going in drain...
Keeping in mind that steady should remain...
Of what thoughts crash and what we gain...


©sim

Always lurking in the shadows, going unnoticed. We never listen when it barks at us to look out for danger. We find it to be a nuisance and be angry at the lost noise. We want to forget about it but it reminds us every time we're at a certain circumstance. We think we are insane, so we give it names, such as voices in my head. Our headaches are not always caused by stress, it is usually sending us warning signs. It gets angry at us too, so it gives us migraines. It tries its atmost best to protect us, but we neglect it. It always speaks with us, but we don't listen.

When you think your world is crumbling down and all you can do is sit and frown. Be sure to call me, cause I never thought to disown. You were and are my life, my flesh and blood, my own. Am not angry with you, just upset with your choices. You went along listening to foreign voices. Left me in distress with your harsh words. But dear you are my atmost joy out of the odds. I know life cheats on many counts but bad things always haunts. You need to think straight tho it's not too late, but hunny don't get stuck blaming your fate. You are young, pretty, beautiful and bold. Right now, concentrate on your studies, am sure your true love will emerge to mould. You shouldn't rush into anything you would later regret for. Take a cruze drive towards your goal dear and all will be well in the coming year. Few lessons of such I would love to give to my future daughter. While gulpping down a glass of lemon water. Smiling imaging how such life would be, will I even be lucky to live and see. I wish to have my own family someday, I just have to be patient and not cowardly walk away...*


©sim

Since today , I hardly think or write about you. Present,all I do is think about you. Totally crazy about you lately. My love for you is inevitable. It feels dramatic but it's true. I can give away whole myself to you. I always seek for your presence and I'm in need of it. I don't wanna get a thought of you, ignoring me and I'm scared of it. Reuniting all our memories back from our past ,I want another version of me,so that we can spend those moments again. At the intial phase of our acquaintance,I began to feel you with my writings,I never expected to this long-lasting my feelings for someone could be and this is the first time I had ever loved someone in my life. I wish I could be all the time with you likewise you know,it can't be like we supposed to hope of. I don't have any idea about how you feel for me. It's hard to realize that you aren't much expressive. Basically, as an introvert, I can't express much. But the love towards you,forces me to do so. So my feelings for you can be transparent without any dark spot. I don't want some third person to involve in our relationship. I just want 'You and Me'. I didn't realize myself that I will be this much sensible towards my loved ones,until I found you. I'm totally scared of,that one day I'll definitely break myself uncontrollably into tears leaving you and I also believe in myself and could rush into the present after all. I just want you in my shoes and see the atmost love for you,which I have been treasuring since our acquaintance. Initially, I was so selfish and desperate. Altogether being with you,puts me in the faith that our friendship lasts forever and ever. I'm sorry for being overprotective . I still doesn't blame myself for my possessiveness towards you because it's natural to a person towards their loved ones and I lately realized faith is also one of the most crucial element of a relationship.

Hey!?
Why are you sitting there like that??
I don’t know
I just feel alittle down in the dumbs
Oh!?why??
I just feel thar the core of my existence is vain
Why would you say that??
Think of it this way
A carpenter that can’t make smooth tables
An firefighter  who can’t put out fires
A singer that is mute
An artist with no art
What are you trying to tell me?
I’ll explain
I have always put my worth in how people respond to me!
I don’t quite get how that relates to the other sentences??!
I’ll continue
I treated my self as an occupation
A career
A position to occupy to be of use
Thinking like this got me to have expecations
And what do you expect from an imperfect being??
I don’t know mistakes i guess?
Your getting it lets continue
Expectations leading to disappointment
Over and over and over and over and over
To me to myself i didn’t know why this was happening
Am I not worthy of getting what I give?
Is something wrong with me?
Is my soul and body that ugly?
Is this face that i see in the mirror a facade
A construct of my broken psyche
Wait hold on a moment!??
So your saying your mad?
I don’t think your crazy though
You quite delightful
Hmm..I Shall proceed…
As I came to this conclusion
And shattering awakening
Despair befell my mind
I even made constructs to contain this shattered mind
What are the constructs you might ask
Pain,Anger,Vices,Will,Madness andEmotions
So Each was like an Espada on my grand table
Headed by a construct  I did not create
This kinda sounds like a movie man!!thats raddd!!
Shut up I am almost done anyway
So as the castle crumbled
The unseen constructs took control
And then the realization
Why do I feel pain?
Why do I have to feel this way?
Internal thoughts or feelings never reach the ones directed to them
The pain in my chest after this realisation
Deepened like a void
Why are you unworthy?
Maybe I have the face of a goblin?
The heart of a demon?
The actions of a greedy king?
No one answered my questions?
As i wailed in atmost silence
A chill befell my body
As if the kiss of death
And i saw the construct of the unseen
Ask me do you want it to stop?
I answered,”Yes make it stop”
He answered,”Very well but you won’t come back from this.”
The construct “feeling” was butchered infront of me
And he walked away!
But I remember clearly in its final moments
He smiled as If its thoughts flowed into my head
“Do not fear i do not hold it against you”
This made grief feel the heart of this weak being
Why?!
Do you think i made the righr decision?!
Do you?!
I don’t know
Lets go home now its late