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Jessie Meredith Jul 2013
Who offered 6-year-old-me deals of a toothbrush or a paddle,
(I took the paddle).
Who would call to say “be there in ten,”
And rang again in forty-five.
Who told me to stop trying to sneak out
And just use the front door.

Who, on every spontaneous trip to Barcelona or Belize
would add another nameless instrument to the stage
of our living room, with nameless band mates to follow,
and would drag me from bed at 2 AM on a Monday
and hand me a guitar.

Who I learned to play guitar for, so I could send to her my
“Wish You Were Here” and she could listen from wherever
her 1970s camper and wanderlust heart had taken her.

Who gave advice of “If you’re gunna be stupid, ya gotta be tough.”

Who yelled at Ashlyn and me the first time she caught
us with a joint- “What the hell are you doing? Don’t you share?”

Who, after I invented master plans of how to get rid of
the smell of cigarette smoke and spilled beer, how to keep
Troy from sleeping in her bed and Jordan from drinking her Captain
And Jeremiah from eating all the food she left me,
always returned from her trips and knew, within minutes,
that her house had been our playground

Who would simply ask, “have fun?”

Who mistook adolescent angst and the silence of my Nirvana daze
for a resentment of struggles past, and
Who thought I felt better off without her around.

Who may have been right,
but was probably wrong.
Ashlyn Stone May 2015
Dear, mom
Since you've been gone....
So much has happend in this cruel world.
The depression eats away at me every day.
My anxiety worsened.
But there also good things that have happend.
I'm falling in love.
For real this time mom, I wish you were here to meet him.
I'll be graduating in less than a month.
All I've ever wanted was to make you happy.
So since you've been gone I have thought about you every day.
I love you.

Sincerely your daughter,
Ashlyn
Johnny Noiπ Jan 2019
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has been known as the "sick" patient process.
The result is aggressive loss and emotion.
After the operation,
Molson finds a new job
and new memories for the operation.
But I remember these events many years ago,
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At that time,            especially the widespread
use of these principles, which led the collapse
of a forgotten story.
In the next few years,
other patients will have the same hippo
campalage damage and amnesia.
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to build a helicopter. However, the importance
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Note that there is no contact
between the points. There have been
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to give feedback, but the organization
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processes, memory, design activities, evaluation methods of the same origin,
                                     and spatial relationships between the core algorithms.
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(light erivatutai) [37],          which caused damage.
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                "sick" after the action is over.
Enemy of the idea of ​​pain,
the thoughts and actions of Molaise
one must find a job because of the disease.
The story has not yielded pretty much
the policy has already forgotten the key.
Patients gummed with Ultrices for several years
will be the same loss.       (Or business) at home.
I refuse to do a helicopter. However, this is a project                           [39].
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Ashlyn Rimsky Feb 2020
A reading from the book of Ashlyn, daughter of Mark.

In the name of my Father
(Who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name):
Ritual calls a lighter to a cigarette
It pulls the calloused flesh of its thumb over the metal striker
Igniting the air it breathes, exciting a dull glow
A puff of recognition lays down on the exhale
Soon there will be ashes. It settles like smoke.

When the smoke settles
The Room is void.
The walls move in and
Swallow him holy, moving in
Relentless rythmic contraction
A chorus of prayer, annointing the sick
Let us paint crosses in the ashtray.

"Ahhhhh-men."

coughing

In the name of the daughter:
He tries to avoid the ritual,
But the chants persist
He is a sinner.
Only blood can cleanse him
He partakes

May the Spirit be with you.
"And also with you."
We lift our glasses to the Lord.
"It is right to give Him thanks and praise."

The room goes silent.
Observation of prayer.


In the name of the Holy Spirit:
The blood of Christ compels a drink
The spirit makes my father new
He is no longer man.
Now, he is exorcised by the spirit.
Praise be to God in his slurred speech
And peace to this person on earth
His sunken eyes. His swollen belly.
God, is he your Mary?
Is this your beautiful creation? Your masterful plan?
God, am I your son? I think so.
I stretched my arms out to you.
It seems you left me hanging.
You, the only father who has ever forsaken me. Why?
To clarify, my biological father was the best thing that ever happened to me. He was so full of love and light in ways that were not showcased in this poem. Unfortunately, addiction claimed his life in 2014 and I lost my best friend in the whole world. This poem is not aimed to portray him as a bad dad (he was not), but is aimed to draw attention to the horrors of addiction and explore my rejection of relgion after losing him. Addiction is an ugly disease that takes people slowly and painfully and in very ugly ways. My dad was the last person that deserved to suffer addiction and this is my call to God, if there is one, to express my pain and ask him "Why this?" I know the language is ****** and graphic -  it hurts me to write it. Unfortunately, this is what addiction looks like and I felt the need to be honest.

Thank you for reading and for the support as I share a vunerable subject publicly. If you or anyone else out there that you know is struggling with addiction, please get help. I am happy to talk with you and provide you with some resources. I am sending lots of love, stay strong.

"I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be you."
Ashlyn Yoshida Feb 2020
It's strange the way I am
My name is always different to others
Ash, Ashlyn, Lyn.
I've been called other names, too.
******, Crazy, Insane, Wreck
Wrong, Right, Girl.
I mean..they're not wrong.
But I have a name you know.

— The End —