"alawys" poems
War zone in my brain,
Nothins really the same,
Exepct my heart that’s same,
But my brains not the same,
Sufferin depresseion that I cannot tame,
Losing my mind it feels like everyday,
Drowing in thoughts and my hate,
Gonna have to break the gate ,
The gate of gratification and grace ,
Leave my devil to the grave,
But my devils immortal hes lurkin,
Every corner every crack ready to break out,
Sick of bein called a disappointment and a clown,
Bout to rain havic on this little fuckin town,
But calmdown and open ur 3rd eye and face the light,
But the lights is mine,
But im not mine,
Im my devils,
Forced to do his transactions and his deals,
But its hard to open grace when ur a disgrace,
A outcast from myself and life,
Used to be a angel but now im fallin from grace,
Fallin from grace from this race of pain and change,
Hasn’t been the same since 6th grade,
Alawys bullied pushed and pulled,
But there so much u can pull a anchor by a rope,
Before the rope breaks and the anchor stops,
Like that anchor and my gratification stopped,
And lost my grace,
Open ur 3rd eye and face the light,
But the lights is mine,
But im not mine,
I will never escape this race of anxiety and change…
May 24, 2021
May 24, 2021 at 11:51 AM UTC
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turely wulod wnat to witre ye a ncie peom
but i cnnaot seem to get tehse wrods rghit
ye see all my letrets are so mxied up
resmelbin' excat wath be on my mnid
tho smeowehre i hvae hared taht wehn ineded
the fisrt 'n' the lsat lteter rhgilty palced
one salhl be albe to msaetr 'n' raed
wrdos rhgit in the eaxct crorcet odrer
ye see i srue am not taht wreid at all
tho at laset not mroe tahn any one can
wahtveer uopn to, or waht we slahl
jsut nveer be of toshe rdaey to ban
wihcveer ye siltl do not udnrtaensd
do not be of tsohe be jgudin' the man
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..lvoe alawys...
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عرفان بن يوسف © AH 04/03/1439
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Nov 24, 2017
Nov 24, 2017 at 9:11 AM UTC
please Dear god help me tame this beast
every night is a fleshful feast
alawys staring in the heart of temtaions eyes
under the blanket of the midnight moonlight sky
disire's voice biting my ear
and pleasing thoughts far from a sear
oh how the waves of lust crash
calm then violent tides pass
and the wall of passion stops me
wide eyed in the cold
in the rain
Oct 27, 2011
Oct 27, 2011 at 12:23 AM UTC
You gossiped around
And you put him down
Since he wasn’t as rough
Was in no way as tough
As other guys were acting
You continued the trashing.
Bullying is always in fashion.
Alawys some wimp needs mashing.
His clothes were impeccable.
You found that despicable.
He kept himself neat and clean
You did with that something mean.
He was good at sport games
You reviled him just the same.
He got high grades in classes
Still you all acted like *****
He won awards, your taunts tripled,
It couldn’t be worse if he was crippled.
We can see now his incipient fame;
You never let up with the ugly names.
An A student, who never did wrong
You let bullies lead you along,
Another poor schmo for you to dismember;
What do you suppose he will remember?
Will you suddenly call him friend
When school and the torture ends?
Will you go see his lectures and shows?
Isn’t that the way it always goes?
Suddenly the bullies are good guys?
And you think nobody ever catches wise?
Go on and hope that is how it goes.
He’s an elegant guy. So, who knows?
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 3:13 PM UTC
you see the boy at high school you send wispers all around tearing him up inside. he say nothing as you just push him around. every day he is scilent and never even makes a sound. that loaner is me. i just watch the world go bye. i dont have any thing to say expet i am going down the road of life solatuid shunning away people. that boy you watch every day he grows moe quiet but has a weapon of his choice. his words that shoots like bullets hitting tarkets with kinds solam words that lighten the impact. that boy who alawys walked home alone every day. he has no words exept (his big blue)eyes that make the statmenst that keept him sane.
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 12:48 PM UTC
Someone who accepts them self
Someone who expresses them self through the gate way of imagination
Someone who is an old romantic
Someone who will lay their head upon yours
Someone who you can tell "It's going to be ok" and you know it will
Someone your there for when they need a shoulder to cry into
Someone you know is forever
Someone who believes what you truly believe in
Someone you can alawys support
Someone you can always stay true to
Someone as sweet as the first drop of nectar into spring
Someone who's smile will instantly warm you
Someones embrace that somehow fills your heart with joy
Someone who you see and your heart just stops
Someone you care for beyond the universe
Someone you will die for in no hesitation just so you know they can live another second of their wonders life
Someone that is so hard to live without
Someone to make breakfast in bed before they awake
Someone that will make me want to play for them until my fingers can't bleed any more
Someone who knows the real me and says "I still love you"
Someone i can say I love you and they will say it back with just he more passion
Someone you can hold in your arms forever
Why can I not find this person?
Are they right in front of me and I am to blind to see it
Someone that i would drop everything right now just to spend an extra second with
I just want to find this person in my life
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 11:00 PM UTC