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You hear my every thought,
My every prayer,
My every cry of anguish-
Or so I have always believed.

You are a God of justice,
And mercy,
And love.
You promise me rest from
This world's burdens.

Yet this is denied to me.

I asked for light in the darkness,
Pleaded for peace in chaos,
Wept for an end to this unbearable pain.

On my knees, tears streaming, I entreated;
"Bring me home, Lord.
I am too exhausted to fight this endless war.
Please, I want to come home!"


And I heard a whisper;
Not yet.
It is not your time,
There is still far more I have in mind
For you.
You cannot see it now,
But there are blessings to come
Far greater than you can dream.


And with this frail hope
I trudged through
Week by week,
Taking it a day at a time,
Sometimes surviving only hour to hour.

And here I am once again,
Agony enveloping my heart.
Salt water stinging my eyes,
My body wracked with sobs,
Choking back screams.

You are the God of justice,
And mercy,
And love.
You promise me rest from,
This world's burdens.

Yet you curse me with this affliction,
Disguised in a strong embrace,
A heart-melting smile,
Warm, brown eyes,
Three, single syllable words.

I love you

I shake uncontrollably.
I desperately gulp for air.
I can't think
Over the clamor
Of my own heartbeat.

I am not here,
This is not happening,
This is not my life.

Can you say it back?
It would mean a lot to me...
I know you do...


My thoughts roar with the words,
My heart beats to their rhythm,
My soul sings their melody,
Every fiber of my being screams it.

You are God of justice,
And mercy,
And love.
You promise me rest from
This world's burdens.

I am sure that You love me, Lord,
With all that You are,
Yet I cannot fathom
How this man holding me
Could even begin to love me
When I can't even love myself.

Why me? Why love me?
How could you possibly love me?

You deserve someone better,
Someone good,
Someone beautiful,
Someone whole.


Lord;

If You are justice,
Then why give me this punishment?

If You are mercy,
Then why am I captive to my past?

If You are love,
Then why am I so terrified of being loved?

If You promise me rest from
This world's burdens,
Then why can't I let myself be happy?

You hear my every thought,
My every prayer,
My every cry of anguish.

So I desperately fall to my knees again,
And throw myself completely into You,
Praying that someday You give me the strength
To make myself weak
And say to him
Three, single syllable words.

*I love you
brandon nagley Mar 2016
i.

A sapphire raceme, Symbolic dimples,
Radiciform, Ak-Shabreeze, consecrated;
Impeccable temple's.

ii.

None remembrance, of bygone vice,
Resumption of the new; perpetual
Life. Ramate by ourn rib's, sedated
By the paradisiacal.

iii.

Levitating toes, aloft the colored covenant,
O'er the bended bow, of God's plan's that
Art meant. We yaw the pleasant valley's,
We strum the lyre's of ahava; taking
Slowly to ourn peach rim's, desired
Coconut and guava.

iv.

Yealing's of another time, artist's of the
third peculiar mind, by the creator's
Design; finding another, amid the
Pearlescent hue.


©Brandon Nagley
©Lonesome poets poetry
©Earl Jane Nagley ( ahava) dedication
Raceme- central stem with flowers on small stalks.
Radiciform- means- like a root.
Ak-shabreeze- word I made meaning ( riding the storm's)
Bygone- past or former times
Vice- immoral or wicked behaviors. ( sins)
Resumption- the action of beginning something again after a pause or interruption.
Ramate- branched.
paradisiacal- of or relationship to or like or paradise.
Aloft- up above
Colored covenant I mean the covenant God gave to man kind with a rainbow telling man he's never gonna flood us again as he did. Though in the end renewal comes by fire...
O'er the bended bow. - means over the bended rainbow.
Yaw- means to move side to side.
Lyre- is an ancient like harp thing that would have been played in ancient Israel during king David's time...it's heavenly!!!!
Ahava- Hebrew word for love.
Peach rims- me and Jane lips... .
Yealings- are people of same age. I dont mean earth wise I mean in heaven. Everyone looks about same age alot of stories I've heard and when die old you go to about thirties or so. Quite amazing!!! Of course if in heaven!!!!
Pearlescent- resembles pearl like colors. Or resembles Pearl...



Note- this is second spoken one I posted on SoundCloud as well.
Just look me up Brandon Nagley  on SoundCloud.com you can find this title of the poem. At end of poem speaking one I sing a bit... Romantically of course lol. Enjoy thanks for reading poets!!!
Below is what to look up on SoundCloud. Thanks everyone.
(Finding another, amid the pearlescent hue) SoundCloud. Com
Desire Dec 2019
You have been gifted with life ❣️
Live and learn, but love (ahava), always ...

@Desire.Is.Dope
20191224
Johnny Noiπ Jan 2019
She laughed and laughed
with the laughter of the King
of Singapore: the dry land girl,
the laughter on the street
of the laughter, from the power
of heaven, as a picture of a church
goes to a woman in the dance,
in the same wedding,
at our wedding, holidays the Lord
in his strength and experiments,
He did. King of peace lives,
and gold, black gold, laughter,
stroke and the situation of vaccination,
because for this purpose,          
the salvation of the forces and the king
and the Christ was baptized suddenly,
the friend of the friend,  the angry voice
shouting, they suddenly know love,
powerful, Samara wine; Wonderful
Shipping Signs Wedding Decorations
Laugh's Gold Wedding Feelings
of the most famous:
all Aims Aim of the Goal aim;
Golden aim of the Autumn Stomach's goal,
                                plans and assistant
to the sad Mahayana husband King,
Christ's new leader on green street
and Santa's baby
with hamburger and champions
get enough compensation.
I laugh, laugh, smile, smile,               smile
and smile yoga
to briefly call the wife of the wife, authority,
and Power to marry another wedding
suddenly. Singer was not laughing
laughter, Fingers electricity, football
marriages and the marriage. Educating
a child to the death of the great king,
inviting friends or a great citizen's
appearance is enough to win great
plumbing, Ecicentana paints vararaja
siaralearaza, a happy fingerprint
can see rhythmic ritas; Timothy
king of the bridge and Chris'
White Reminder House Baikicika
Gifts Gavia A. Rappatta's golden
finger was attractive, I wrote a new leader.
D-finenessa, Jayalalai Sunshine,   Stove
and Masacarat's 1 seat romance, Maserati
smiley car sports, Evil Source Raja, Turkey,
ICA Lee M. Yuaye Burke Lukana Taipei
Annan for school gold lending Qatar
varnaya, Wicca Annaka from the
wedding marriages, electricity
and electricity are being abused
by power and independence. Patna's
chains came on the island, J Smith
was alone, living in a warm,
terrible sun. Here are the most
important and free beta games,
Talavara, love biscuits, yoga
and microwave dry masochihaha
education, kahaha, ugeinfeld,
and thahahi, photo fagaprinta
chiesalaala;   The composer,         Asafara
earrings, I call you and kalaraja
performances of current affairs,  
leaving a big star, David,
Habana Ahava Samarana,
the great mosque of the Sassan
king is sound, quiet, jack.
Djazta, lacakis is twenty flowers.
500 Black Vassilios hahahala,
brown, my girlfriend.                 In the minds
of Parasaraja's Garo and blue,
or the animal's animal,                               or
Wallaja Ralah Gorira Aalin,
losing Sister's schools as a monarch
of a judicial scandal,
changing the name of Eva
to the entirety of Leila's Arid
valley,
musician Judith Hay,                musician's musician,
dikaram musician, Wahaha
and Dead Benefit from Asahi Electric,
intelligent school records. Gold,
gold and gold are full of black pan.                     Marriage and Health Issues;
Vilaha Iya Prison, Patna Sonata
Niyazana, Cof Cof Foto Yudraha
Chakra Sai Sarah Lasik Bilal Bahadha
Ghajja Vaka He laughs and laughs
with the laughter of the King of Singapore:
the daughter of the dry land,
the laughter on the street of the laugh,
from the power of heaven,
as a mere picture of a church
scene goes to a lady in the dance,
in the same marriage,
at our Lord's wedding feasts,
in his strength and experiments,                He did.
King of peace lives in the gold,           black gold,
the laughter, stroke and vaccination situation,
because for this purpose the salvation
of the masses and the king
and had the sudden baptized Christ,
the friend of the friend, the newspaper's
angry voice shouting,
they suddenly love-point identity, powerful,
Samara wine Wonderful Waves Signs;
Wedding Decorations Golden Wedding Laugh,
A feeling of the most famous:
all Goal Goal Goals Goal
The goal of the golden goal, Autumn stomach,
plans and sadness assistant Mannahana,
husband King, Christ, new leader,
green street and baby Santa with hamburger
and champions have enough
compensation to Smile, laugh, smile,
smile, smile, smile, smile, laugh, smile,
laughter tortures yoga shorts
to call the wife of the wife,
authority,        and power to suddenly
marry another marriage.
Laughing laughs singer, Fingers electricity,
the marriage of football
and the marriage has not been
taken into account. Teaching a child
to the great king's death,
inviting friends or the appearance
of a great citizen will be enough to win
a great dive, ecicentana, paints and vararaja
siaralearaza, happy fingerprints
can see phigarapa ritasa;
Timothy king king of the hill
and Christ's White House baikicika
reminder reminder Gavia gold finger gifts A.
Rappatta a magnanimous, I wrote the new leader.
D-finenessa, Jayalalai Sunshine,
Stove and Masacarat's 1 seat romance,
sports car Mazerati's smile, Evil Source
Raja, Turkey, ICA Lee M. Yuaye Burke
Lukana, Taipei Annan wants to borrow
the gold of the school of Qatar varnana,
Wiccan Ananka of the married married
friends, marriage, electricity and electricity
are misused of power and independence.
Patna's chains came on the island, J Smith
was alone, living in a warm, scary sun.                                                             ­           
                                                     ­        This

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