There is this feeling.
             That you know you are in love when,
                             That person you want to be with,
                                                           ­ Says, “I’m leaving you”.

In that instant, a weight slams your chest, you think of all that you and that person have done.

The Adventures.
            The Moments.
                         The Minutes.
                                    Everything.

It leaves you
                     Lost,
                     Confused,
                     Broken,
                     Scared,
                     Shaken, and Speechless.

It’s when you try to look into the future, but it’s blank or blurred.

This is because your heart doesn’t want to see a future without them.

In return, that feeling creates a fire in your heart. One that is willing to change you for the better.

*A fire that should never be underestimated or taken for granted.

The grass is greener on the other side
the sky is blue
the air is clean
and the sun is shining always
and that's how it is over here
as long as the pictures I post make it seem so,
as long as my statuses are vague and humorous,
as long as I reveal the good and not the bad
no one will know
how hard things really are.

I drive my self crazy with the thoughts in my mind,
The things I shouldn't want, things I should leave behind.
I find myself pacing back and forth in this room,
Just realize I created my own doom.
She said I was different, someone she could love.
I kind of liked being held, right there up above.
All I can think of is the things I shouldn't have said,
And most of the time I feel brain dead.
They said I did it right, said she was always bad.
Then why am I the only one hurting and sad?
Now I've apologized and I'm not surprised,
I got no response from the girl with piercing eyes.

she wakes early to plot the day
makes the bed where he once laid
she works out to stay trim
curls her hair so she's proper and prim
she cleans the living room
the kitchen
the bedroom
the bath
the halls
the windows
the tables
the floor
she washes and folds the laundry
and puts away the dishes with a clatter
overwhelmed with quandary
pretending the latter doesn't matter
only focused on having dinner ready
when he steps through the door steady
and she does it all
yes she does it all
with a frown on her mouth
and a furrow on her brow
yes she's going mad as a hatter
perfect makeup
mixing batter
what's for dinner
new lingerie
makes her look thinner
she's got to please the man
she's got to lick his hand
petrified things will fall apart
if she doesn't play her part
she's losing who she is
afraid to be a Ms.
all day long
she thinks of pleasing him
humming a caged bird's song
for she does this all desperately
desperately desperately
running from the candle *****
her love just doesn't seem enough
doing all she can
to keep this man
pretending she still has an identity
and that she's not just a mechanical thing
that she's more than just
the desperate housewife.

There is nothing greater
Than being loved by you
But honey there are times when
I'd wish you'd love another
For I know how much you've suffered
From my complications

When we dance
I'm drowning
Warm chocolate
Eyes draw me in
Swallowing me
A warm embrace
Dark
Mystery
Mixed with a sprinkle
Of salt, flirtation
melted
And smooth admiration,
The enigma
Of being lost but found
All at once.

With each step
The cliff crumbles
Until I've fallen
Into the the sparkling mystery
The fiery gaze
The heady dance
Again.

No longer do I stumble, only
Because I'm constantly
Free-falling
Deeper.

Inhalation
Choke on confusion
Cold refusal
Cautious desire
The chill of the night
Sprints down my spine.

Confusion
Repels
The desire and refusal
Like oil in water
Pushing away
The others.

Exhalation
The desire holds
My heart
With a wild strength
Like steel.
Steals my lungs
Battles the confusion
Harbored there
And stays in my chest
Content
Like a dragon in its cavern to
Celebrate at last
Its victory
With eternal flame and glory.

I'm still in free fall
But it's like
Being on a cloud
Forever and in
A moment
Every single time
I catch your eye
For a second
Too long
It's been since we danced
But when we do,
I think I'll know
This whole experience
Has been
Worth it.

Every moment.

I'm still drowning
But I'm not scared
Anymore
Because of your hand on my waist
And your eyes
Holding mine
I know
All is well.

From here on out its Season 2.
None of us really knew what we were doing, how about you?
Under rocks, in fields, along the NID ditch.

Something's gotta give; strung out and hung up to dry, we try and we try.
Rub aloe on my cheeks and I'll try not to cry. Throw me into space and I'll try not to die.