what have i done i k new that i have trusted you but maybe to day i hate what i have become cause every dream i have hate what has been wo did i **** in my own silence. i have the feeling when i remembered something and one day t was to late to say sorry for something i didnt even knew what has happpened
i miss have you as my best friend
i hate how we have gone our own ways
i hated why i needd you the most
i wish i couldent stop my tear
i wish our lives coldnt be this way
i hated how me and you fought over what secrets have been said


my ******* day has became the fear on me getting forced to speak on the stage with fear that im choking up already

i remeber all the gifts and love we are all to gathere but my last day ended threw the sun turning blue

the day is turning in to a misty blue shadow that only begain to folow around me since im not strong enought to follow my lungs fill with fear as my lungs deflate

i hate we could both break the scilence to be to gather

if our self cant what ever

i lay softly asleep with no fear. my dreams have the escape to bring hell and anger. my anger grows as i sufficate from what your pathetic lies you put on your show.  my lungs take in air an breath out dark smoke slowly leaving. i scream in my dreams from you posining me while i sleep. your ****** lies tea m life apart. all i can feel is strangleing you to shut the **** up u have traped me under my skin and i cant scream cause i will expole with pain. not even the most stronges pain killers could take the stuberness under my own skin

n o one can hear the screams cause if u do u wont know what will hit you off your feet

my limits have no fear
cause under my skin i scream
what do i do when some one took my only hope
all i can do is scream is when my own life flashes
is there any thing i can do
expet ponder for half and hour
will i be alon to fight this world alone
how many days o silence do i have to take
where do i stand when i feel like im drowning threw my or stereo
whats next exept the memories of shadows horriblal
life has limits of silence

i dont know here i stand since all i can do is scream ponder for hours of something great.

am i alone

I feel like my poems have just become a list of complaints but how can I find the beauty in this storm?
No church has ever heard as many prayers as that hospital room that night.
Your life hung in the house like a crucifix or an old family photo.
HOW DID YOU EXPECT ME TO GET THROUGH THIS?????
Did you think your absence would make anything better?
It hurts.
It's killing me.
You left in paragraphs. You said I'd be fine.
But when you left you took me with you.
Now my bathroom floor knows more about me than I do.
Now I see you everywhere. In the halls, in your sister's eyes, our coffee shop. oh God that coffee shop.
Your presence still paints the walls there.
The coffee isn't strong enough anymore.
All I taste is you.

last nights date was fullof colors the red wine staining every snoby watreses white shirt
funny how it only takes our little prank to laugh all rest off the night with our sperits high and our thoughts open. we didnt even get in the door till around 2:00 god knows what. we tryed to be quiet but our laughs can quiet last nights date idk what really happened when i just woke up next to my date half way hung over my mind drew a blank. what did happen cause our room is a mess. my hair is mess and my clothes smell like a horrifying. idk where i was last night just the message i read. we went out on a date witch turned in to hellish pranks that waitor i triped making him get covered in food and the horrable thing that makes you laught so hard you cry

what the hell happened on last nights date

playing every little game getting your hoodie pulled up. messing around. playing ***** pranks tourching me. when i try running she is allways in  the corner following you day and night. im lossing my mind i cant escape her claws that dig slowly deeper as she poles me down to the empty grave.im losing my mind i might be going insaine to the biggest part of the deepest hell. what is left there aint no where to run or hid cause she always knows where my next location is. this psych ***** has taken my life in to her own paranoya game she smuthered me till i can scream no more. every road i cant take cause shell drag with my claws dragging behind. this ****** ***** is making me go insaine with lossing control tearing up the floor. theres no escape from her grasp i think this is the day i know she will end my life

im going to snap from the claw marks that left ripps down my back!!


how many times have i ran idk cause this ******* crap has no road to meaning. i am running from a ****** ***** who cant get her little crush off me.


no place ti hide no place to speak

**** **** **** i cant escap from my ****** ex girl
but there is allways light at the end of the tunnel with a chance to survive




her mom told me her wall is covered in pictures of me in her closet more and more pictures she took with her phone. i dont know how to escape to the next town cause she is a shadow with a messed up twist she has t shirts and pants and every thing with my picture and name on it.

when she is at school she hands out patitions to get us back to gather.

im gone mad less every thing is she cant let go of me cause she is only attrakted to the freaky **** of me  theres no escape AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!