Angle Angel

Angle Angel Dec 2020

//.:.//

To those I loved:

I— (blank)

I’m sorry, I was trying to express my emotions but my brain just wiped my thought process.

Angle Angel Oct 2020

.....

And I remember watching that stupid movie

It had so many awards

Nothing scary had happened but the darkness it projected made me anxious

You held me

You held me during

You held me after

But even then,
Though comforting,

I still don’t love you

Angle Angel Feb 2020

Forget

I'll never forget her first synth

4:00 pm

& The streetlights are on

I don't know

It makes me anxious for several non-specific reasons

I'll say,

                 She floats

& now when I hear this

I'll see do not cross signals waving behind car exhaust

                                                 Is this peaking?

#memories

Angle Angel Nov 2019

Container

The way you grabbed the cigarette from me

Your hand slightly curved

You put it to your mouth

You say, ‘My heart hurts but I feel empty.’

I’ll tell you that you’re a container

#heartbreak #sad #empty

Angle Angel Jun 2018

A thought

Between a plane & a star

I think about the parallels

I am walking there,
While I am walking back

My thoughts remain dense
& I echo the word in my head until it starts to yell back

While trying to place myself,
I've stumbled

& With a reach away
There is another mind

But remain separated by our apathy

I am another opinion
I am another thought

I am everything
& I am nothing

#city #depression #identity #apathy

Angle Angel Feb 2018

A while

It's been over a year
Then said,
I feel like we'll know each other for a while
Then said,
You're soft
No,
Not like that,
Just soft
I want to wrap my arms around you all the time
& tell you that,
Even in a world of complicated choices I find a solid ground when next to you
I lov-
I can't say it
But
I enjoy your company
Glancing at you makes me smile
& I hate having emotions tied to another human
Just don't break me
I am fragile and crack easily
& Unwillingly I am attached to everything you're about
Can we drive up the canyons again
& point out the houses that sit in isolation from the world
Picture ourselves escaping from siren filled streets
& A starless sky
& Talk about how the world is dying but nothing matters anyways
Let's drink wine on your couch again
& We'll slowly begin to lean over each other
After all this,
I hope we will know each other for a long time

#love #complicated #isolation #emotions

Angle Angel Jan 2018

New Year Same Me

Stand by me as my knees give out from the constant blows life gives me.

01/02/2018:

My chopsticks didn’t break apart normally

& I keep thinking that it’s an omen for the upcoming year.

I want to be unnoticed but crumble under lack of attention.

I am split between being loud

& being a whisper.

My tears no longer have a meaning;

They are just tired now.

I will crawl in my bed

& lay awake thinking that everything is stupid.

& I’ll hope you’re not like light

& I won’t sneeze when I look at you.

Both our misery together will be platforms to stand on while we light our cigarettes during break;

Our emotions will harmonize when we lay them out.

From the side with the sun setting,

you looked like a 3D shadow laying on the grass.

& Then we heard those screams from a crowd running around an RV in the park.

Uninterested;

Snapped the moment as a memory and moved on

& years later, I still flip through my mind to find the picture.

Remembering a time when I wasn’t bothered.