They say life's a dream, call this insomnia.

Everyday is a new day loving the change
Not the person you remember
Being more like me and better
Broke free of the pain
Lots of positive gain
I don't hate you but treasure the good times
You don't know me so why do you hate me
You hurt me and mad because I refuse to let your lies phase
I'll always be better even when you think you have me beat
Not sitting around crying waiting for you to return
Having trust in you is the 3rd degree burn

I never know till I try
We have great love but no more than friends
One feels more that the other
Not able to express these emotions
It might ruin what is but is this risk worth the outcome
This can be a great gain or a tragic loss
Both determined parallels not determined to intersect
These thoughts of neglect hard to forget
Something more but settling for less not trying to obsess
Consumed by work one another kept apart

silence won't let me sleep
though the screaming will never cease
its a welcome sound
the quiet
leaves
to much room
for my thoughts to go round

remember the time
we, together, cried
it was winter
as i recall
i remember the chill
still feel the cold
it remains
along with the frigid tears
frozen in time
our hands
numb
if only the pain could mimic
the snow came down
like the falling sound
of our footsteps
on the icy ground
running
together
we shared one pair of gloves
we shared
a pair of souls

some of us are not afraid of dying
some of us are afraid of living

the world is not spinning
its spiraling
d
     o
        w
            n
our spirits go
         p
     u
but its never enough