When you fade then die
I promise to take you
take you to
the most wonderful place on earth
and in this secret place of dreams
I mean to give you my life force

Then when the sun cries morning
I mean to beat the hell out of fate
for it has been cruel to you
and nearly destroyed me
so I promise my sweet brother
to take you to the most wonderful place on earth
for I love you too much
and can't let you go

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The forbidden fruit was always you.

And as for all the **** that you said you'd never do,
you did it,
didn't you?

my wet hair is slicked across my shoulders

it's liquid in the wind flipping out the car window in an unkown city

my eyes are bloodshot and burning like acid from my mistakes

the emerald of my eyes catches the light of a hundred moons

my body lies in twisted sheets and stained pajamas in a tiny bed

but my heart lies in another world where my adventure know no bounds

*a.l.n.

I want to love blindly, I want to live life like I was dying.
I want to do things that would scare other people.
I want to live a life dangerously for my God Jesus.
Because you are not really living until you walking in faith.
By trusting that Christ is protecting you everyone.
That wants to **** you, this way people will see that I do love them.
To show them that Christ is my God and that he is protecting me.
That my faith in him is genuinely real and so is he.

Food trucks make me nervous
Trying new things makes me nervous
looking people in the eyes makes me nervous
eating in front of people makes me nervous
noises at night make me nervous
the dark
the silence
being alone
being in crowded spaces
open landscapes
tight constraints
freedom
dogs barking
cats hissing
one on one conversations
large group situations
getting help
the thought of staying like this
dying
staying alive
Me
I make myself nervous
but I can't help it