I stare at my laptop screen waiting for ideas to form in my head
Emotions are coming but my words can’t be contained
Hatred, disgust, betrayal swirled like the storm
My heart and my brain needs some reform

One question was stuck in my mind,
Why do they make you feel important but still leave you behind?
I asked myself “Was being with me just a game?”
Why do people find it hard to remain?

I have the right to ask specially when I’ve given them parts of me
Parts that I shared though I know I will need them eventually
Gave them shards of my heart though it was broken,
My encouragements, my kind words were my love’s token.

You know, these heartbreaks may come anywhere, everywhere-
Your mom, your dad, your aunt, your pet, your best friend
They could all leave you in the middle of nowhere
The sad thing is, even in their minds, you could find yourself dead.

To prevent this, follow my one and only rule.
Don’t get attached
Don’t tie the string if they’re going to loosen it up and leave.
Don’t build bridges to reach them when they haven't done anything to be with you.

Don’t get attached for in the end they would all leave you
You're going to be alone with your thoughts and feelings
Feelings that seem so strong but no one cared for
You'll just pity yourself like never before.

Your touch is fire,
my body a forest.
Together we burn,
we touch and turn.
The night is young,
our hands roam everywhere.
Hearts palpitating,
-desire waking.

Silk blouse now gone,
body at your dispense.
Skirt is now lifted,
how talented.

Your mouth is breeze,
gives me foreign shivers.
Taking me higher,
makes me quiver.
Nibbled my neck,
pure lustful ecstacy.
-You found the sweet spot,
showing no mercy.

Blows continue,
you show me your skills.
Intertwined our hands,
while our tongues dance.

Your body is heaven,
my piece of wonderland.
You pulled my hair,
taking me there.
You own my body,
willfully surrender.
Pushing it harder,
I slowly shudder.

The light's now out,
Warm body against mine.
Lay with me and rest,
sweet valentine.

Your deep stare unveils the secrets I have kept for so long
Every flick of your eye strips me down to my bra and thong
Naked and raw, I find it hard to lie
My scars, my imperfections become the apple of your eye
Now you see the reason I won’t tell my dad that my mom is cheap and easy
That every Friday night she hides in another man’s blanket while he is busy
-With workloads of paper he has to finish to bring home money
Yes, he was less of a husband but he was a provider than any of her men could ever be.
You told me I should free myself from what I know
But this is the only family I have, I have nowhere else to go.
Now you see the reason that I let the guy- the only guy I loved
-find his way out of my life and build new memories with a new crowd
It’s because he was unhappy, and she was the only thing that could make him feel good.
That is why I set him free, like every true lover would.
I felt so broken, you told me that this I shouldn’t regret
But I am always hoping that one day he’d end up with me instead.
Your deep words echo into my unwavering soul
Making love to my mind, sending me to an ******* fantasy
Slicing my insides like a dull knife, making my head go crazy
Piercing through every vain, making me remember that I am living in regret
Every whisper lingers in my head and makes me want to take a bullet
But without your words, I know I’d still end up dead.
With those words, you told me once that I am a woman of independence
-that I imbibe strength of character
But every wall I built you managed to tear down and shatter
You make me fall short and I even surrender
You uncover my secrets faster than I learn them, in my mind you create a mayhem.
A giant twister of ideas I could put into paper but before I even put it, you’ve already read them.
As I run out of ideas, I remembered the way you looked at me
Like I was a piece of deep and emotional poetry
Captivating and enchanting yet full of misery,
That moment your eyes were so skeptic but kind,
Making me confused or am I just blind?
Blind from all the hints you’ve dropped, Deaf to the sound of my heart
Numb from all the emotional beatings
You expose my body and my soul, you take me willingly as a whole
I’ll let you take everything though only a piece was left
I’ll let you lust for me, please make me lose my breath.
As I end this poem, I want to make you feel the same way.
I want to make you give in to the pleasure-ride with me in the storm
A storm that started the moment you stripped me out of every piece of my clothing
Now, let me be the one to take yours off and see you blushing
I’ll uncover every inch of your secrets, expose your every desire
I want to see if you could handle this raging fire
But deep inside I know you’d have the control in our little bedroom game
And I ‘d still be the one who’s tied in your bedpost frame.