i try to convince myself that things aren’t temporary.
that you won’t disappear after some time.
tell myself your heart won’t stray,
our souls won’t unravel from each other.
our bodies stay braided together where they fit so perfectly.

i want to fool myself into trusting we’re different,
we won’t fall apart.
we won’t be a distant memory that sends a shiver through your body and hits your heart stronger than those before.

i want to believe.

i want to love.

i want to last.

i have re-written myself a million times,
tried to find who i am in between lines,
but i’m still clueless.

this sadness in my heart may not last forever,
but it sure seems like it’s here to stay.

our love was tragic.
a hard passion,
tossed aside.

to be
drunk and in love
is something i wish to share with you,
and only you for the rest of my days.