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^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ MENTAL-HEALTH
your brains gravity
When it’s missing
your mind is gone
Outer space
rotating in orbit
Thoughts of self hate
you're afraid to be yourself
Always trying to be someone everyone wants
you to become
So you fit in
where you can get in,
that’s no life to live
FOR ANYONE OR YOU
Where’s the self-love?
A foundation of
self-worth
you can build from
Lost in translation
You can find one!
"No you can't"
says your subconscious
speaking a dangerous language
Crowded contradiction
mixed with
clouded values
Not aware of
the disarray
because your whole life
you have been this way
Born a star
shinning bright
with each day and night
they took the sparkle
little by little
out of your eyes
and every year
you began to fade
Until now
and it seems
The dream
became a nightmare
and you've faded
all the way away from anything that resembles yourself from back in the day
when you felt okay
but now you don’t
and won’t ever
it seems
no matter
the whispers you hear
of a different pattern
waiting for you
to jump ship to
but out of fear you’ll drown , you remain stuck abroad
a battling one
knowing you can fight
just fine, all the hits and adjectives you’ve taken to the flesh and ears both relaying to the heart your worthless still hasn’t broken you yet
So why chase a possible outcome that might lead to positive change? or it could cost you your life? But isn’t YOUR LIFE, COSTING YOU YOURSELF?and then the doubt kicks in , the door is wide open and that scares the hell out of you:
BEING VULNERABLE
so you quickly slam it closed and put the chain and bolt through the receiver as you twist and turn the deadbolt and lock on the doorknob , falling to the floor sitting indian style against it with your head down
This is where you
feel the most comfortable
But yet: THERE'S
A WHOLE WORLD OUT THERE but it doesn’t matter! Because regardless your heart and passion your mind just can't fathom
the fear of loss for hope to gain, You're a train wreck and it’s not your fault but **** it you must deal with it because the real culprits don’t give two ***** about the mental warfare they started and left you to handle
But you aren’t willing to grasp it , your mind can’t wrap around what needs to be done
You keep questioning every thought that might lead to somewhere more positive , the bad always outweighing the good so you justify staying the same and remaining a pawn in the victims chess game
Serving a life sentence of giving into a past that is behind you and forgetting about the future ahead of you out of fear of your own thoughts ....... lost.... hurt ... insecure..... bitter... mad....angry....unworthy...sad...decided....undecided...?????
????????????????????????????????????????????????????You can’t make up your mind , hostage to the comfort of bad patterns not realizing a whole other side to this dark spectrum , not understanding why? , not realizing a change necessary to carry the burdens and discard them, but you keep giving up on yourself as a result of lack of confidence
Why do these feelings always work against you? , you ask yourself . Does anyone care?and the answer is : never as much as you do about yourself!
So why won’t you quit giving up and give in? , why keep sitting head down in the comfort of your sorrow dreaming for tomorrow to come and it be different knowing you’ve remained the same? Versus standing tall , head up and taking today and making it your own so tomorrow will follow today’s lead and today’s grief tomorrow becomes yesterday’s pathetic sad story and tomorrow marks the beginning of the new chapter filled with battles and disaster but as a result of the pursuit to happiness and laughter
So get up off your *** and quit feeling sorry for yourself and make today’s problems tomorrow’s yesterday’s and tomorrow’s story a happier one than today’s or NOT , it’s only your choice to make!
👇YES, ONLY YOU!!