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6d · 34
Now's Different
RobbieG 6d
My life has been a crockpot of mixed emotions all stewing together

Without any taste of the familiarity of each ingredient alone

The comfort of them all together creates a vibe felt forever

Before I found myself, within fake walls that weren't my home

"I KNEW NO BETTER, NO BETTER AT ALL, UNTIL NOW! "
Jan 8 · 49
Conditioning Causes
RobbieG Jan 8
Life conditions us
We condition life
What condition are you?
What condition is life?
Conditional statements
Conditional questions
Conditional answers
Conditionally speaking
that is........
Jan 8 · 47
Purpose
RobbieG Jan 8
Created to create
RobbieG Jan 8
I'm feelin froggy
dropped the bad habit
left it standing
dine and dash
I don't owe you nothing
I spent many years
That only led to many fears
And it appears, I've had enough , I can't stand it , I never planned it , but 32 years taken from me , IM tired of being disappointed... I WANNA BE PROUD OF WHO I AM, no more allowing sickness , change couldn't be quick enough , I had to learn patience , it can't come overnight but the flaws to numb the cause can be instant, madness Abra cadaver it's not magic R.I.P you becoming the best you could be , I cannot flee me, I rather be lonely and working on becoming somebody than rely on continuing to be a narcissist feeding off bad energy from a relationship , who am I, I cannot blame others for my past pain, I must change who I am before I can provide happiness for myself, useless cause, IMPOSSIBLE but I must end this madness and this poem on a positive note, WE ALL HAVE GREATNESS , WE MUST JUST FIND IT , ITS WITHIN OUR PURPOSE , NOT ALWAYS ON THE SURFACE , KEEP FINDING TO GROW AND BE A LEADER TO HELP FIND IT FOR OTHERS, BE STRONG FOR ONE ANOTHER ! that's what's weighing heavy on my heart .
Jan 8 · 46
Admittance
RobbieG Jan 8
I'm going through a selfish stage
but this is my change

I don't mean to be rude
but I finally feel important

I know what I need to do
so I just need to focus

I apologize to those that
I have made feel unnoticed

It's not on purpose so
please don't take it personal

I'll overcome this phase
and be way stronger

I'll become someone better
and be way more supportive

I'm going through a selfish stage,
you deserve better

My ultimate goal is
to become that for you

I don't mean to be rude
but I finally feel worthy
Jan 8 · 366
Dear
RobbieG Jan 8
One year my dear
and one month
since I last saw you
One year my dear
and three months
since we broke up
I still miss you
Four years my dear
and one month
of me messing up
with no improvement
I really let you down
However many years
and months my dear
It takes you to reconsider
I'll be waiting for you
and our lost love dear
until you're actually
really mine dear
I will always miss you
Dec 2021 · 61
Vulnerable
RobbieG Dec 2021
No more training wheels
Life is filled with many falls
Always get back up
RobbieG Dec 2021
There's a world of distractions, there's a world of temptations, there's a world of problems and it's no longer my concern....  

Within these worlds is the world that really matters, it's the world I call home, it's the world where I'm a father....
Dec 2021 · 48
BAD MOVE.....I lose
RobbieG Dec 2021
...............I        ​​​​O      I      O
              I                  I
...............I..................I...............
       ­       I                  l
     X       I        X       l      X
...................................................
    ­          I                  I
              I                  I­      O
              I                  I

​​​​​​TIC TAC FOE

I trusted you
enough to let you win
You broke my heart
when you purposely lost
Our love
Dec 2021 · 50
Safe
RobbieG Dec 2021
Contagious energy
provides gravity
Creates comfort
becomes contagious
Dec 2021 · 35
Us
RobbieG Dec 2021
Us
Old Orchard Beach
cold fall day
Couple massages
psychic reading
Elegant dinner
small cabin.....
i miss us
Dec 2021 · 24
UKNOWN
RobbieG Dec 2021
Blood dyed brain.... Colored hair.....   The chemicals seep in ......creepin inward..... Steep the thoughts punch-drunk from the new look to come
Head burns chemical reaction motivated by desire to be more attractive, feel better changing the image of who you are......
Who are you ?
Dec 2021 · 73
Lovely
RobbieG Dec 2021
Perpetual bliss
warming kiss
Perfect harmony
warming melody
We belong together
Dec 2021 · 43
Love Trigger
RobbieG Dec 2021
Beast mode move-da-go
Control move mode-da-pick
Automatic quick-draw-reload
These thoughts are Real
this subconscious moves quick, cross thoughts with all possible outcomes, highest percent with less recourse'''''move-da-pick, fight the beast tempting you to stay
forward'''''''move-da-go"""""to move-da-gone""""" Switch OFF
Confused the thoughts become when love becomes involved..... An ocean of flaws, an ocean of thoughts but her heart I forever remained lost in, amongst the world""" her world I want to belong to  
Subconscious powers down , ignore all threats , I give up .... Stay put!!!!!! move-da-go"""""move-de-nied!  FAIL
RobbieG Dec 2021
How do bills get passed ?
Dead presidents
make the bills.
LOOK AT THEIR POCKETS!
Haiku
Dec 2021 · 40
Our Relationship
RobbieG Dec 2021
Went from the PRESENT  
Moving into the FUTURE
Now PAST-TENSE,
SHE'S GONE!
RobbieG Dec 2021
She sees in him what he wishes to see in himself but cannot
​​
He's never been looked at
with compassionate eyes

She understands his pain
from his childhood past

He wants to love her back
but just doesn't know how

With time a void is made
separating them apart

She promised to be patient
and never to leave his side

He noticed a bitterness start to grow within her loving eyes

She just couldn't look at him the same anymore like before

He just needed more time but she was tired of being patient

She couldn't comprehend thirty years of trauma being built up

He was crushed when she left him, losing her support

She really loved him at one point but not anymore

He knew better and felt dumb for finally trusting someone

Mistakes were made along the way to add to the pain

She started to believe he was a lost cause and wanted out

He hit rock bottom and was covered in horrible doubt

Love cannot conquer all, it's just not the bitter truth

She still thinks about him to this day and their relationship

He still misses her dearly but knows the damage is done

They both dance with the what ifs but refuse to call

She took a part of him she will forever have and keep

He took many lessons and pieces of her love to hold

The love shared will forever love on although they will not

She gave him hope and new strength from the tough-love

He gave her strength to stay true to who she was

BOTH LEARNING TO LOVE THEMSELVES MORE

FROM THE PAIN OF THEIR TRAGICALLY LOST LOVE

THEY BOTH STILL HURT THEY BOTH STILL CRY

BUT TO THEMSELVES THEY BOTH HAVE VOWED

THEY MUST MOVE ON FROM THE PAIN AND GROW

THEY JUST CANNOT DO IT TOGETHER, LIKE HE HAD HOPED FOR  

LOVERS LOST LOVE,
HEARTBREAK-WARFARE
Dec 2021 · 36
MAN"DATE"
RobbieG Dec 2021
I won't speak for you
but I can guarantee you
​​​​​​ I'm not one to force

I fight for freedom
My life will be lost before
an injection forced

It is my body
I won't ever give into
being dictated

My Great Grandfather
left the old Czech Republic
before allowing

Communism to
decide his families fate
It won't be in vein  

I pay my taxes
I follow the many laws
SO LEAVE ME ALONE

I will not conform
to any date you may set
and decide for me

It is my body
it is my choice to decide
I'm drawing the line !
Haiku Run
Dec 2021 · 33
Where's Your Faith
RobbieG Dec 2021
HAVING FAITH ISN'T
DOING EVERYTHING
IN YOUR POWER
TO LIVE LONGER
IS IT?
IF YOU TRUST
THE LORD
THEN WHY NOT
HIS SCHEDULE?
THE SAME
GOVERNMENT
THAT WONT
ALLOW KIDS TO SAY
"ONE NATION UNDER GOD"
DURING THE
PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE
IS THE SAME GOVERNMENT
THAT IS MANDATING VACCINATIONS.......
THE SAME GOVERNMENT
CONTINUOUSLY TRYING
TO SEPERATE
CHURCH FROM STATE!
IM NOT
A RELIGIOUS PERSON
BUT I DO BELIEVE IN
AN IMMUNE SYSTEM
FOR THOSE THAT ARE RELIGIOUS....IT WAS GOD GIVEN AND CREATED!!!!
I SENSE CONTRADICTION
SOMEWHERE......
MASKS PREVENT US FROM BECOMING IN CONTACT WITH COVID-19, BUT GOD CREATED US MASKLESS KNOWING WE WOULD COME INTO CONTACT WITH ILLNESS AND FORM A TOLERANCE THROUGH THE SICKNESS BY COMING INTO CONTACT.....HUH?
WHAT'S THE MISSING VARIABLE TO PREVENT THIS FROM MAKING SENSE.....
LINING THE BIG PHARM COMPANIES AND GOVERNMENTS POCKETS!
I DO BELIEVE IN FREEDOM AND RIGHTS! FOR THOSE THAT BELIEVE THE DEATH TOLLS ARE THE CAUSE FOR THE MANDATES, KEEP IN MIND MORE DEATHS ARE CAUSED BY OTHER ISSUES THAT ARE CURABLE WITHOUT MEDICINE BEING INVOLVED .......
PLEASE GET IN LINE AND HELP LINE THE POCKETS OF THE ONES THAT ARE CONTINUOSLY TRYING
TO SEPERATE YOUR CHURCH FROM STATE!
IS YOUR FAITH IN SCIENCE OR IN GOD? SCIENCE HAS CREATED WEATHER CHANGING TECHNOLOGY, CLONING ABILITIES, IM SURE THOSE CORRESPOND WITH RELIGION AMONG MANY OTHER TOPICS......
​​​​WWJD?
Dec 2021 · 25
Score Board
RobbieG Dec 2021
Scars on a body
like tally marks
on a chalkboard
More to come
before I'm done
these lines provide
COMFORT
Or so I thought
they come with
an expensive cost
Lost battles and
irreplaceable time
but I must keep
SCORE
Scars on a body
like tally marks
on a chalk board
More to come
before I'm done
these lines provide
REFLECTION
Dec 2021 · 27
Melting Popsicle
RobbieG Dec 2021
I tried
really freaking hard
tongue tied
no reply
Looooong sighhhhh
brain fried
emotions discard
to the side
soul died
problems pryed
whyyyy God whyyyyy
I quit
throw the towel in
straight lit
burned wick
both sides
feelings hide
no room to sit down
heart lied
Im tired
fired up
sirens ruuuuun
I'm done
nine one one
collapsed lungs
life stung, brung
hung subconscious
abnoxious mindset
gifted talent
captive to flesh
I'm not who I am
befriend reflections
selections made
parts played
patterns stayed
when will I feel
okaaaay saaaaay
sooooon pleeeease
hellp deal, steal me
awaaaay, todaaaay
this isn't a game
regain trainwreck
breathing becoming
difficult, hurting
flirting with death
chest caved in
slaved to
past pain
insane within this
membrane...laaaaaame
saaaaame, aaaage old
situations, validations
never appearing promising
pinky swear mixed with glares cares go unnoticed
clouded with distortion
darkness stares
fares piling up
tolls avoided
polls divided
anger subsidized
privatized issues
tissues  by the box full
absorbing alcohol
leaving dryness from
lack of softness
this is a mess
where's bounty
quicker picker upper
pieces shattered
heart splattered
eyeliner upside down
war paint
this kind, this mind
of mine, not for the
faaaaaaaint, aaaaaint
you feeling better
from my ugly treasure
no map necessary
these valuables planted
at my feet, repeat, download
discrete ***** matter
scatter this out, doubt
trapped inside and out
leave this world
in a body bag
blood fills up
the well to hell
your asking to much
for your soul
reeeeetreeeeat, defeeeeeat
no compete clause
floss the debris
these traumatic non-diplomatic, sporadic, hypnotic, anti-value, shattered glass.....moral compass, failure to launch, trigger pulled grenade.....explode
ticking time bomb
threats, let's set this off
battles scatter, wars pour
from the door
knock hard
go away, today now, gone
not not double negative these words fumbling from a fragile brain, train the waves never to leave the bubble, keep them coming, stop running in the hall, tall mental strain, short fuse, trapped abuse, hung from the nooose...traveling by caboooooose looooose the
attituuuuude, duuuuuude
rude , quiet down, riot stuck
no luck , inside voice now, how laaaaaame, taaaaame
yourselfffffff, helllllllllp meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
screeeeeeeeeeeeeam
meeeeeeeeeeeeean
gleeee­eeeeeeeam
but don't shine
bright, light ignite
charcoals refuse
infuse substance abuse
now that's a flame
comfort warms
comfort warns
delay of reaction
two hour delay
recess school's out
I learned all the **** they didn't teach me THE HARD WAY
literally fade the black cascade , fake brovado
middle class movado
bravo , he go round and round, rodeo , big steer, lightyears ahead, bread, loafs of lacked love, feast on these carbs, toast, spread , peanut butter jelly time, slime , lime placed on the rim, keep em coming , I'm fuming at the ears , fears, peers not had, relatable a false illusion to bitter for babysitter to keep an eye on , funded friendship for future fam, **** this is alot of slots to fill up with cots of thoughts sleeping ....laid to rest, r.i.p this minute in 61 seconds it'll be over , can't stop the world from turning but can leave it for good, rocket juice, who's coming with , plastic tubes room temperature placed in a freezer box once but now removed , melting cheer to frowns just look in the mirror ! MAN DOWN
RobbieG Dec 2021
I'm undercover
​​​​​​spying on myself
Im in the trenches
Studying self

Relapse called
so I answered
or so relapse thinks
I'm pretending

Here now
at the bar
sober and ordering soda
Looking around

Focusing on
all the people
wondering why it is
So comforting

Really pathetic
as I watch
everyone drown their sorrows
With alcohol

Relapse suspicious
Knowing that I'm
not even buzzed yet
Sudden change

I order
another drink quickly
chugging my first one
Acting normal

This mission
is super successful
because I'm surrounded by
Deadly temptation

I remain
loyal to myself
realizing I want to
Forever change

We must
study ourselves thoroughly
in order to implement
Sustainable change

I want
to keep learning
earning my progress properly
Battling pain

Relapse lost
this familiar battle
my only hope is
To teach

​​​​​Documenting everything
I experiment with
to find real solutions
That work

Others suffer
just as bad
if not, even worse
Truthfully speaking

Strength required
to accept yourself
when you feel worthless
It's difficult

First step
among many more
many exercises I did
To help

I'll document
this whole journey
I'll post my battles
And victories

With honesty
the good, bad
and the ugly, all
To relate

Mental-Health
a curable cancer
but not by medicine
But rather

With love
with caring compassion
with acceptance and understanding
With reflection

With battling
with self-studying
with desired change wanted
And motivation

With __
still to be
determined and self-discovered
To be..........
Dec 2021 · 85
Materialistic World
RobbieG Dec 2021
Ninety percent of
what we strive to provide is
NOT NECESSITY
Dec 2021 · 29
Easy as 1,2,3...A,B,C
RobbieG Dec 2021
1 joint
2 shots
3 beers

A
Bad
Combination

1 driver
2 drunks
3 killed

A
Bad
Crash

1 life-sentence
2 different charges
3 families affected

A
Bad
Choice
Dec 2021 · 23
Brutal Honesty
RobbieG Dec 2021
.............11  12   01
         10                02
      09         ?            03
        08                   04
            07   06   05

Go ahead and plan out every minute of your day, I don't recommend it because : UNLIKE YOU, plans do change!
Dec 2021 · 210
Crowded
RobbieG Dec 2021
🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊
🌊🌊🌊An ocean of🌊🌊🌊
🌊🌊CONTRADICTION 🌊🌊
🌊🌊amidst a mind🌊🌊🐠
🌊🌊🌊the size of a🌊🌊🌊
🌊🌊🌊FISH BOWL🌊🌊🌊
🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊
RobbieG Dec 2021
Well back in the day....
we were mandated to wear 
diapers on our heads
Dec 2021 · 40
Unique Differences
RobbieG Dec 2021
Different reactions 
to similar situations 
Different pain
from similar heartbreak
Different decisions 
for similar scenarios
Different answers 
for the same exact questions 
Yeah it's safe to say we all are Different in our own unique way, so let's not judge, so let's not compare because the reality is.....
IT'S JUST NOT FAIR
Dec 2021 · 23
Mindset
RobbieG Dec 2021
Relapse around the corner, real laps around the coroner, I'm tired of running, better yet ill just sit and ponder, what is it i desire, yellowish oranges burns to blue, I cannot keep playing with fire, I'm tired of pretending change is on my mindset, rewind......Revisit goals, revisit hopes, maybe wishes do come true if you really try, I want this disease behind me, the rearview had never looked good but it doesnt mean it can't with time, relapse denied.... What do I have to lose, its all gains ahead, regardleds the outcome: IM GONNA TRY
Dec 2021 · 22
Useless
RobbieG Dec 2021
Im a tree without any branches, I have nothing to offer, not even shade, how pathetic, no wonder I keep getting cut down, I hate my roots!
Dec 2021 · 72
Where's My Rainbow🌈
RobbieG Dec 2021
Happy thoughts are to sunshine as teardrops are to rain, someone better tell Noah to build another ark, before my world gets flooded
Dec 2021 · 53
If...
RobbieG Dec 2021
If steps could be retraced?
if actions could be erased? 
if words could be replaced?
Would you let me come home?
Because I would relive it all, if thats what it meant, to get one more minute with you. Would you let me?
Dec 2021 · 26
Logic vs Feelings
RobbieG Dec 2021
These beats get
further and further 
apart with this 
bitter cold heart 

Her angelic warmth 
the perfect temperature 
to tame temperments 
well not anymore 

Sore loser I remain 
love isnt a game
my soul screams for 
her name its only 
hope for this heart 

It's out of tune 
its out of luck 
my mind reminds myself 
there still is hope 
dont give up yet 

My heart replies back 
"not true, f#ck that" 
"she's forever gone dude
lets not go skipping 
beats out of tune"

"Who cares anymore man?"
the mind replies back 
"we lost our purpose 
whats left to love for 
shes something special "

"AND WE BOTH F#CKED IT UP I couldve been more thoughtful, you couldve been more compassionate, we lacked communication between us two, now your off tune and im stuck with these regretful thoughts,You're in unbelievable pain and I'm in a bad mental state, Were both at rock bottom but lets agree we are not CONFUSED, WE CHASED HER AWAY"(mind)

"Easy for you to say mind, you base things off logic, im over here drowning in these mixed feelings, emotions and lost love! Where was your logic when we still had a chance ? JUST PLEASE SHUT-UP and let me miss my love ."(heart)
Dec 2021 · 31
HEARTBREAK HoRRoR
RobbieG Dec 2021
..................HoRRoR
         GONE
                 AGONY
          FEAR
                 TEARS
        TOMB
                 REALITY
         LOVE
                 AFFAIRS
         TOOK

HEARTBREAK HoRRoR
 GONE, her presence replaced with AGONY and FEAR, TEARS pouring out ever since, My heart remains hers in HEARTBREAK HoRRoR's TOMB, The REALITY is: She really loved me but her LOVE wasn't enough to conquer my neglected past AFFAIRS,
HEARTBREAK HoRRoR TOOK my LOVE
RobbieG Dec 2021
VACCINE 🧀     
!      MANDATE  !
! 🧀  ....................!
!       !
!       !
! 🧀 !...........
!..................🐀

The red, white
                and blue 
land of free
         home to the brave 
Just follow
           the CHEESE !
Dec 2021 · 65
POETRY PROM ...DANCE
RobbieG Dec 2021
.................P
Move      U    and    D
                                 O
                                 W
                              a N d     

Move it all           
   
      d       n
A                   u
       r      o
​​​​​​N

D
          
                                
S~h~A~k~e    

Your hands 
            n
             d        Your feet 

                        ....................
Put one foot !                  !
                       !      IN        !
                       !...................!
and  one foot    OUT 

Then MOVE them all about
   A
     K 
  ONE          Step        RIGHT
                                              H
                                              E
TFEL          PETS               ENO

& Cha Cha real SMOOTH
Dec 2021 · 30
GREED
RobbieG Dec 2021
Insurance purchased for the what ifs, piece of mind, paying for comfort or so you thought 
UNFORTUNATELY 
It really was motivation for, 
someone to take your life 
from the greed of money 
IRONY 
The guilty is always synonymous with the beneficiary 
SCARY 

               YOURS TRULY,                             Your Life Insurance 
                            Policy
Dec 2021 · 67
Change
RobbieG Dec 2021
Year one cannot come 
without day 1 coming first 
You could start today
Dec 2021 · 20
Mask Off
RobbieG Dec 2021
Mass murders, school shootings, serial killers, hate crimes, drug overdoses and suicidal deaths among more etc.
Terrorist organizations 
collecting unemployment 
realizing we will literally 
**** OURSELVES for them,
      when did this become
THE NEW NORMAL ?                        MENTAL-HEALTH 🧠
           AWARENESS 
All the answers lie inside 
the human mind, how many deaths until we realize the importance of studying ourselves and getting help?

That is the question?
Dec 2021 · 94
Next!
RobbieG Dec 2021
Your King is backed in the far corner sensing his death is near, as my pawn makes it to the final black square and says "give me my castle back"
As soon as its returned you take a hesitant step back, my Queen moves abruptly in confidence and looks you in the eyes saying "Checkmate" dear
Dec 2021 · 164
Hands Ignored
RobbieG Dec 2021
Just because its louder doesn't mean its heard better

"Actions speak louder than words"

 

Words would've been heard but your violence forces me TO SHUTDOWN
Dec 2021 · 49
Do You , Would You ?.....
RobbieG Dec 2021
Do you know their battles?
Do you know their war?
Would you help them fight?
Would you help them defend?
THEN WHY DO YOU JUDGE?
 ________
Dec 2021 · 30
Sunday Breakfast
RobbieG Dec 2021
Jack Johnson artist
title "Better Together"
medium volume 
Natural light 
lit the kitchen 
but it didn't matter 
Her presence 
lit my world on fire 
both of us covered in 
PASSION 
Breakfast Sunday morning 
but only after 
we made love 
I couldnt resist her
the woodstove warmed 
THE FLOOR WE ROLLED ON 
The kids all in bed still 
the next story above 
Sunday morning breakfast 
the best meal ever 
because we always 
COOKED TOGETHER 
WITH PASSION 
as the lyrics play

🎵🎶"Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together"🎶🎵
Dec 2021 · 30
Secret..shhhhhhhhhh
RobbieG Dec 2021
An eye for an eye 
you killed, life taken 
your life, life-sentence 
Privatized business 
storage sheds, store cells 
concrete walls and floors 
Privatized profits 
it's all just business 
where's the main focus 
Privatized answers 
no rehabilitation
no help for the helpless 
Private eye for all eyes 
that decide to break the law 
profits soar as crime does too
Privatized Government
who really knows now 
what is going on ?
Well my eyes are wide open 
my ears continue to fear 
words spoken and more so 
the words that are not 
Privatized statistics 
the numbers always fall 
in the direction needed
to feed the viewers views 
from the media noose 
Privatized comfort 
.......no comment........
for this topic.............
Privatized fear
the list goes on 
like Buzz Lightyear 

"To infinity and beyond "

 

Privatized victims 
for the men in power 
you know the filthy rich 
making profits off the 
" PRIVATIZED MARKETS "
Dec 2021 · 37
Evil's Spectrum
RobbieG Dec 2021
Far [                                  ]Far
.......[            HERE           ]...........
left [                                  ] Right

I BELONG TO NONE OF THIS 
   
  IT IS ALL JUST PURE EVIL!
  🔥🔥🔥🔥😈🤵🔥🔥🔥🔥
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Dec 2021 · 32
Rounding Third
RobbieG Dec 2021
A ​Trojan Horse 
wreaked HAVOC on those 
who thought they were 
receiving a gift 
F##CKED

IRONY 

A Trojan name brand 
wreaked HAVOC on them 
who thought they were 
being safe, when it broke 
F##CKED 

TROJAN MAN
Dec 2021 · 42
Fake conversations
RobbieG Dec 2021
Less words more cutting 
I came here to loose my hair 
Not to loose my mind
Dec 2021 · 38
Inflation
RobbieG Dec 2021
Everytthing is bound by gravity it seems except 
Taxes, gas prices, groceries, utilities, materials, etc as they forever and ever soar
Dec 2021 · 31
DECIDE or Hide
RobbieG Dec 2021
🧠
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^    MENTAL-HEALTH
your brains gravity 
When it’s missing 
your mind is gone 
Outer space
rotating in orbit 

Thoughts of self hate 
you're afraid to be yourself 
Always trying to be someone everyone wants
you to become 
So you fit in 
where you can get in,
that’s no life to live ​​​​​
FOR ANYONE OR YOU 

Where’s the self-love?

A foundation of
self-worth 
you can build from 
Lost in translation
You can find one!
"No you can't"
says your subconscious
speaking a dangerous language 

Crowded contradiction 
mixed with
clouded values 
Not aware of
the disarray 
because your whole life 
you have been this way 

Born a star 
shinning bright 
with each day and night 
they took the sparkle 
little by little
out of your eyes 
and every year 
you began to fade 

Until now
and it seems
The dream
became a nightmare
and you've faded
all the way away from anything that resembles yourself from back in the day
when you felt okay
but now you don’t 
and won’t ever

it seems
no matter
the whispers you hear
of a different pattern
waiting for you
to jump ship to
but out of fear you’ll drown , you remain stuck abroad
a battling one
knowing you can fight
just fine, all the hits and adjectives you’ve taken to the flesh and ears both relaying to the heart your worthless still hasn’t broken you yet
So why chase a possible outcome that might lead to positive change? or it could cost you your life? But isn’t YOUR LIFE,  COSTING YOU YOURSELF?and then the doubt kicks in , the door is wide open and that scares the hell out of you: 
​​​​BEING VULNERABLE 
so you quickly slam it closed and put the chain and bolt through the receiver as you twist and turn the deadbolt and lock on the doorknob , falling to the floor sitting indian style against it with your head down
This is where you
feel the most comfortable
But yet: THERE'S
A WHOLE WORLD OUT THERE  but it doesn’t matter! Because regardless your heart and passion your mind just can't  fathom
the fear of loss for hope to gain, You're a train wreck and it’s not your fault but **** it you must deal with it because the real culprits don’t give two ***** about the mental warfare they started and left you to handle
But you aren’t willing to grasp it , your mind can’t wrap around what needs to be done

You keep questioning every thought that might lead to somewhere more positive , the bad always outweighing the good so you justify staying the same and remaining a pawn in the victims chess game

Serving a life sentence of giving into a past that is behind you and forgetting about the future ahead of you out of fear of your own thoughts ....... lost.... hurt ... insecure..... bitter... mad....angry....unworthy...sad...decided....undecided...?????
???­?????????????????????????????????????????????????You can’t make up your mind , hostage to the comfort of bad patterns not realizing a whole other side to this dark spectrum , not understanding why? , not realizing a change necessary to carry the burdens and discard them, but you keep giving up on yourself as a result of lack of confidence
Why do these feelings always work against you? , you ask yourself . Does anyone care?and the answer is : never as much as you do about yourself! 
So why won’t you quit giving up and give in? , why keep sitting head down in the comfort of your sorrow dreaming for tomorrow to come and it be different knowing you’ve remained the same? Versus standing tall , head up and taking today and making it your own so tomorrow will follow today’s lead and today’s grief tomorrow becomes yesterday’s pathetic sad story and tomorrow marks the beginning of the new chapter filled with battles and disaster but as a result of the pursuit to happiness and laughter

So get up off your *** and quit feeling sorry for yourself and make today’s problems tomorrow’s yesterday’s and tomorrow’s story a happier one than today’s or NOT , it’s only your choice to make!
👇YES, ONLY YOU!!
Dec 2021 · 34
TORNADO WARNING!!!
RobbieG Dec 2021
Subconscious winds 
voicing opposite directions 
Emotions temperature 
heated to ice cold 

Thoughts tornadoes 
my heads spinning 
Decisions flawed 
lightning and thunder 

My life 
one big storm 
Mentally speaking 
where's the sunshine 

Unfamiliar weather 
atleast for now 
There's tomorrow 
I remain optimistic 

Regardless now 
weathering these storms 
Regardless now 
weathering these thoughts

My life 
ONE BIG STORM 
My thoughts 
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