I said I loved you and tried to resist marking
inappropriate gestures.
I did love you and I tried to resist.
I said I loved you and said yes when I walked down the aisle with you at your wedding.
I did love you and I said yes again and again in your cheap bed-sit.
I said I loved you and bore you children who would want for nothing.
I did love you and I presumed desire and drive to be an either or.
I said I loved you and I surrendered myself.
I did love you and I surrendered myself.
I said
I did.

..
Will you take a walk with me
Cast your gaze towards the sea
To let the day thaw for a time
And shrug off the moil
For here there is no quarrel
Just the serenity of sweet friendship sublime.

Kiss me in the morning
Soft and dew heavy.
Linger there and let time cease
Insurance for a day’s peace.

..
When I needed you
You were there
Although you didn’t know it
You walked with me
I sensed your shadow
You sang to me
I sensed your air
I decided that you were there too, to protect me
But I was wrong
And it always hurts to fall.

.
I asked you if you loved me.
You declared you did of course.
You bathed me in your holy water
And then shut off the source.

You bathed me in your holy water
To the time that I was clean.
You took possession of my sin
Since then was I redeemed.

You saved me from the living
Stopped walking with the dead.
You bathed me in your holy water
Though you never shared your bed.

I asked you did you love me.
Your answer was, ‘of course’.
You bathed me in your holy water
And then shut off the source.

Dusk falls too early now
and cloaks the land in a
cool monochrome.
Autumn is retreating
giving way to
Nature’s most unkind shift.

Adorn yourself with the
uniform of contentment and
grin like the clown you are.
And look up so you might
stop tripping over opportunity
(while you always look ahead).
Making dividends for Fortune-Tellers.
Tell me, did you
mean for this insipid life
or were you just trying to avoid it?