That I choose to remember you
Despite the way you hurt me
Does not mean anything
But to appreciate how you taught me to heal

I choose to remember you
Not by how you left me
But by how you taught me to never abandon myself

I choose to remember you,
Not by how you broke me
But by how you taught me to rebuild myself

I choose to remember you
Not by how you dimmed my light  
But by how you helped me to shine

I choose to remember you
Not by how you kept me trapped in a place of comfort
But by how you empowered me to leave my comfort zone

I choose to remember you

Not by how you left me feeling weak
But by how you taught me what it means to be strong

I will always remember you
And Not by how you tried to control me
But by how you taught me to be free and trust myself.

I choose to appreciate you
Not by who you told me who I was or what you called me
But by how you taught me to define myself and trust myself

And above all
I choose to remember you
Not by how you were unable to love me
But by how you taught me
To love myself.

I DESERVE BETTER 🙏

Holding on to it for years
Thinking life will seize if i release
But it turned out that it's the most peaceful step one needs to take.

If I can turn back the hands of clock,
I would have make it straight
And live a day as it comes
Making life so tough
When life itself is so fragile

The moon in the sky
Shinning through the window
Shinning her rays in my eyes
Telling me to see the light in the darkness of the night

The rays of the moon is so high
Forcing me to see light reflection of her power
That in my dark experience
The light reflection is enough
To make me realize that
I deserve it all

No matter how dark it is
The Bright lights of the moon
Is enough for my dreams to come through.
And this gives me the peace I ever seek.

What I want
May not be what the Universe planned
What I expected may not come now
But the will surely come
When the time is right

Trusting the process
Standing with what I truly want
Making it known
To the Universe everyday
Thanking Him everytime

When you never think of it
When you've forgotten it all
When you think it's okay
Then the answer will surface
Then you will be fulfilled

It's the way the Universe works.
It's a sign that you've passed the test
It's your rewards for trusting the process
It's the affirmation of your total trust in the Universe.

You called again, I picked again
You promised to stay, but you left unnoticed
I cried again.,for you left again.
Sun turns yellow, All for gain?

Try try again? No never again.
There’s no blame. Just a lesson
Of being a better me.

Get back up ,Try it again
With another name.Ignite a new flame

***** out again,Not a cake
Flame of soul, Someone’s trouble cold
Walking away unnoticed,once glimpse of waywardness noticed

There it goes,Another’s mended soul.
Broken for show
Of a fool I think I was
Thinkin they are in control
Not fully grown
Invisible heart necklace,
But healed and strong

Most painful part,To many hearts
You’ll remember one,One that laughed
Into your eyes.
One that makes you feel like a goddess
That supported your dreams
But turned to be the runner

But they looked back,And shattered it
The soul slithered, Away to hide his fear
No more playing, Had it’s fill

Maybe it’s time,I finally grow
To explore the world without you
Then you’ll know,you'll then understand
Who laughed last, wins the best game

Who got played, And could’ve lasted
But now alone? They are there
But you're alone, Am I sorry?
For it's what you called for yourself.

Well of course,But lessons are there
They surely are.
Who can glow? The healed heart
Well it is,I did implore
To save you,To protect you

I now know, All I got
Was illusion.Was just a dream
Trying to convince myself
But I have gotten it right now
I only have me.

And my peace stands.
For I chose me, myself and I
And I give me a pat on the back
For lessons gotten write.

I cried again.
You promised to be better
You came again
And swallowed your promises

You left again.
Sun went down
All for gain?
With a lot of broken promises

Try try again?
No never again.
There’s no blame.
Same of the same.
For I see you're not even happy
Where you choose

So I will get back up
Try it again
With another name.
Ignite a new flame
Open my heart

***** out again
Not a cake
Flame of soul
Someone’s trouble cold

There it goes
Another’s mended soul.
Broken for show
Of a fool I think I am
Thinking they are in control
Not fully grown
Invisible heart necklace

Most painful part
To many hearts
You’ll remember one
One that laughed
Into your eyes.

But they looked back
And shattered it
The soul slithered
Away to hide
No more playing
Had it’s fill

Maybe it’s time
I finally grow
Then you’ll know
Oh you'll know
Who laughed last
The best game

Who got played
And could’ve lasted
But now alone?
They are there
But you're alone
Am I sorry?

Well of course
But lessons are
they surely are
Who can glow
Who is true?
Well it is
I did implore
To save you
To protect you
I cry not

But you’re unsure
Made you name
Without your consent
I am sorry
There’s no try again.

I now know
All I got
Was illusion
Was just a dream
Trying to convince myself
But I have gotten it right now
I only have me.

Good relationships don't just happen,
They take time, patience
And two people who truly wants to be together.
True love doesn't mean being inseparable, and no flaws.
It just means being separated, accepting each other's flaws,love keeps bonding and nothing changes.

You are the sun that always shine on me every morning
You are the moon I gaze on every evening
My body keeps mentioning your name
And my heart beats for only you.
You are the source of my joy, The center of my world
And the whole of my heart.
If I did anything right in my life, it was because I gave my heart to you and you keep it.

Forever is a long time but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.
Through the best and worst time.
My heart will always remember our beautiful memories.
Not a night goes by without you being in my dreams.
You are the man my soul yearn for
You're my wildest imaginations,
You're my fantasy!

Even though you are far away, you are close to me as my breath.
You bring happiness to my life.
I want you, all of you, your success, your flaws, your mistakes, your imperfections.
I pray you overcome your fears
And wear your confidence which fall in love with them.
But despite it all,
I want you and only you,
Every other thing is a mirage!

You're my forever Go-To

GOODBYE...A BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE

So happy to say goodbye
For I see it pays at the end
No denying
How I wish we are one.
But I have seen a better and loving days .And they have passed

I look forward to see better
For I have to let go of you
And hope for a better day
I thought it'll be so painful
But now I see better

When I look Back,
I feel i was in a cage or prison of love
I couldn't open up to another person
I couldn't allow love to reign
I became a snob
I became a bully and I couldn't even try another soul

My heart is broken into pieces
Waiting for you to mend it
Hoping the bright sun will shine one day
Gradually, hope becomes delay
Year after year, you feel like a fiction that never true

But when I thought our chance had passed,
You saved the best for a minute
Then you reverse the best
You ghosted me for years
You pretend you never care
And I feel it here you're dying for me.

But whenever I say goodbye,
You rushed to hold me back.
But this time around,
I mean my good bye
It's for the good of all

The last you came over
You left a part of you with me
I had your feelings
I ate so much that I got so worried
And my worrisome was proved right

I was carrying the fruit of our love
I was happy but sad at the same time
For I don't know how you'll react
I don't know what you could say
I was so down of insecurities and fear of tomorrow

What will you say?
How will you react?
No one knows
So I looked up to the sky
And dialogue with the Universe
To do the best for me

And then I felt the pain in my below belly and back
I was scared at the same time I was hoping it goes down,And before I know it
The pain takes away My happiness
Though fearful but it's still my joy
But I lost it for good 👍

Now I am free of you
Don't want to look back
Don't want to keep being a loser
Look into my eyes
You will see how tired I am
Where I think my dreams are blurred

Now I close my eyes
For the last time
I hope I will wake up
In a space and time
Where everything is not broken

Don't want to look back
At what I have left behind
I want to move through the cloud
And fly like angels
And taste sweet serenity
Experience sweet love adventurously

A shadow of our love
My memory will be
Heart will continue to look for you
But I know,my good bye
Will worth it now.
For everyone will be better now
For I will be free and happy
Any make life a better place to live.
What a sweet goodbye!

#happygrief #letgoandletgod #waitingforHismagic

Bolaji Olutosin Temilola

It's very hard for people to find their right place in life
It's even harder for them to find their right person
You won't get it because you're still young
But if you find that person,
Don't ever let go.

If you let go of them
Then you'll never find them
The road never end
You can move on your own way
But you'll need a friend to accompany you on that way
Our ancestors once said ;
" Choose a FRIEND before choosing a PATH"
Those who look will find them.

DON'T LET ME GO
I don't want your hope to wither
Justice can't be defeated if words are made of glass
Believe me,I won't forget you my love

Even if you're my hell, I'll rush to you without thinking
Just like the world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me,
Don't let go of me.

For love is my burden and my troubles
Do we give up our happiness just because of stubbornness and ego?
It's not too late for us
For love is our cure

If you still remember without without freezing,
If you can make others feel you by their side while you're alive.
Isn't that a great miracle?

True love won't freeze,
It'll only melt all the ice,
But only when the love is true
But you're unable to see that truth

You're still waiting,but life is passing by my love  
Just like the world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me,
And don't let go of me.

I need to let you go,
Maybe you can see things in a different way

I need to let you be,
So that you can see clearly

I need to let you be so as to pick up yourself

You're are courageous
I trust in you

For I hope you choose your happiness
Which is the most essential

April,
The month that produces a lot of new things.
It is a month that rain blesses the earth 🌎.
It is a month where fresh leaves are erupting to bless the life's of animals, New flowers were blossom to beauty our environment,
New fruits that blesses humans life with vitality and protection for man.

In this beautiful month a legend was born.
The man that is a savior in the world of fashion.
A giant amidst the fashion celebrity. This gift is no other person than you, the love of my life,
ENYINNAYA NATHANIEL, a.k.a PUREST ANGEL 😇.
This is your month and
I blessed God that you were born in this blessed month.

I pray for you to see more of this month in pool of abundance of wealth,health and happiness in abundance and satisfaction.

Happy new month to you my 💕💕💕 and HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🎂🎂🎉🎉 IN ADVANCE.

Oh,Star! Make me bright
Bright as you are
Like a diamond in sky.
Make me bright all the time
Make me a star just like you are

Oh, Star⭐! Make me proud,
Make me a best in all endeavors,
Wish to  be my friend throughout the time
That I trust you with my life

Oh,Star ⭐! Make me the best
In all I do and what i say,
Let my voice be heard
And make me a legend
With you by my side,
All is possible

I don't care how you are
I don't care who you're
I only care for whom I see
What I care for is a true person in you

I don't care where you come from
I don't care where you live
Tribe or race has no place in me
I care for our safety and heart 💜

No matter your color,
No matter your pocket,
No matter where you are
I care for what you love and who you are

I don't care what my people says
Or what your people thinks
I only care for our happiness
I only care for our peace ✌️

Seen in the crowd,and got infatuated with her
Chatted her up, thinking she should be someone else
But alas,she is proud of herself

Proud of her color
Proud of her hair so coarse and short
Looking tangled and curl
Proud of her lean loving body looking like a model

She is so proud to be a woman,a black woman
No need to be artificial.
She so proud to be black and shine
She is a great mother of one by choice
And she is proud with her life.

Black or white,same red blood is running the vein
Black or white same water we drink
I am black,bold and beautiful
I am black and pretty 😍

Emotions feels like a wailing
Of the ocean
Thoughts filling up my head.
Can't keep them all straight.
Maybe I am in my right state
Do I love him, or do I hate him?
Do I want him either way?
Or he is only playing games.

He's all I've ever thought about.
No matter what we have been through. If I held out a little longer, loved a little harder, would all my dreams have finally come true?

I tried my hardest to show him, just how much love I had. I told him,
Severally I assured him
I gave him space,
just to please understand.

When I met you
You're all I've ever wanted,
my dreams come to life.
The unbelievable, undeniable love
My fairy tail love and passion
But then came the sword.

The two eye sword to my heart
When I thought I was finally yours. Not able to be myself anymore.
Hiding behind doors.
Hoping not to ever leave you

Scared to do anything,
Afraid you might get upset.
Losing my soul because he doesn't trust me again.
I find myself constantly confused.
What have I done?
Is loving you a curse

Battling my thoughts.
What happened to him?
Why did this all start
After I opened up my heart
And let him in?
When our happiest of times were ahead of us.
I thought I need to show you to my world
And we must be having a day together.
Hoping he loves me..

He can't think I'm this awful person can he? I don't know what I've done wrong?
I just want it back to when I felt like we belong.  
Never feel I'm good enough for anyone,
No matter how hard I try.
Always thinking I'm doing something wrong,
Sabotage myself and won't allow myself to fly.

I was mad at him for so long, not understanding what happened to us. When all I ever gave him was nothing but my trust.

My love turned to fear and I became scared to go on with Ife. But what am I to do now. I'm feeling so lonely.
Will I ever be enough for him? Will he ever see? My true heart and soul. I just want him forever with me.

All I kept wanting was things to go back to the way they began.
When we were so happy. Always hand in hand.
Although years went by and time has past,
My thoughts of you have managed to last.  

Wondering what if?
What if I just stayed and not accused him?
Would he have finally seen what I've been trying to say?

Will he see I love him with my whole heart? Without him I've been nothing. Feeling ripped apart.
How could he do this to me? Yet still have my heart? There must be something else between us.  Something hiding in the dark.

Asking the universe if he still thinks of me. I just need him for a minute. Please show him to me.
Then after so many years, I finally found you. But now what do I say? What do I do?  I know I need to see you, I need to talk to you.

Tell you my side and hope to know yours. Find some closure for each other. Finally close some doors.
Is that what I want? To close all doors? To never see or hear from you? The thought makes me want you more.

Is it just me that is feeling these things? Or tell me you feel them too. Because not one day has went by that I haven't thought of you.
Now please don't get me wrong, I don't only think of the bad.
I remember all the amazing, loving, treasured moments that we had.

All the times you showed me you loved me. I could see it in your eyes. The way you cared and held onto me, I knew it in my mind.
I knew you were the one for me, with you I would have stayed. You made me feel so beautiful. Every single day.

For that I thank you. For making me feel seen. I just wish you have believed what you seen in the beginning.
I'm just a girl, who got hurt by the man she loves. Never truly forgot him, and this is because...

Because what we had was real. The most real I've ever felt. Our souls created something together, but unfortunate hands were dealt.
I lost so much that day, you see.
The man I loved, myself and my fashion dreams.

Going through that alone was the hardest thing. Not to  understand one ******* thing. No one to empathize with me. I felt so empty. Literally life ripped away from me.

Tried for years to make sense of it,
But I realized letting you go
Is the best solution
Which is feeling more at peace with it now.
Although, ****!
I can't stop thinking about you. But I will work on it.
I can see that the spirit and the Universe has my back.
I will find love again
And I will tell you how I got it back whole?
April 1st 2024

A beautiful Angel from above
And his smile is so bright
His eyes are full of love
He fits perfectly in my heart
My heart were made to hold him
And I was made to love him
He's truly beautiful an Angel from above
His warm kisses are from heaven
And he's safe in my heart
And sheltered inside my heart
Smiling with me every day

Every day spent with him
Is the best part of my life
He always make me feel like a woman
Because I love him, my beautiful hubby,my twinflame,my soulmate,my twin tribe
And sweetheart,
Me without him in my life is like
The sky without stars
The rain without rainbow 🌈

Your face without your beautiful smile
Or a rainbow without colors

And sweetheart, may our days be filled
With forever happiness and joy
Because every day is a dream come true
Because sweetheart I'm
Forever in love with you

DREAMS WILL SURELY PASS.
Looking up to my life.
Seen only your image
Searching my heart,
Seen only Your image and name
Then I know you are my true love in life  

Each day,I fight to stop seen you
But you kept on making ways into my life and heart
And I love you so much
Every day your in my heart.
With me to stay.
You are my best friend in life
My best companion and adventure half

And one day the father of my children. 
 I wonder how my heart always come home
To discuss my day with you in 5D. 
 I see us growing old together.
Having a bright future forever.  

Becoming a life legends
Hand in hand we go watching the sunset
And in the glow of your bright eyes. Watching myself laughing in your pupils
And your special smile killing me softly.  

My gorgeous sweetheart 
 I know that I have found my perfect soulmate in you
Because I love you so much
Even when you're this far
Your love is New in my heart everyday.
And there's a special place for you and me.
Together in my heart we'll be..
....Till Eternity!

When I looked at Life,

I realized it is totally twisted.

No matter how good or bad

Your dreams and plans are,

Life will still have its own to give you

So don't fight it, Don't Force it

Just let it go and allow the Universe to

Make it come to you.

Remember life has no respect for anyone

It gives what it plans

So appreciate what you have

And allow that thing you desire comes to you.







.

I hate every second of hopes
And waiting for an illusion
That is never existing.
Why am I in this?

A Man that is messing up my life
Who never remember me And.....hmmm...
Who seems to never remember I ever lived.
All I got is his brutal lies
And gbam I forgive and let in
But all to see him slip away cowardly.

Smile... I am just a fool...
Remembering everything
And still can't see the reason
Why my life is entangled In this ******* lies.

I hate myself,I hate the time
I spent with you.
I hate you with all my heart and being.
I am fun to be with.

Everyone fights to be with me
But whenever I see the commitment, Boom 💥 I blow it up for no reason. And if I couldn't get them off I blocked them and try to change my location.

What a demon in me!!!
What a wasted time I have been since I know you.

I can't just love somebody
Just because I see their highest timeline.
Who you are has no meaning.
I have to be with who they are right now.

To enjoy who they truly are right now.
For I deserve better
For I am love.
And I deserve truelove
I don't need to sweat it before it comes to me.
I deserve it all

I see pass that feeling of not being able to leave the karmic love.
I see pass my feelings of being detached from love.
So I decided to let go of what does not serve me

I let go without given up.
I let go and make it a dynamic and friends at the same time.
Now I choose to be in love
In absolute romantic and friendly

I am having this new love beginnings
For the love for myself
I am in love deeply in love with my joy
I am in love unconditionally
I have to ensure this 3D experience
Is an evidence always in play.
I let go of all that is not bringing happiness

I watch your mouth,as you're telling me, how you truly feel for me.
I sense your fear while promising
That this time will be a life time.
I tried so hard to believe in all you say,
And my thoughts is proved right after you left.

You left with a reason to think
You left with your heart in your palm
I feel the fear in your face
Even though you left your love behind
You gave me the gap to see who I am
And I am grateful I see it all.

This is why I am letting you go
I am facing the world of my own.
For I know someone out there is aching for me.
Someone who is not scared to be part of me.
I'm going out there to make life better

I will like to see a world without you in it
I will like to understand a heart without you
Don't think I don't love you anymore
Know that our love is eternal
Even when I worked on not thinking about you again.
You're my eternal love infinitely.

Having seen it in a rough way
Knowing waiting is killing you gradually
And looking for the real always end up to heartbreak 💔
Then I succumb to flaunt it
To keep enjoying the moment!

Go for it, babe
For many times when I think I can ler go
I keep trying to do what you tell me and focusing on the brighter future
But the past just keep kicking me in the ***.

So I am off the real
I am on my way to fantasy.
I will explore and enjoy it all.
No more waiting
No more hoping
All I get is having it hot🔥🔥🔥.

Yeah 👍!
That is the new life I am going into.
That's my new beginnings
That's what truly matter now.

I hate every second of hopes and waiting for an illusion that is never existing.

Why am I in this?

A Man that is messing up my life who never remember me and.....hmmm... Who seems to never remember I ever lived... All I got is his brutal lies and gbam I forgive and let in but all to see him slip away cowardly.

Smile... I am just a fool...
Remembering everything and still can't see the reason why my life is entangled In this ******* lies.

I hate myself,I hate the time I spent with you.
I hate you with all my heart and being.

I am fun to be with.
Everyone fights to be with me but whenever I see the commitment, boom 💥 I blow it up for no reason. And if I couldn't get them off I blocked them and try to change my location.

What a demon in me!!!
What a wasted time I have been since I know you.

Waking up today and feeling so ***** like never before.
Tried all I could to be myself throughout the day in service.
Gotten home quickly to work on cooling my body that is on fire of fantasy.
Which has been an ages I have felt like this.
I told the lion that woken up the ghost In me
And he tried to help but has to go.

I slept off while trying to cool the fire in me
And when I woke up,I got a message that you need to go out. Which was so ok for me.
But alas despite the wait to hear your voice which I thought will cool my ache one way or the other,
Then... Boom 💥💥💥..... You have to go!

And the feeling got so hot 🔥🔥🔥 and painful.

Wow.... When I felt nothing we used to be for an hour or more now that I feel so ***** thinking hearing your voice will help then boom 💥💥💥 you're off...
Why love is always hurt?
Why others don't feel the pain?
Why am I always fall into these?

I think I always get it wrong.
And I need to choose me.
Bye!!!

Seen your hi, I can't understand the feeling.
Reading from you make me feel butterflies swinging.
I don't know when I start telling you the truth about me
I talked to you as if I have known you for ages.

You make feel like a woman even without seen you
You feel like home while chatting with you.
You make see through me without seen me.

I bless the day you choose to say hi to me
I thank the Universe for this connection.
I believe this is my new beginnings I have been waiting for.

I wish this feelings become something tangible.
I will love you with all my might

Lately,I got this feelings,
Even if I can't understand it's meaning
But I know it's strong
And it's about you
Because all I want it to be with you
For living without you is nothing.

Most nights, different city with brighter light and melodious music
Which should be pretty
But they can't be compared
To your rhythm and the light from you

Can't wait till you come back home
I know it's late,hold you above the phone.
It's so hard getting on by myself
So call me, leave me messages
At the tone I know.
I know we can make it work
Only for us to communicate

I'm waiting... So hurry back home!!!
Bring the shiny boy,
The confident chap I know.
You better follow the path,
Board the car,bus,train,or go and get a cab or just fly here,jet park
Just ensure you are right here with me.

For I am your puzzle piece,
That you need to solve
So come and solve me.
Our future I see so clear

The Moon,the Star and The Sun
Shine each day telling me it our time
To be happy and rest
So come and take your space,my love.
For I wish you are here
To make the music better
Light more brighter.
For I just wish you are here right now.

When the love is right,there is no clause.
When it's wrong, excuses will be plenty
When love is real, you'll love to wait eternity.
When not real, you'll be eager to move on even without a clause.

No matter the distance or no- contact
The spirit and the soul will only see you so close
For you are what I call a home
Even in your absence I always feel at home 🏡🏡🏡 in your memory.

Whenever I think of losing up,
I always remember your cool eyes
That always reminds me of the shock you are battling with.

This kind of feelings that makes you unsure of your emotions
This look that truly shows your fears and insecurities

This look that makes you feel like running all the time.
This feelings that is killing you gradually that you lost your confidence for.
This feelings that makes you so dump that you can't truly express your true feelings.

I sure recall it all and I got no choice than to succumb to the flow.
I pray 🙏 it worth the wait eventually.
For I realized I can't love any other person the way I love you

Even if I can't see you, I can feel you.
Even if I can't see you,I know you are okay
Being silence doesn't mean I don't think of you, it just means I respect your space and your will.
That's why I succumb to ensure I am happy in whatever I am experiencing.

For you are my heart.
The only one my heart calls his name
The only one that made me loose control of myself.
You are my then,my now and my ever be.
My love for you can't fail. But it will surely wait for you my one and only love.

HER DECISION

She met him on the street
Hustling for white-collar job
Under the scorching heat with dusty feet
She accepted to be his heart throb

Her first visit to his house
She saw nothing but charcoal stove
He lived like a mouse; how could she possibly be his spouse?
She looked into his eyes and gave him love overdose

She watered his head with ideas
She planted wisdom in his heart
She gave him strength and took his weakness
She turned his cart into an art

Days drove into months and months strolled into years
He stood on his feet
She buried his fears by lending him listening ears
In a twinkling of an eye, his bitter sweat became sweet

Those were her decisions
What are yours?
Did a guy sell his television to give you provisions?
Love is not looks that lure but trait that cures

Today is filled with you the memories of us,
And I couldn't help it but to shed those tears
For the pain of waiting patiently to hear your sweet voice.

Every thought that comes to my mind
Feeling I can move the sea with you
But day and night yield weeks
And weeks yield month which turns to years, still the wait is on.

Just like this world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me
Don't let me go,for love is my burden
And my trouble.

I don't want your hopes to wither
Justice can't be defeated.
If words are made of glass,
Believe me,I won't forget you my love
Even if you are my hell,
I'll rush to you without thinking
If I ever tried to walk away,
Just hold on to me,don't let me go.

Do you give up happiness,just because of stubbornness and ego?
It's never too late for us my love 💕
For love is our cure.

Just like the world beats with life,
So is my heart 💜 beats for you
If I ever try to leave,
Kindly hold onto me and don't let me go.
For love is my burden and my troubles.

Life moves in a blurring way .
I encourage myself every day.
I write a gratitude journal each day.
Assuring myself it will be in divine timing.

I keep my day bright and musical.
I engaged in movies.
I wrote and affirm our reunion everday.
I paste some affirmation upon my shelf and walls.
I try to celebrate my livelihood.
I assured myself it's going to be better.

I turn on our favorite music which takes me back to when we are good
And I dance without abandonment into the inky black of the night,
While I sing out the lyrics passionately loud and dance vigorously .

I wear masks,pretending I never Miss you
And I lie myself down diagonally across my soft bed with crossed leg,
Reading novels,or reading books or poetry or do tarot card spreads,or checking on horoscope, While the scent of essential oil fills up the room as I listen to sublimals and meditation rhymes.

I include my guardian angels in all that I do.
I talk and pray to their spirit daily.
I encourage myself that I am currently scaling a phase of life
So frighteningly, unpredictable and going to new beginnings in all endeavor.
Something so dead center to the absolute truth of who I really am,
Why I am here and my purpose.
With days that are so unexpectedly thrilling and days where I can barely breathe — walking on the lawn, wailing in my heart 💜, sitting upon the edge of my bed weeping silently into the palms of my hands.

I engaged myself in my work duties,using my leisure time to watch movies,I no longer attempt to resist, but look deep into the eyes of every experience all the way.
All of those immense and passionate joys and the staggering delirium of tireless grief of your silence and distance.

I accept the silence,no communication, fear and disappointments and keep my hopes strong to still wholeheartedly believe in the direction of expansion through the heart of Allowing.

I now know what I am facing.
My full understanding of everything has totally changed and the lessons are well mastered.
No amount of preparation could have seen me through to this place — this unexpected and unpalatable phase of life where I have begun my true healing.
Where everything inside me is still joggling, shaking and reeling with all that has come to pass and for the one hoping for.
Yet I am learning how to find that sacred balance and feel proud of myself, at last.

Twinflame experience completely ground me down to dust.
And yet, somehow, everything that I AM, everything that I wish for, remain fully intact.
Despite all of the chaos, traumas and all of the pains,
I believe a new day will comes soon and I will be right here.
So I will keep on taking care of myself,
Working on my total happiness and
Keeping the hope alive.
I am not going to ever convince you to choose me
And I won't chase you,I won't give up on us also.
It's okay and fine with being replaced.
For I know you can't do find the love 💕 as mine
Anywhere in the world 🌎🌎🌎.

It's very hard for people to find their right place in life.
It's even harder for them to find their right person.
Young people may not understand
But if you find that person
DONT LET GO

If you let go, then you will never find them
The road never end,
You can move on your own way
But you will need a friend to accompany you on that way

Our ancestors once said and I quote
"Choose a friend before choosing a path"
Those who look will surely find.
And when you do
Don't ever let go!

When I looked at Life,

I realized it is totally twisted.

No matter how good or bad

Your dreams and plans are

Life will still have its own to give you


So don't fight it, Don't Force it

Just let it go and allow the Universe to

Make it come to you.

Remember life has no respect for anyone

It gives what it plans

So appreciate what you have

And allow that thing you desire comes to you.

Just live it... And be happy always

What a rumbling heart I have been feeling since daybreak?.

Why is my heart feels so happy?

why is your name keep threatening me this way?

Can you hear my heart calling for you?

All day long,all what my heart was saying is soon I will see you.

I tried to distract myself but I only end up feeling you.

is it possible you too are yearning for me

As my heart and body is?

Can you hear me calling into you?

pls talk to me, I am dying to hear your voice,my love.

Life happens to you when you're making other plans.
You start with your own dreams and ideas
You plan your life accordingly
And then you realized it doesn't work that way.
That things don't work out as you planned

Changes forces you to ask questions
You have to face your fears and question yourself.
And that makes you stronger 💪

When time plays games with you,
You can't force it or manipulate it.
All you can do, All that is Left to you
Is to surrender  yourself to time.

I read somewhere "that life is what happens to you while you're making other plans.
Don't fight it! Don't stop it!!
Accept it!!! And move on with your life.
When the time is right,we will see each other again

Looking through my page,
Coming to a friend who betrayed me,backbitten and mocked me after being a true friend with her.

We fought,we separated and went on our own way.
But I just looked at her page and find nothing to say than

"The Universe knows the best."

Life is so wonderful,that the person, who you think life should be punished is the one life will favour most.

It took me some hours to check deep in me how I am and the life of a betrayal...

Then I realised nothing but to be grateful in all. For only the universe knows how and when!

Grateful for my life ❤️🧬 xo

I've been living with a shadow over my head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been alone for so long

Stuck in the past i cant move forward
Been hiding all my hopes and dreams
Just in case I need them again someday

I've got time set aside
To clear some space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find my way back to love
I cant overcome without a path back to love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been looking but i don't see any signs
I know it is somewhere
It’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I'm lookin for somebody to emit some light
Not just someone to spend the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find my way back to love
I cant overcome without a path back to love

What if I open my heart again
I guess I'm waiting for you to be there for me in the end
There are times when I don't know if this is real
Or if anyone else feels how I do
I needed an inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find my way back to love
I cant overcome without a path back to love
What if I open up my heart to you
I hope you show me what to do

What if you help me start over
You know I'll be there for you in the long run.

Body can be tired
Eyes may get wet
But don't let your heart be weak
Keep believing that every difficulty there will be ease
Behind the sadness there is happiness

Stay strong even though your situation looks heavy

Things may even look cloudy
Stay strong even though your body looks fragile
keep being a person who reflects beauty in your every step...💖✍️

I'm not afraid of the distance..💖
Distance is only testing in a wait..
If two hearts are destined to be together

However far...💓

How long...💞

How difficult..💓

The two people will meet
So the distance won't be a problem..
because our hearts will always meet...🌹💖🌹

Behind my silence...
There is love that I hold for you...💖

There is a faithful that I keep for you..💖🤞💖

And there is a sense of prayer for you..😇

And 8 can only send you a throat chakra healing and confidence healing
For you to make it right.

Life is a canvas and it looks the way you want it to look.

You're the artist and it's up to you what colors you fill your life with.

So what did you paint today?

You are the driver, of your life,

No one has the power to drive you unless you allow them

Given them space and time makes life life easier.

Even your immediate family are your number one enemy

They are there to push you to your destination if their NO,is worked on to be your best.

Then you will realised it's a great way to your abundance

Are you ready to navigate your your way?

RAINBOW WITHOUT COLORS
A beautiful Angel from above
And his smile is so bright
His eyes are full of love
He fits perfectly in my heart
My heart were made to hold him
And I was made to love you

He's truly beautiful an Angel from above
His warm kisses are from heaven
And he's safe in my heart
And sheltered inside my heart
Smiling with me every day

Every day spent with him
Is the best part of my life

He always make me feel like a woman
Because I love you my beautiful hubby
And sweetheart,
Me without him in my life is like
The sky without stars
Your face without your beautiful smile
Or a rainbow without colors

And sweetheart may our days be filled
With forever happiness and joy

Because every day is a dream come true
Because sweetheart I'm
Forever in love with you..

I don’t have crow’s feet,
I have happy happy memories of laughing with friends until the tears flowed.

I don’t have frown lines,
I have the marks of my frustration and confusion, which I battled through, change for my highest good,smiling in the end.

I am not going grey hairs,
I have shimmering highlights of wisdom, dashed throughout my silver hair.

I don’t have scars,
I have symbols of the strength I was able to find, when life got tough. My life thought me, "Tough time never last but tough people do" and I am grateful I am a good example.

I don’t have stretch marks,
I have the marks of growth and the marks of motherhood. My womanly evolution.

I don't have flat breast, I have

I am not fat,
I bear the evidence of a life filled with abundance, blessings and good times.

I am not just forgetful,
I have a mind so full of stories, memories and moments there is scarce room to hold much else.

I am not old,
I am blessed, with a life of great length, a life full of ups and down which I scape through it all. A life of threatening health but I overcome them all, something not everyone can say.

Don’t change the way you look my friend,
change the way you see things,not all is negative, there's always a blessing in disguise in all experiences.

But change the way you see.

DREAMSDREAM
Every soul has a dream to accomplish
Many were achieved through pain and fear of the unknown
Many were shattered by the experience of the past.
And also some were made out of resentment

But what makes life worth living is the ability to heal from the past,
Ability to forgive YOURSELF
And those that caused the pains

And strength to walk past the fear and anxiety.
To conquer the spirit of past chaos, relationship Experiences, family background experience and friends disappointments.

Then the grace to heal from the past and live in the present help one to be fully happy and feel fulfilled

Money,wealth and affluence
Means nothing when the heart is not fully happy.
Life make sense to people watching us but we ourselves know that all are fake for the heart is not yet experiencing the totalDREAMSDREAce

You hide behind your feelings
And keep the truth locked away,
But there's so much said in the things
You don't say.

You innocently tell me
Our time has come and gone
And that we can't go back
But I don't believe it
And this time you're wrong.

The distance you put between us
Is nothing more than time lost
A place for feelings to hide
Yet I can hear  the love in your voice
Each time we talk.

My patients has no end
When it comes to loving you
And i will wait a lifetime
For you to see the truth.

Real love doesn't go away
It doesn't fade into the past
It goes on forever
And always finds it's way back.

I will wait a lifetime for you
Because you are my soul
And behind all your doubt
I know you can't let go

You are my soul
And I am yours too
If two were meant to be
It's you and me!

MY PRECIOUS ONE

You are a Purest Angel
From heaven above
And I've fallen in love with you
And your soft gentle kiss
And a warm touch
Makes my heart skip

A beat feeling true love
As I hold you in my arms
And listen to you beat inside
In my heart,
We share a magical
Moment of true love
Coming true

And this love is so beautiful
Divinely made
Supernaturally supported
And every day my heart will
Beat for you.

My eyes only see you
My mouth only
Calls your name
And my heart only
Beats for you
And my body only
Answers to you.
Because I love you!

But I can't love you
For you need to love yourself first
You need to allow true love in your heart.

FEAR OF THE PAST
Is not going to allow forgiveness.
Which is making one to offend himself


I can't be with you until you are completely healed.
Until you give yourself the chance let the past be
Until you are totally healed and allow true happiness to enter your heart
Until you fight and win the giant Called FEAR

Until after you really realized I suit to take part of your full joy.
Because I can't complete you I can only complement you.

So ground yourself my beloved.
Follow your heart desires,
Learnt to leave the past behind.
This will help to give you clarity because it will hinder you to move to the future
Learn to be in the moment so as to follow your heart desires.
Know the God and the Angels are supporting you
Only you need to let the past be and live in the present

As you are entering a new year of your life tomorrow,
I wish you all your TRUE HEART DESIRES
A new year of soul Alignment
A new year of full joy
A new year of abundance of money,wealth, connection and sound Health

Happy birthday to you my love in advance.

BOLAJI OLUTOSIN TEMILOLA.

You are a Purest Angel
From heaven above
And I've fallen in love with you
And your soft gentle kiss
And a warm touch
Makes my heart skip

A beat feeling true love
As I hold you in my arms
And listen to you beat inside
In my heart,
We share a magical
Moment of true love
Coming true

And this love is so beautiful,
Divinely made,
Supernaturally supported,
And every day my heart will beat for you.

My eyes only see you
My mouth only
Calls your name
And my heart only
Beats for you
And my body only
Answers to you.
Because I love you!

But I can't love you
For you need to love yourself first
You need to allow true love in your heart.

FEAR OF THE PAST
Is not going to allow forgiveness.
Which is making one to offend himself


I can't be with you until you are completely healed.
Until you give yourself the chance let the past be
Until you are totally healed and allow true happiness to enter your heart
Until you fight and win the giant Called FEAR

Until after you really realized I suit to take part of your full joy.
Because I can't complete you I can only complement you.

So ground yourself my beloved.
Follow your heart desires,
Learnt to leave the past behind.
This will help to give you clarity because it will hinder you to move to the future

Learn to be in the moment so as to follow your heart desires.
Know the God and the Angels are supporting you
Only you need to let the past be and live in the present

As you are entering a new year of your life tomorrow,
I wish you all your TRUE HEART DESIRES
A new year of soul Alignment
A new year of full joy
A new year of abundance of money,wealth, connection and sound Health

Happy birthday to you my love in advance.

BOLAJI OLUTOSIN TEMILOLA.

DREAMS*
Every soul has a dream to accomplish
Many were achieved through pain and fear of the unknown
Many were shattered by the experience of the past.
And also some were made out of resentment

But what makes life worth living is the ability to heal from the past,
Ability to forgive YOURSELF
And those that caused the pains

And strength to walk past the fear and anxiety.
To conquer the spirit of past chaos, relationship Experiences, family background experience and friends disappointments.

Then the grace to heal from the past and live in the present help one to be fully happy and feel fulfilled

Money,wealth and affluence
Means nothing when the heart is not fully happy.
Life make sense to people watching us but we ourselves know that all are fake for the heart is not yet experiencing the total Happiness.

As you are crossing over to a your new wonderful year tomorrow
My prayer is for you to be fully aware of your true heart desires so that the blessings inscribed in your new year will bring you TOTAL HAPPINESS AND FULFILLED LIFE

I wish you the best of LUCK AND HAPPINESS the Universe can give to mankind.
Remember I may not reach out but I am never going to forget you and I always ask your Guardian Angel to always be with you
Happy birthday to you in advance