Life moves in a blurring way .
I encourage myself every day.
I write a gratitude journal each day.
Assuring myself it will be in divine timing.
I keep my day bright and musical.
I engaged in movies.
I wrote and affirm our reunion everday.
I paste some affirmation upon my shelf and walls.
I try to celebrate my livelihood.
I assured myself it's going to be better.
I turn on our favorite music which takes me back to when we are good
And I dance without abandonment into the inky black of the night,
While I sing out the lyrics passionately loud and dance vigorously .
I wear masks,pretending I never Miss you
And I lie myself down diagonally across my soft bed with crossed leg,
Reading novels,or reading books or poetry or do tarot card spreads,or checking on horoscope, While the scent of essential oil fills up the room as I listen to sublimals and meditation rhymes.
I include my guardian angels in all that I do.
I talk and pray to their spirit daily.
I encourage myself that I am currently scaling a phase of life
So frighteningly, unpredictable and going to new beginnings in all endeavor.
Something so dead center to the absolute truth of who I really am,
Why I am here and my purpose.
With days that are so unexpectedly thrilling and days where I can barely breathe — walking on the lawn, wailing in my heart 💜, sitting upon the edge of my bed weeping silently into the palms of my hands.
I engaged myself in my work duties,using my leisure time to watch movies,I no longer attempt to resist, but look deep into the eyes of every experience all the way.
All of those immense and passionate joys and the staggering delirium of tireless grief of your silence and distance.
I accept the silence,no communication, fear and disappointments and keep my hopes strong to still wholeheartedly believe in the direction of expansion through the heart of Allowing.
I now know what I am facing.
My full understanding of everything has totally changed and the lessons are well mastered.
No amount of preparation could have seen me through to this place — this unexpected and unpalatable phase of life where I have begun my true healing.
Where everything inside me is still joggling, shaking and reeling with all that has come to pass and for the one hoping for.
Yet I am learning how to find that sacred balance and feel proud of myself, at last.
Twinflame experience completely ground me down to dust.
And yet, somehow, everything that I AM, everything that I wish for, remain fully intact.
Despite all of the chaos, traumas and all of the pains,
I believe a new day will comes soon and I will be right here.
So I will keep on taking care of myself,
Working on my total happiness and
Keeping the hope alive.
I am not going to ever convince you to choose me
And I won't chase you,I won't give up on us also.
It's okay and fine with being replaced.
For I know you can't do find the love 💕 as mine
Anywhere in the world 🌎🌎🌎.
What will be will be.
