Have you ever not been able to talk
The words are frozen
Jammed in my larynx
I try to swallow
But they stick to my tonsils
Don't let this torrent fall out
This waterfall
Hold this in until you bloat
Rotting cow
Hope the flies eat you before you explode

Write on me
Score my skin with graphite
Tell me you care
While carving me up
Like a roast pig
Cry your sorry
Till the salt falls in these wounds

Who are you
To sit judgment
On those broken minds
Killer thoughts
Arsenic veins

I am grey
Insubstantial but heavy
Pregnant with water
Individual tears
That form a body of water
I am full but empty
A garbage bag of plastic

My body is like a church
Bulldozed, demolished
And built again
Shatter my windows
Praise at my alter

Sometimes I forget if I've always been this way
Or if a beast has taken hold
Of expectations lost
Desires unsatisfied
That's dried me up

The last time I hid in the trees
Was last weekend
I sat on the cedar mulch and watched
Waited for madness to creep away
Receding waves into murky nothing