🌹Sorry🌹

Moody
No longer speaking
In the door
You said
You leaving
Me...
I was really sorry
But you couldn't trust my story
Cut it short
Like your short temper
Remember.....
My words....
I was sorry....
And let you cause i loved you.

#G-kay😔

Silence
Silent the crowd
Followed by a round of applause
After the announce
Splendid.....
Greatest performance
Performed the audience
Reformed innocence
In my inner sense
Resurrection of my consciousness....
I remembered
The splendidness that made you a splendor was splendid

Temptations

I wish i could smile like you..
I wish i could love my self like you...
But i can't...
Am damaged...
My pain can't be managed..
Don't be suprised....when you see me hanging on the ceiling....
i can't contain this feeling....
killing my self an option.....
temptations

I never choose to feel this way..
I never had a choice..
To speak the way i feel...
I never killed by the way i live to see my loved ones die...
The anger in me...
Grows
Am ready to ****
Temptations...

I guess my temptations differs...
From yours...
Mine dark with scent of evil chilling...
Voices whisper...
Telling me take law in my baby hands
Am still young with vengeful spirit...
My heart desire things...
That i can't offer..
Am tempted

I seem to turn to be 20th century...
Shakespeare
My words cut through like a spear...
Tearing your heart apart...
I and my eye...
glanced to your eyes..
I saw fear...
Of losing you cause i knew the cost was losing my self...
So in your arms i stayed...
Forever.
#G-kay

They come and go like seasons
Leaving no reason
Why they have left
One thing stays
Memory of moments shared
About you
i cared
My love for you
It wasn't compared
To any other
I believed that i had you
Not another...you.

The clouds changed from white to grey
The winds came and blew the day
The dust of my past blown away
You were gone
No where to be found anywhere
But in my memories you stayed
But they quickly fade
New ones made
Forgot you
I did.

They expect me to smile..
Like its okay...
They expect me to laugh...like its funny..

They pretend to love...
While i know am hated...

Am progressing....
Receiving lord's blessing...

This is the truth...
You better do your confessions...

Unhappy...i said
Am in pain...
thats sad...😔
No one cares about me...
In reality....
I fade....no one notice me.....💔
Maybe am not attractive...
They say looks don't matter...

I don't matter...
To them...🌹
My light place turn dark...
I feel lonely...
And unhappy....
If i had a wish....
I will make it to death...
So i can be free...
In my prison...
I call myself...

I heard of freedom..
But i don't know any...😔

I heard of anxiety and depression...
I have those
are many...🌹

Its okay hate me...
I struggle loving myself..
I too...😔
Unhappy am...
Your eye sees it too.

-kay⚰️⚱️

Sweet voice of yours
Low frequency
Its like they was no air disturbance
Equilibrium of the sounds balance
Ears ready to hear
What whispers.... announce

Have you heard
The phenomenon of the bad news spread
While you toss and turn in your bed
They bury your dignity with *****
6 foot under
Whispers moving faster
Than a sound of thunder....
I whispered.

Who am I ?

I patiently asked....
But my answers were not answered....

As i sit under the shed drinking a hunters
I layed all my motives
Under
My heart racin.... that's
A sound of a thunder

Who am I?
Asked my father
The answers i got....
Deviates from one another....
I thought of me and I
But they was the other....
My self
Hidden behind the shelf
Taking orders like an elf
Pointy ears
Strange fears
I heard
All in my head

Who am I in your eyes?🌹