I'm broken
I'm a monster that ruin everything
within themselves and everyone else
Even though i know everything isn't
My fault i blame it all on me
You cheated and slept with my best friend
dreaming about it and being reminded

It remind me of how worthless I am
I thought we were meant to be
You threw it to the trash
I'm broken
Because of you
I wanted you and only

Knowing your with him again
Hearing you hold hand with him
You said i would replace you
but really i was the one replace
A long time go

Well this is my goodbye letter to the world. So today mark as 6 months with my girlfriend. But guess what? she dump me a week before we made  6 months. She told me things i didn't even know, Like cheat on me. It okay, it hurt because everything i did was my fault. I mean i'm not killing myself because of a girl. My reason are my choices in life. I could have been a better person for one. Then knowing she cheated on me and it funny because one of her friend told me it was my best friend she cheat on me with. It show my worth  because i don't believe her or my best friend. By knowing that it close my case knowing my worth. I wish things could have been better but look what i'm going to do on Christmas. I'm trying to overdose. I try last night but really woke up at 3 pm.  Other reason is no one care about me. I wish people did care but i always ruin it. She move on that quick and blame on me for replacing her. I didn't wish she knew that. Well I'm useless and worthless.  I know people say it going to get better but it really isn't it getting hard to live and wake up. I just hope people know i'm going to go to a better place.

Haven't been feeling anything lately,
my girlfriend has been worried about my safety.
I haven’t care, I’m sorry about that.
I have been happy for a while and now it all falling apart. I thought I would be happy but nothing could get me to smile. I’m just venting here because I don’t have anyone and my girlfriend think I’m sleeping. I don’t know how to come to her and tell her how much I think of dying.

There isn’t anyone in sight.
Im breeding to death slowly but surely.
Stuck behind four walls and a bed. This bed is draining my energy away.
It getting harder to breathe from this room of thoughts. It eating my insanity. Why isn’t there anyone in sight to get me. Why can’t someone knock the door, maybe I’m unworthy.
I’m lost in my own thoughts, I need a escape. I can’t handle this alone.

Life is going to fast, death is coming quick then I expect.
I’m trying to slow down, my brake ain’t working.
I’m going to crash and I’m not coming out of this alive.
I’m alone in this car ride
There isn’t anyone now to safe me.
Even if I had brakes my life would  spin out of control.
I guess there no coming back after this.